Letters to my Love

Good night my darling, such a long day I'm going to sleep.
You are always with me in my thoughts and in my dreams. I
love you, I love you.
Beautiful moon
December 1, 2015


Good morning my lovee, Here's another beautiful sunrise
that I share with you every morning.
You once wrote me "You are the first thing I think of in
the morning and the last thing on my mind before I fall
asleep, and as I've told you many times in bed at
sunrise....I even miss you in my sleep. I'm nothing anymore
without you. I owe you my smiles, my direction and my
calm." Thank you Brookie
Well just know my love that I mirror all of this back to
you and there's not a word there that I do not feel,
manifest and do. If you cannot I will and so we shall
always compensate for each other. I am here thinking of you
in every single thought, dream and moment. I love you
eternally.
December 1, 2015


December 1, 2015
These are my rituals that honor us and honor our love.
Beautiful morning walk imagining you here with me like we
used to do. I know your soul needs this so much to get
better. The ocean, the birds chirping at dawn. As I walk I
feel we're together here. I love so much and only want you
to heal.


Look at this beautiful calendar you got me for Hanukkah
last year. I'm getting a new one for us for 2016. I can't
believe how sweet you were to send me gifts everyday from
London. You are incredible my darling.
December 1, 2015
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Hi my sweetheart,
I'm still at office working on our InList video
presentation for our anniversary. You would be proud lovee.
We really accomplished a lot so far especially with all
that happened. I love you and miss you so much.
December 1, 2015
Just got home from office I'm so tired. Sending you all my
love sweetheart. Here's another picture of the beautiful
moon over our ocean.


Good morning my lovee,
I want you to know I am and must always be on your family's
side as I know we will all be united soon despite their
current denial. I love you with all that I am and I would
never want to hurt them in anyway. I was just telling you
that keeping the story dead for 8 months with what's
occurred has been a great triumph and pulling a lot of
favors. Your dad runs a public private partnership with
NYC. It really does not make him look good at all when he
has not allowed the people YOU love dearly to have any sort
of communication with you even through a third party. I
guess that was only reserved for football players like Tom
Brady who you do not care about at all. Not for someone
like me who is the love of your life to even be able to
send you a card.
This really breaks my heart and the cruelty is beyond
imaginable. Never in a million years would I of imagined
that anyone would of taken this road. You warned me enough
and I know this was a main cause of all your anxiety and
stress. I pray everyday that they finally get it and let
you be who you are and who you have chosen to be with.
Hiding the truth from you, deleting your friends on
facebook that you love and not letting you have the proper
cues to remember your most beloved recent memories and me
is only in the end prolonging your full recovery.
You will only be 100 percent better when you regain 100
percent of your memory so any efforts to speed this up
should be taken now. To justify blocking everything from
you on the basis that you will then identify me with an
incident does not in anyway, out-way what goods it will do.
Again it is their strategy that they obviously feel very
strongly about. My opinions are reached by speaking to an
endless amount of specialists in your field and they ALL
agree that at this point in your recovery LOVE will
severely alter the outcome for the better. I am with you in
every thought and I love you so much. I really do
understand that they have really tried to only protect you
so for, so for that I love them. Your soul also told me
your mom understands but your dad is still in complete
denial about everything.
December 2, 2015


I love you, I love you, I love you and I do love your
family despite all of this and will continue to respect
their wishes for a bit longer. Like I said yesterday, you
went more out of your way to give me the most incredible
gifts everyday for Hanukkah last year and I'm having
trouble accepting that it's this Sunday and I'm still not
allowed to send you a card and gifts. These were your
parents DIRE orders and even though they were trying to
protect you it's been months now. Since then, they have
read all the letters I have emailed you but they have still
chosen not to share them with you although it would
stimulate everything back for you. Anyways lovee the last
thing your soul and guides tell me is you will soon receive
an influx of memories and then will will have missed the
opportunity to give you what is yours prior.
It is their choice but in the very near future everything
will come back to you. I love you infinitely.


December 2, 2015
This is your night table lovee, nothing's changed. It
always amazes me that you have the picture of our dock on
your night table, in a gigantic plexi in our room, the same
pic in a black frame at The Avalon. With all of that your
family still refuses to acknowledge our love and try and
utilize it to help you heal. It's so incredibly frustrating
it just kills me. Why on earth would their daughter have a
picture of a dock at the Moorings where I drive 4 to 6
hours on every 25 th day to go pray and feel close to you.
It obviously is something very dear to you and not giving
you all my letters just doesn't make sense. How on earth
could that possibly be helping you heal?
I love this picture of you so much, it's
from our trip to San Diego. I just love
the look you give me as I shot it.
That's my little soulmate.


December 2, 2015
My darling I just want to tell you how much I love you.
I've been here all day setting up like we did together last
year. I still can't believe you're not with me here I'm so
sad. We literally have all of Miami, Ny and La coming
tonight so it should be a big success. There's over 5000
rsvps so it will be an interesting evening. Please know you
are my only love and my one and only. Everything I do, I do
for us and for our future. I hope you had a great day and I
will be sending you I love you texts throughout the night.


This is your company as much as mine lovee. We built it
together and we will sell it together.
December 2, 2015
The buildings in the center are the future buildings that
Moishe will build here. He wants me to spearhead a portion
of the development with him so it's a pretty big deal. The
site is 35 acres so there's a small city to build here.
Maybe one day we can get your dad to do the green spaces
like we always said. I love you so much.
This is the idea but obviously
it needs your dad's touch on the
central areas.


My darling I just got home from our event. It was a really
big success and I think it was really good for InList. I'm
waiting for some of the Getty images to come out so I can
send you some pics. You were with me throughout the night
in my heart and so so many people send you there love. Ruth
even came with her lovely husband and hung out with me. She
sends her love too. I miss you so much it's unimaginable.
A little bigger than last year...we literally filled the
entire black room which is 60,000 sq ft.
Anyways I'm so exhausted my love, I'm going to bed now. I
love you with all of my heart and soul. Good night
December 3, 2015


Good morning my love, look at the beautiful colors in
today's sunrise.
I had to go back to asleep a little as I really needed to
catch up on sleep since I've been working so hard. I hope
things are really getting better for you lovee. I feel so
much change is happening with you.
I pray every minute of the day that I can be there for you
and help you get through this. Tigee is next to me meowing
as I'm typing this. He can feel I'm typing to you. Soo
cute....
December 3, 2015


Look at today's portion in Zohar lovee and look what you
sent me the day before we last saw each other.
December 3, 2015


Just know that angels are taking care of you my love and
whatever was manifested, as difficult as it may seem and
for me and your family, in the grand scheme of things
everyone will end up as better and more evolved selves. The
universe has strange ways of teaching us things but in the
end the hardest lessons always create the most sacred
humans. Most Masters and prophets were always put through
severe tests but in the end they are the ones who not only
had the greatest impact on the world but also the ones that
carried humanity to the next chapters of its master plan. I
trust in God and there's not one fiber in me that doubts
that you will become one of the most valuable souls of the
earth's next generation. I love you infinitely. Nothing is
by chance lovee.
December 3, 2015


Hello my love,
I hope you're feeling ok today and everything is going
alright. Today we had a luncheon with Kamal again similar
to what we did last year together but during the day. It
was to showcase Adrien Brody's art collection so it was a
really great crowd. Even Leonardo Dicaprio came so all of
that is great exposure for InList. I miss you so much it's
killing me. Now I'm in Hollywood for our Costa Hollywood
Basel event. It's on a big yatch so it's really nice. I'm
just sitting in a corner talking to you because I'd rather
do that then anything in the world. The project should be
finished by next summer so that will also be a great thing
for us.
I'm going to video the lcds now so you can see the
presentation. I think it will do really good for this area.
I just want to be by your side and help you heal and give
you my hearts energy. It's really the only thing I want to
do.
Here's a pic of the site from the boat lovee.
My love I'm home and in bed and missing you so much. I love
you and can't take this for much longer. Your soul is
telling me that you need me to heal. I can't allow this to
continue much longer. Good night I love you.
December 3, 2015


Good morning my incredible little soulmate.
Look at this rainy sunrise morning. Let the rain bring down
a cleansing here. Sunday night is Hanukkah my love. It's a
very important time for your healing as the greatest
miracles in history have been manifested during this time.
I feel things will shift here and it will. Please believe
in your strength and do not be scared. I am always by your
side no matter what.
http://miamiherald.typepad.com/miami-art-watch/2015/12/art-
basel- celeb-watch-leo-out-lenny-still-in.html
Good little write up for InList since Leo came. That was a
good one for us. I love you so incredibly much.
December 4, 2015


Lovee I had an incredible meditation this morning and
really tuned into you. Are you ok? Does your neck hurt? I
feel a change in the program for you, perhaps there's new
therapists that will focus on getting you through the
memory recall stage. It's time baby, this has gone on too
long and I am certain the universe is going to interfere
soon if your family does not voluntarily help you in every
way to remember everything.
I'm still here in office working away but stopped to tell
you how incredible and amazing you are. I miss you so much
and think about you every minute.
December 4, 2015


I really feel like your mom is finally starting to
understand everything and I have faith that she will let
you contact me very soon. The more I meditate on her, the
more I can feel her soul and how much she loves you. I know
you are her main treasure in her life and I wish she would
understand that I'm on her side no matter what happened
before. I will fight till my death to protect her and
defend her and support her. My only intentions are to give
her love, give you love and for all of us to be good to
each other now. All I want is for things to be balanced
between us and for her to at least meet me privately first
if needed. She needs to trust that my love for you is as
pure as it comes and there's no selfishness attached to it.
This idea of hiding the relationship from them was never my
idea and you know I wasn't for it. I always wanted you to
disclose it but you always warned me about their ways and
how they wouldn't accept it so you were terrified of them.
I remember when we came back from Paris and you went home
to Chappaqua. You called me so happy that you talked about
me at dinner and told them how great of a person I was.
Then you told me that mom came up to you after and said "
you know honey I can see you with someone like Michael but
obviously someone much younger and someone who went to an
Ivy League school. You were soo so happy but also still sad
that she said the other two things. You were so close to
finally tell her and then this thing happened.
It's like the universe forced it to reveal itself even
quicker in order for all parties involved to face it. I
meditate on your dad and he really seems as if he doesn't
want to deal with it and he's in denial like your soul
tells me. With Susan I feel more and more everyday that
what she told me in the hospital was true even though she
was so hard with me for the last 8 months.
That she does understand love and really does only want you
to be happy. I wish I could tell her that I'm not here to
turn you against them nor to separate you from mom. I only
want all of us to be united and love you.
Sunday is Hanukkah and I'm putting all my energy and
prayers into this miracle of change. That is my
intention. Susan needs to trust that you are brilliant and
sharp as a cookie. If you fell in love with me it's for a
December 5, 2015


very special reason and nothing superficial. She needs to
know this and honor and respect what her daughter would
want. I remember you telling me how your grandmother did
not like Susan for Dan so she tried to sabotage it. That
sabotaging caused Dan and Susan to not have a very good
relationship with her for decades. This lesson should of
been learned already it's such common sense. Why would your
mother try and do to me what was done to her. It is not the
way and I'm just so confident she's going to realize this
finally and honor what her daughter would want. I love you
with all of me. We will get through this darling and
everyone will be together. I promise you. I love you


Good morning my love, how was dream time?
December 5, 2015
I'm at Shabbat again studying this week's portion,
Vayeshev. This is a good synopsis of it darling and it's
very relevant to the big picture of all of this.
And this is what I graduated from in Shavuot 2014, this is
what I had to overcome and I did and I never ever once was
made made vulnerable. You are my only true love and I will
always be honorable and loyal to you with absolutely 0
regrets. That is my love for you darling.


Lesson fully learned and completed.
December 5, 2015
Healing prayers for my lovee, you're name has been up here
for almost 9 months honey. We will never ever give up.
How are you feeling today? I'm here at home with Tigee and
we miss you so much. I really hope these messages get to
you soon as they have all been read many many times now. I
trust your mom is preparing do that what is right and to
give you what is yours.


Hi my love,
Tonight is Hanukkah, a big evening for us so I'm really
preparing. I've been studying the work of this Dr. from
Princeton, Roger Nelson. His work mostly relates to global
consciousness and how he has invented devices to measure
humanity's reactions to large scale and impactful events.
If only we had one of these devices here, your parents
would finally understand the deep physical and spiritual we
share as the spikes would be completely abnormal.
How other can one understand, how I can feel you and
understand your energy even though we have been separated
for all this time. It's an incredible journey that will
bond us forever love. I'm so sorry it's been so hard for
you. I'm just so convinced that this will change history.
The lessons are so deep and what will unravel out of your
experiences one day is limitless. I love you with all that
I posses.
December 6, 2015


Happy Chanukah to you and your family.
May this time of the Temple's reconstruction and it's
passed on miracles reunite us and give peace to all of
us. Last year you were so incredible as you sent me a
present every single day of Chanukah. I remember how you
even got your friends to make donations to our charity.
Thank you for all of that my love. As I stated in my
previous letter there is no action you can do that I do not
also want to mirror back to you.
Your first gift is here wrapped and in our home and you
will get it when we reunite. The second is a donation in
your name to a foundation called Love Your Brain.. It was
founded by Kevin Pearce, a former pro snowboarder who had a
major TBI. He also went to Spaulding and we have a couple
of friends that know him really well. Next year when you
are better we can meet him and he will help guide you
through this process my love. Today he speaks at Ted Talks
and has a great documentary of hope out. Perhaps they
mentioned him to you at Spaulding when you were there. He
is very inspirational and I know he will be a great guide
for you one day.
The third gift is a donation to BCRF, The Breast Cancer
Research Foundation. I know how worried you were for mom's
cancer and I know this is important to you. It's also very
important to me and I still pray every single day and night
for your mother to heal and for your family to come around.
Your mother has really done everything she can for you and
for that I will always honor her and love her because I
love you unconditionally. Whatever was done in the past out
of fear or protection for you is no longer relevant now. I
am not angry and I only want to be there to help you
recover to another level and bring you happiness.
I lit our menorah earlier and placed our pictures, the
pictures of your family, the pictures of you and Rob and
the pictures of us and Danoushka around it. It's to
symbolize unity between everyone and I'm hopeful that a
miracle will happen and unite us. I am so convinced your
healing will amplify by thousands when we see each other
December 6, 2015


that I would agree to sit in a jail for life if I was
wrong. I love you infinitely and I will never give up on
you or us. I am always by your side no matter what. Happy
Chanukah lovee.


December 6, 2015
First gift lovee, it's a hand painted bag
from Art Basel and it says life, love,
infinity, young, wild, you, me
Donation in your mom's
name from us
Your donation to
Love Your Brain
Foundation.


Happy Chanukah my darling. Good morning and sending you all
my love.
Lighting the second candle earlier lovee. May all the light
here manifest miracles for your healing.
Now I'm home lighting our
candles sweetheart. I miss
you so incredibly much. I
just don't understand how
your parents can want to
deliberately hurt the
person you love so much.
Regardless of their ways I
still send all the prayers
and blessings that I can.
December 7, 2015


Happy Chanukah my lovee,
It's now day 3. I really really hope something changes here
with your family soon. I vowed to respect their wishes till
the holidays. I really hope I don't have to take drastic
measures to be able to see you as you have rights and they
are not honoring them. I don't see how you can ever fully
heal as long as your fondest memories and the things you
love the most are concealed from you. I cannot let this go
much longer my love as I love you too much and you deserve
to know the truth. It's almost 9 months now. I still
continue to pray and hope your family will open up. It's
insane to me that they cannot realize that if they initiate
me to see you they win and if they conceal you from the
truth one day you will learn of everything and they will
not be able to justify any of this. I'm really absolutely
shocked that any human being would act this way towards
another Snd specifically the one human being who they know
you love more than anyone. The cruelty is beyond my
comprehension. You certainly warned me and I'm so sorry I
never understood why you were so terrified of them and why
you told me " you don't know them, you have no idea what
they are capable of, they would lock me up and throw away
the key"
Absolute insanity as these were your words to me about them
as you were on the verge of breaking down and after all the
beautiful letters and positive energy I have sent we are
here 9 months later with the same stubborn ways. Your
brother has continued his mas exodus campaign of
eliminating all your friends that know me from your social
media. What kind of sick minds would think to do something
like this.
I'm sorry I just cannot accept this anymore. The wall is
coming down soon if they don't realize this the public will
demand it.
December 8, 2015


We literally have more than a thousand people and hundreds
of friends that love you that will protest and demand that
you are allowed to communicate with us. I've done my best
to understand your Dad stubborn attitude and I really do
cherish and honor your mom for being there for you. At this
point I believe this sick strategy is directed by your dad
and Rob just does what he's told. I remember when you
texted me from London about how Rob was screaming at your
parents saying " I'm 28 years old stop telling me who to
see, what to wear and how to live, it's my f life, stop
controlling me".
This is why it's so shocking that he would actually go in
your Facebook and unfriend every friend we had in common. I
really cannot believe he would do this to you as your
brother who in this case has completely betrayed you by
making you believe things that are not true.
He erased all the messages on your wall from all your
FLORIDA friends. I have screenshots of what your wall liked
like prior to his sweeping campaign. There is no
justification for this and it cannot serve any good as
these are your cherished friends and NO ONE HAS the right
to try and rewrite history and dictate who you are friends
with. I'm beyond disappointed in his actions and it's so
disheartening that he would follow orders like that and not
stand his ground like a man and say " I refuse to do that,
this is not right and it's not fair to Brooke to ask me to
do this"
I'm soo soo sorry for all of this my love. I really tried
so hard to send them the most incredible messages and to
honor them. Now I'm on my last legs because he just deleted
more friends 2 days ago and this shows that their
intentions are to make you forget about the people you love
who they believe you should not be friends with. Ironically
out of all your other friends many of them like Felicia
don't drink and are the most beautiful spiritual souls.
Like I said, he deleted the wrong people and this will get
back to the Kraft's and others in Boston if this is not
repleted and if you are not given ALL THE LETTERS I have
emailed you immediately.
I have already consulted with the #1 Guardianship attorney
December 8, 2015


in NY and your rights are being violated and we will seek
to get a judge to force my letters to get to you if they
don't very soon. Like I stated before my love, all the
letters I have emailed you have been read multiple times so
there cannot be any excuse that they didn't see them.
These are your letters and you are 23 years old, walking
around in better spirits, working out etc. The guardianship
will never hold up at this point and it's not fair to you
that things that belong to you are not given to you. This
is a moral disgrace.
I love you eternally and I only want peace and unity with
your family but I will not accept any longer that you are
not given what is rightfully yours. If we have to go
explain to a ny judge what is going on here just to get my
letters to you than we are ready. I have also hired Roy
Black who feels strongly that your rights as an adult are
being violated at this point.
I have also consulted with a handful of the most renowned
Neuro-Scientists and they feel very strongly that if we are
able to see each other in controlled settings right now it
will stimulate your memory and recovery. They are also
willing to go tell a NY judge their opinion. Ironically
they are also Harvard and NYU doctors so the credibility is
already there.
This strategy is no longer serving any good and it's going
to implode very very soon. I pray to God that this Hanukah
will create miracles so that you can regain your full
memory and you will be given my letters. I'm so so so sorry
that this all happened my lovee. I have written you
hundreds of letters but approximately 20 have been emailed
to you and read all this time.
To think that in almost 9 months and after all the loving
letters they don't have the decency to let us know how you
are doing or even give your friends like Spencer or my mom
an update. Not one single viable update on you ever from
them. This is sick, cruel and it will reap an endless swarm
of bad karma upon them if they don't realize this soon. I
have literally cried every single day and teared enough to
fill a pool and they just go about their ways and continue
to hurt all of us who love you unconditionally with the
purest of pure hearts. Complete lack of compassion and
regard for the people that you love the most.


The main reason I've been holding back on all this lovee is
if I take any actions it will become a big public story and
that's not what I want you to have to deal with. Your dad
and Rob will not look good in the press if their actions
were to ever get out there. I spent hours today in our
apartment with Ruth from the NYT. She loves you and she
knows how much you love me and she's upset that your rights
have been violated especially by the chairman of Bryant
Park.
Don't worry she won't write anything for now as I only
spoke off record but if we have to go to the surrogates
court to get an order so you receive my letters than that
will be public record and this will all come out.
I was very clear with your family in my letters that I
would give them a certain amount of time to heal and
reflect. At this point any attempts to selectively only
show you half truths is immoral, not fair to you and
illegal as you are 23 and your electronic mail is being
intercepted, read and not given to you on the grounds of a
very very questionable guardianship. We will seek to have
it removed if I can't see you soon lovee. You always asked
me to be by your side no matter what and they have
completely dishonored your wishes as that was written by
you to me and given to them back in April. Enough is enough
I pray for everyone's sake that they will finally realize
do what you would want not what they want for you. This has
been your biggest struggle in your life with them and same
with Rob from what you told me. They need to let you be who
you want to be and help you heal by allowing us to be
together sometimes so I can bring you all my love and light
and your battery pack to your heart that was stolen from
you. I love you infinitely and from tonight on the clock is
ticking and there will come a time very very soon that all
this will implode.
I am so sorry sweetheart. I really thought they would come
around and I'm still hopeful they will realize very soon.
They need to immediately show you all my letters, the photo
album I gave them, everything from the suitcases and your
night table. Then they need to give you back your phone Snd
let you read the 3000 plus incredible loving messages I
December 8, 2015


have sent you since March 21.
Hopefully they did not attempt to delete the messages
because each message has been out into a book that is
printed now and will get to you before holidays end one way
or another.
This game is officially terminated now as I will not accept
any longer any deception attempts by them.
This anger is derived because Rob deleted more of your
friends from your social media and I will not stand for it
anymore. He can explain his actions to the national press
if he ever does that again.


Lovee,
As I've stated before I'm willing to forgive all the
deliberate harm they have put on us. They do not know what
they do. It's not to late for them to open the door and
make peace with this situation. It's pretty clear this was
not an accident that could of been prevented in any way.
There was no negligence here so their actions towards me,
Danoushka and all our friends in common cannot be
justified. This anger that your dad holds is wrong and will
only boomerang back to him if he doesn't fix this and give
you what is yours. I gave Rob your Infinity ring too btw so
he better give it to you now.
December 8, 2015


Good morning my darling,
May today bring incredible healing strength for you. I'm
here sending you all my love and prayers. I love you with
all of me and I just want you to receive my letters.
I have no intention on doing any harm to your family. All I
want is for you to receive my letters and be able to
communicate with me darling. It's really not much to ask.
Let's hope they find it in themselves to give you what is
wright fully yours now.
December 9, 2015


Happy 4th day my lovee.
More prayers and blessings for you. I'm getting a little
cold so I had our IV Doctor come over. He says hello he
cant believe what has happened.
So today was really difficult. I arranged a meeting with
mothers who had dealt with similar situations then your mom
with you. One mother had spent a good year by her son's
side so she really knew every detail. The one thing that
really hit me is how she said her son couldn't remember
anything with proper cues. She had pictures plastered all
over the walls of all her son's friends and memories.
She explained how the pictures spawned a memory, then the
music spawned a memory, then each friend spawned a memory
and eventually her son completely recovered. This just
broke my heart to hear this, as I know that if all our
precious memories where shown back to you, it would help
you so much. She was practically crying when I told her our
story and how your family won't let me see you. She said
they are really making a monumental tragic mistake by
December 9, 2015


depriving you if what you need.
Every bit of recall is so crucial and especially the most
valuable memories you behold.
It's so sad because I know how much your mom loves you and
how they only want you to recover but they are just fixated
in their strategy for now.
Well I guess it's all in God's hand s and I'm certain that
regardless you and I will reunite soon, you will all of a
sudden regain memories and you will demand to see me.
I have put more prayers into this than all the prayers
combined in my last 10 lifetimes. I still feel your mom
will realize very soon that you deserve to know the truth.
She will be the force that understands all this soon. I
love you with every atom in me lovee.
Hang on, we're almost there.
Here's a pic from when we were getting our vitamins when we
were both sick last. You had just came home from Chappaqua.
The next week you were sick in Ny and I flew up just to
take care of you for the day. When I arrived and we held
each other you told me you weren't sick anymore but just
needed me and our heart to heart.


Good morning my lovee,
I noticed that your family has blocked my number now but
that's ok. All of the thousands of texts have have put into
a beautiful book for you to one day see. I love you so much
and cannot believe this movie. Well on the bright side your
now going to have the best material on Earth to write about
one day. I still continue to pray for them every morning
despite it all.
Remember this book baby? It's our the photographs you chose
for our living room.
December 10, 2015


They probably think I'm crazy to text you all this time
even when your phone was off for months. I wish they knew
that you used to complain so much to me because I wasn't
texting you as much as when we first reunited. Well I
wanted you to have a daily record of my unwavering
dedication to our love regardless of what was attempted to
be done. In the end as I've told them so many times they
are fearful of the wrong guy. They actually believe that
the one person who loves you more than anyone in the
universe would hurt you. Incredible.
Here's last nights candles, see after all that I still
light the year's most sacred candles and surround the
blessings with more pictures of your family than of mine.
December 10, 2015


Sweetheart I sent you this 2 weeks ago for our anniversary.
I want to make sure you got it. I love you don't worry
everything will be ok.
Lovee,
I'm sitting on our dock, under this beautiful moon at The
Moorings writing you this. Today is November 25, 2015, our
18 month anniversary. Earlier this morning I tried to
replicate the beautiful breakfast plate you gave me on our
6 month anniversary. Of course I think you're better at
this than me but I tried. I even used the same icing that
you had in our kitchen. I lit 18 candles on the plate and
wrote you this card titled, My Love is wherever you are.
What I find so fascinating about us is how we have always
compensated for each other without even blinking. I must of
read the card you gave me for our 6 month anniversary a 100
times. Each time I read it, not only do I understand you
more, but I also can not differentiate if you wrote that
for me or if I wrote that for you. There's really
absolutely no difference. Every single carefully chosen
word that you wrote me is exactly how I feel about you.
Therefore all I can do I mirror back to you the magical
words you wrote me.
Again this solidifies everything we always knew. I typed up
the words from the card since you don't have it with you
but I know your soul remembers it all. It will all transfer
back soon my love don't worry. It just needs to be read
again to remember.
This is what you wrote me....
"Lovee, So glad to be sharing this life with you. This says
it all. You have taught me to love and be vulnerable to the
depths of this love. What a glorious lesson I felt for the
last 6 month that we are living in a dream I never want to
wake up from. I pinch myself how happy you make me, how you
dry my tears, bring a wide smile to my face, and inspire me
to reach for the stars everyday. I know now it's not a
dream, but the most wonderful reality I could have hoped
for. I am eternally grateful for our love--for your huge
heart, the twinkle in your eyes when we lock gazes, and the
battery pack of your heart next to mine, and your hand over
December 10, 2015


mine. If this is six months I can only begin to imagine how
a year will feel--I'm not sure they have a word for it. I
love you infinitely, and I do thank God for bringing us
together everyday. You are the first thing I think of in
the morning and the last thing on my mind before I fall
asleep, and as I've told you many times in bed at
sunrise....I even miss you in my sleep. I'm nothing anymore
without you. I owe you my smiles, my direction, and my
calm."
Thank you, Lovee Brookie
Darling in one of the pictures attached, there is the Isla
Morada hat that we wore on the way back from our first trip
together. In the small silver frame, there's the first
picture we ever took together here from our house. The
picture you mediated on with our candle as you sent me all
those incredible loving texts in February. Those texts,
that I've printed out for your mom to read are the most
beautiful things anyone could ever write. They represent to
me how deep our connection is and what you intuitively
asked me to do no matter what happens. In the small vase
there are seashells that I've handpicked on every 25 th day
from The Moorings beach.
So here I am, again celebrating our union in solitude, joy
and tears under this sacred moon that we once stared at
together all night. I cannot be with you in the physical,
but as promised, I am always with you no matter what. You
are all that I am. I love you with every fiber in me. I
love you infinitely. Happy Anniversary darling. I'm so
sorry I can't be by your physical side but I am here with
you closer than any being could ever be. One day they will
realize how quickly you would recover if we were to see
each other. Until then, I am always by your side NO MATTER
WHAT..
"True love does not mean being inseparable, it means being
separated and nothing changes"
I pray that you will receive this today. I trust that your
mom will do what's right and what would make you happiest
and nothing else.
I love you infinitely.......


Lovee tonight is the Kabalistic new moon of Capricorn. Your
month baby. This is the strongest sign in the zodiac and I
know you will find your strength in this energy. I love you
with every fiber in me.
I'm watching 50 First Dates. Eventually she remembered
everything and I love this ending.
December 10, 2015


Baby just tell your mom you want to see me, don't be scared
lovee I'm only here to give you love and support. Tell your
mom I'm on her side and love her for taking such good care
of you. My only intentions are to unite all of us and love
everyone you love no matter what.
I'm going to sleep now so see you in dreamland as always. I
will be up at sunrise sending you all my love as your
always the first and last thing on my mind.
Memories...
December 10, 2015


Sweetheart I'm sitting on these rocks just crying and
telling God to give you the strength this weekend to demand
to see me. How can they be so cruel it's so sad. We love
you so much and only want to make you happy.
More Chanukah blessings for you darling.
December 11, 2015


December 11, 2015
I mirror this back to you everyday of my life.
Please listen to your Spotify "us" playlist. It will help
you find your spark and light. Think of when you mediated
on our balcony and texted me so many incredible things with
the Michael candle.


December 11, 2015
This is what you wrote me on weeks before...


These are all the things you gave me lovee. I know you
remember all this. This picture depicts how we always
described what happens when we hold each other. That's our
battery pack. This will be the energy that heals you now.
I have spent the last night months in total solitude,
mediation and prayer. All I have really done is beg God
every minute to heal you and re-unite us.
I hope you can still see the thousands of texts I've sent
you every single day. There should be over 3000 messages
that explain everything and every emotion and what I've
tried to do.
I need to know how you are babe? I care more about you then
anything in this universe and I'm absolutely dying here not
knowing how you are. I'm so sorry for what happened lovee
and I still to this day have no idea what happened. It's
like if we were zapped as there is no explanation for this.
I just need to know they my baby is getting better
Sweetheart more of your closest friends have been removed
and blocked from your social media.
December 11, 2015


I am so sorry they are doing this to you my love. Don't
worry it's ok, they do not know what they do. Don't be mad
at them, just know that we love you and all your friends
are still here waiting for you. God will intervene now and
unveil the truth.
Btw in September you had three times more. They have
attempted to remove any contacts from your life that they
don't approve of. None of this matters as these people love
you and you love them and they will find you regardless.
Every single text I have sent you since March has been put
into a book for you to read one day. I always knew attempts
would be made to hide things from you so I took my measures
too. You will have a 500 page book with all my messages
soon. I wanted so badly for them to be good to me and try
and make peace. I couldn't of prayed more for it.
December 11, 2015


To think that these are the letters and blessings I send
and this is what I get. It's just beyond any persons
wildest imagination.
My darling,
Happy Chanukah to you and your family. May this time of the
Temple's reconstruction and it's handed down miracles
reunite us and give peace to all of us. Last year you were
so incredible as you sent me a present every single day of
Chanukah. I remember how you even got your friends to make
donations to our charity. Thank you for all of that my
love. As I stated in my previous letter there is no action
you can do that I do not also want to mirror back to you.
One of the pictures attached is a screenshot of your gift
to me last year.
Your first gift is here wrapped and in our home and you
will get it when we reunite. The second is a donation in
your name to a foundation called Love Your Brain.. It was
founded by Kevin Pearce, a former pro snowboarder who had a
major TBI. He also went to Spaulding and we have a couple
of friends that know him really well. Next year when you
are better we can meet him and he will help guide you
through this process my love. Today he speaks at Ted Talks
and has a great documentary of hope out. Perhaps they
mentioned him to you at Spaulding when you were there. He
is very inspirational and I know he will be a great guide
for you one day.
The third gift is a donation to BCRF, The Breast Cancer
Research Foundation. I know how worried you were for mom's
cancer and I know how important this is for you. It's also
very important to me and I still pray every single day and
night for your mother to heal and for your family to come
around. Your mother has really done everything she can for
you and for that I will always honor her and love her
because I love you unconditionally. Whatever was done in
the past out of fear or protection for you is no longer
relevant now. I am not angry and I only want to be there to
help you recover to another level and bring you happiness.
I lit our menorah earlier and placed our pictures, the
pictures of your family, the pictures of you and Rob and
December 12, 2015


the pictures of us and Danoushka around it. It's to
symbolize unity between everyone and I'm hopeful that a
miracle will happen and unite us. I am so convinced your
healing will amplify by thousands when we see each other
that I would agree to sit in a jail for life if I was
wrong. I love you infinitely and I will never give up on
you or us. I am always by your side no matter what.
Darling I'm here at sunrise on our favorite sandbar again.
Today marks 246 days that we have been apart in the
physical and it also marks that our soul's are intwined 246
trillion more times since the last time we were here
together holding each other.
"When two souls are one since the beginning and they are
separated, the force that separates them can only cause
them to cling on to one another even more tightly"
You once wrote me "what a glorious lesson this has been."
Today after 8 months of a mirage of unknown emotions, I
feel compelled to tell you that I'm forever grateful for
the love your parents have shown you during these most
difficult times. Since my last uncomfortable email exchange
with your parents there has been the deepest introspection
on my part.
In this journey I've especially realized how much your
mother loves you and how hard this must be for her. How she
must ask her herself everyday how did this happen Dan? Why
did this happen? What did we do wrong?
In my deepest meditations I can only feel deep love for
your mother now and feel her pain. I remember you telling
me how she prepared herself for your birth....how she
sacrificed her entire career and happiness so she could
properly raise her children....how many hours she spent
every day guiding you through your perfect
education.....how she preferred to drive inexpensive cars
so that those monies could be used for important things
like family vacations. I really do wholeheartedly thank
them and pray for them everyday.
I intuitively know that she has been by your side every
single minute since this I was by your side. I don't know
many mothers who would do that so I can only thank God and
all your guides for putting you back in the hands of


someone who loves you as much as I do.
Every single morning I recite the prayer MEM HEI SHIN. I
may not of always agreed with your families strategies to
keep us apart but I do respect their decisions now. I know
these decisions only came from loving you so deeply and
trying so hard to protect you. At the end of the day, just
like I once told your father, we are both fighting for the
person's survival of who we love more than anything in this
world. For this alone I bow down to them and ask for their
understanding and forgiveness everyday. What greater test
can there be of how they have tried to protect you and what
greater test can there be of my love for you too.
I pray that your mom does not feel this pain anymore and
that she knows how great of a job she has done with saving
you. It is also not our fault that our soul's reunited and
we fell in true and genuine love. That was God's doing not
ours and there's not a morning that we awoke from without
both thanking God for bringing us together. This requires a
deep profound understanding of God's work to grasp this.
Many living only on the surface of earth would never get
it. The universe plays tricks on all of us so we grow and
evolve spiritually not just in day to day life, success and
business. I've always maintained my position that I am 100
percent confident that when all that has to be learned
between all of us is learned then the universe will
interfere and reverse the sleepy mind of sleeping beauty.
Your guides and Angels have made that crystal clear in my
innumerable visions, dreams, connections and messages from
all the higher beings.
I have never ever doubted our love and your love for me.
Even with the universe's greatest painful tricks and you
not currently remembering much including me, I have never
wavered and never doubted us. This is the process of Tikkun
and are the lessons needed to bring us closer to
perfection. Your soul messages me that your family is
planning to go away with you somewhere. I am delighted to
hear this as I feel it would be great for everyone to get
away from the routine of hospital visits and rehab for a
bit. I hope they may take you to Chamonix that you love so
much. This could reignite so many memories for you from
childhood that it could spawn something in you.
I await the miracle everyday without any doubt and
hesitation. You will regain all your remembrance soon my
love and everything you ever wanted will happen. It's just


a question of time. I love you with all that I am and
contain in me. You are my one and only true love and I will
wait till the ends of time for you. In infinity we were
born and in infinity we shall dwell.
Love, Me
Ps. Why do you think this was your favorite quote my love?
Think about it? You wanted to be a free soul and only to be
loved by your mom and family and nothing else.
"I would rather be ashes than dust! I would rather that my
spark should burn out in a brilliant blaze than it should
be stiffled by dry rot. I would rather be a superb meteor,
every atom of me in a magnificent glow, than a sleepy
permanent planet. I shall not not waste my days trying to
prolong them, I shall use my time"
And they treat me like a criminal who can't even send you a
message on Facebook. Sick