Letters to my Love

Lovee,
Today is our 13 month anniversary so I came to Moorings
again to bring flowers and talk to you from the dock.
June 25, 2015


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June 25, 2015


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June 25, 2015


Darling,
Today marks 100 days since our last morning together. I'm
absolutely devastated and cannot believe I've been told not
to even send you flowers or things I know you need.
I hope you know how much I love you and that I am with you
in every single moment of my life. It's so difficult to be
kept in the dark like this on your recovery. You're the
love of my life, the most precious, sacred and most
important thing to me in the universe. There hasn't been a
day that I don't cry and I'm worried sick about you. I pray
as much as I can to beg God to heal you and soften the
anger in your parents hearts towards me.
All I want is to know that you're getting better and you
know I'm here and will never give up on us no matter what.
I vowed this to God and I will never remove my vows. The
thought alone of your struggles and fears just breaks me in
half but I fight everyday to stay positive. Our magical
wire and our telepathic communications have been the only
thing keeping me afloat. I'm so sorry this happened my
love. I don't fully understand what happened as I don't
remember anything. All I know is we are masters of our own
destiny. We are both incredible and such special souls. The
universe would of never allowed this to happen unless it
was for our greater good. Someday hopefully in the near
future the truth will reveal itself to us. For now I can
only say how sorry I am that you are suffering. You know I
would of never consciously put you in harm's way of
anything.
There's so much I need to tell you but I can't put it in
these emails as I'm not certain who will read them. I made
you these beautiful books with all the daily letters I
wrote you and another one with all our friends that wrote
you messages. Everyone misses you so much and we trust in
God that you will get better everyday. I'd give anything in
the world to trade places with you love. I would actually
give everything I have if I could to swap places. I would
sit in a prison my whole life just so you could be healthy
again. I love you infinitely and everyday that word and
commitment has more strength and meaning. You are
everything to me, I love you, I love you, I love you.
Please never give up, miracles will happen I promise you.
June 27, 2015


These are some of your anniversary gifts btw.
June 27, 2015


Just sending you all my love and strength lovee. You're my
everything. I love you infinitely.
June 27, 2015


My Love,
My baby, I feel that today is going to be a good day for
your recovery. Last night you seemed scared but I feel
today is a better day. I can hear when you talk to me so I
just feel this.
I hope you have an incredible day in your progression and
that miracles happen.
This weekend was really hard for me as is every day. I'm in
constant tears and heartache for you but I'm always
optimistic about the big picture. I just know God won't let
us down and this journey, as hard as it is will someday
make us better than we ever were in every sense that
matters.
My love for you is eternal, unconditional and grows thicker
like a rain forest in every moment.
I am here forever by your side in absolute repentance and
solitude. I know you are in a healing cocoon now and so am
I. Please be strong lovee and don't be scared ok. I promise
I will never let you down. I love you infinitely.
June 29, 2015


" I must be willing to give up what I am in order to become
what I will be" -Einstein
June 29, 2015


Lovee,
So yesterday I was told metaphysically that you were really
starting to improve. That your energy centers were finally
opening up and there are significant changes happening. Of
course nothing makes me happier to hear or feel this. I was
begging you to send me signals of how your doing and I
received them. Thank you babe. Of course there is no
physical proof of this as I'm not privy to your medical
condition. If I had to bet my life on my instincts I would
though, I just feel that your getting better, I feel our
wire is stronger than ever and your soul communicates with
me every day now. People all around me have dreams or
messages too from you. It's really fascinating. As much as
I'm in the deepest sorrow and pain I've ever been I can
feel you so close to me.
I'm told that my lesson in this is to surrender to God and
just trust in us. That things will all come together when
the time is right and not to force anything with your
family as that will cause chaos. That's been very difficult
for me because I felt you crying out for help just a month
ago. Now the messages I receive from you through the
universe tells me what I needed to know. That you are
progressing well, how important your recovery is to you,
that you miss me so much and you don't want me to see you
until your better.
So just know that I understand and love you eternally and
unconditionally. I'm here waiting patiently for you to heal
and I trust in us and God's plan. I will never give up on
us.
I love you
July 1, 2015


Sunset swim and prayers for you baby.
July 1, 2015


It's now the full moon of Capricorn so I'm out on our
balcony talking to you with Tigee. I love you so much.
July 1, 2015


Love of my life,
This morning I'm sitting on our balcony. Usually every
morning I walk out to the beach but today I'm here on our
chaises like on New Years. It's an interesting unconscious
choice as today marks the beginning of the July 4th
festivities. I remember we watched them from this balcony
just six months ago so I stationed here this morning to
connect to you. I guess tonight Tigee and I will be here
too watching the fireworks. I'm sure you will hear them in
your bedroom or see them from the waterway over there. I'm
sure Boston will really have beautiful ceremonies. I know
that tonight when you see the fireworks you will think of
us as I will be thinking of you. I love you so incredibly
much and I just pray everyday that your getting better. I
love you infinitely.
July 3, 2015


Superb meteor,
Happy 4 rth baby, I've been on our balcony watching the
fireworks like we did on New Years. I felt that it would
awaken something in both of us and draw us closer. We wrote
our intentions together and repeated them most of January.
The most key one being to love each other with every fibre
in us. Well this is one thing that I can promise you I have
done. There is nothing that I love more than you and
there's not one fibre in me that disagrees to this. I also
want you to know that everyday I work on that list and have
already learned and solved a lot of it. Everyday I try my
hardest to be the best that I can be for me and also for
you.
I just know you will be watching the fireworks tonight and
thinking about us and our promises on New Years. Your
absolutely everything to me love and I really feel your
getting better every day. This quote you once sent me
really explains what I felt tonight. You are a superb
meteor and you will overcome all of this. I love you
infinitely.
"I would rather be ashes than dust!
I would rather that my spark should burn out in a brilliant
blaze than it should be stifled by dry-rot.
I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in
magnificent glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet.
The function of man is to live, not to exist.
I shall not waste my days trying to prolong them.
I shall use my time."
July 4, 2015


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July 4, 2015


My little soulmate,
I'm here at St. Agnes on the Key praying for you to get
better. I love you infinitely and I know you're healing day
by day. I love you with all that I behold. You are in a
word everything to me.
July 5, 2015


Good morning my love,
I hope you were able to rest this Sunday as I did a little
too. I can't stop thinking about you and wondering how you
are progressing. This morning at 6am the last 2 emails I
sent you titled 100 Days and Happy 4rth Lovee were opened
and read. I doubt it's you opening them because I know you
would at least write me something if you could. Every
moment of my existence I think of you and I work on being
better in every way possible. This weekend I really focused
on fulfilling your last wishes to me. I've printed lists of
all the things I did that hurt you and bothered you. I want
you to know I'm scratching off everything and working so
hard on myself. You won't have to ever stress about the
things that bothered you ever again. This has become my
grandest priority. From the deepest parts of my heart I'm
sorry for any griefs or stressed I caused you. You're the
most important and precious thing I've ever known. My goal
in life is to make you happy, take care of you and cherish
you every moment I can.
I pray that you have a good day in therapy today and that
you get stronger every day. I love you eternally baby. I
love you
July 6, 2015


My Love,
I'm missing you sooo much I can't bare this any longer.
Yesterday I had to fly to Ny to do a Fox News segment for
Inlist. It's the first time I've been here without you and
I just can't be here without you. I went to your apartment
and placed some flowers in the small garden area by the
front. The young cool security guard saw me outside and
came out and said hello to me. They all miss you and hope
you are getting better. As I walked through our Whole Foods
I cried thinking of the last time we were there together
buying vitamins upstairs. I'm on my way to NJ now to see
Jane Doherty and hopefully get more messages. I love you
eternally and there's just nothing in my life that matters
more than you. I love you with every fibre in me. I love
you more by the second. I'm here praying and rectifying
every day. I love you
July 8, 2015


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July 11, 2015


Lovee I'm out on our beach sending you my thoughts and all
my love.
I love you infinitely. ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤
Tiger misses you so much Lovee
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July 11, 2015


July 12, 2015


My Everything,
Darling the last few days have been so powerful, I don't
even know where to begin. While in NY, I went to see Jane
who happens to live by Princeton. There was a very powerful
connection made with us at her house. I will tell you all
about it one day. Yesterday Deborah from Mt. Shasta also
got some very powerful messages through and they all seemed
to match up. I went to see Andrew who has 1111 Vibes on
Lincoln Rd. One of your gifts to me was a session with him
and the singing bowls. It was very powerful and again I
really just feel so connected to you. Everything that's
happening is so surreal yet so fascinating from a point of
connection of course. The pain and heartache I have, not
fully knowing how you are doing kills me but I trust and
I'm so thankful in all these spiritual connections to keep
us bound closer than ever. I really do feel you and don't
doubt what I'm receiving. We always had this wire and now
we've both been forced to fine tune it. I guess Beethoven
had to do the same after loosing his hearing. I wrote again
4 times to Michelle but still no reply. It breaks my heart
she won't talk to me because she was the only one that
could of possibly helped here. I guess God's plan was that
we don't see each other during this phase so we strengthen
our other senses. I really believe that's why and now and
this experience has brought me closer to you and magnified
our love by trillions. There is nothing more special,
sacred and important than our love and you Lovee. Our love
is beyond all worldly matters and this experience has
proven that. I love you infinitely was our little slogan
prior but now it's become our scroll, our template and
roadmap. No matter what, this love is forever bound
infinitely in the universe and protected by God. I love
you, I love you
I feel so close that your hand upon my chest is mine, so close that your eyes close with my dreams. Pablo Neruda ❤
I'm one with you
July 12, 2015


Good morning my heart,
Yeah you're my heart in every meaning of this phrase. I
miss you so incredibly much but feel so connected to you at
the same time.
July 14, 2015


Sweetheart,
I'm sitting on our beach, it's now been 117 days since we
held each other on our favorite sandbar. Here, listening to
our singing bowl and the birds chirping over the calm
ocean. The connection I've felt to you lately is absolutely
inexplicable to most humans but I know you feel it too. I
guess most humans don't have the kind of love we share.
This magical ancient connection bound infinitely throughout
the cosmos is our greatest bond. I tune in to you and there
you are almost as if we've had a phone lately. Perhaps our
spiritual connection got us an early removal of the
training wheels of life so needed for humanity in this
epoch. Our boat was called Satya Yuga and as painful as
this has been it also took us into another level of
consciousness. A higher dimension where our frequencies
aren't distorted by everyday life. Looking up at the birds
here and their calm nature let's me understand better now
how they all connect and communicate. I've learned now that
when you truly want to do something, the mind is limitless
and has all the power to do what it takes for pure love.
We've been forcefully separated and placed in the most
difficult circumstances imaginable, yet our connection and
love has only grown stronger, been properly nurtured with
the utmost attention and the gardens are now flourishing
with endless flowers and rainbows. I have no information on
your recovery yet inherently know you are getting so much
better. I just feel this and I thank God every chance I get
for all the healing energies you are receiving. We always
shared this magical wire and the separation has forced the
Beethoven effect to unveil for us. Beethoven loved music so
much that even when he lost his hearing it couldn't stop
him from creating sounds of divinity. The mantra I recite
now is " I am one with you" because that's how connected I
feel to you. You are in a word everything to me and every
second that ticks away is a tick that elevates us and
brings us closer spiritually. I feel you, I hear you, I
sense you and I feel your love. You are my universe, my
kingdom and my heart. You will get through this my love and
I'm here for you in every way possible that is meant to
happen during this period. I love you infinitely. Be strong
as the warrior that you are. God is here for all of us and
your family. I love you, I love you, I love you.
July 14, 2015


Morning prayers and love to my little soulmate. I love you
infinitely.
July 16, 2015




Lovee,
There is this sacred church in Brazil called Santuário Mãe
Rainha. Today there's a pilgrimage there with 2000 people.
I had a friend who's baptizing his child there make an
offering for us. I feel it's really special.
July 18, 2015


Darling,
I came out to the Mojave desert at 5 am this morning. I
wanted to catch sunrise and connect with you like I do
every day and night. I came to Vegas to solidify some
relationships for Inlist. Of course I didn't go out once
nor did anything here but my meetings. I really felt your
presence here and I know you wanted to be in the wilderness
more. I promise you that when you're better we will explore
the world together. I pray every moment I can for God to
heal you and reconnect us physically again. I love you
infinitely.
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July 18, 2015


Lovee,
I'm back on Soldier Key trying to feel you and talking to
you. Coming here really brings me closer to you. I miss you
so incredibly much I'm in endless tears. I love you so so
much.
July 19, 2015
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Sunrise meditation by our favorite sandbar.
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July 20, 2015


My Love,
Today marks 4 months, since we last held each other that
morning bonding infinitely. Of course I'm here again typing
this like every day since and praying for your recovery.
Yesterday I went back to Soldier Key to connect to you in
our sacred channel. Being here always brings us closer as
the birds and nature really seem to connect us closer
through the calm remoteness. I guess it makes the channel
of communication much more clear. Later I rode the bicycle
through our favorite trails and stopped at the end of the
wooden boardwalk overlooking our favorite sandbar. I go
there to feel our last physical heart to heart connection
we did that morning. It's so interesting how the geography
of the moments enables our subconscious to remember in
finer details every instance we shared. It's almost as if
it's some sort of Google for our important moments to
emerge. In the evening Rabbi Sam came over and taught me
great things of this period in history in the Torah. It's
during these times both temples were destroyed but properly
utilizing these energies can also create miracles. We made
a beautiful blessing on our beach for us to reunite soon
and for you to heal. I still can't believe it's been 4
months now but this indescribable pain fortifies our love
every moment. My Lovee just know there's no moment in my
world that exists without you. You are my everything and I
love you eternally. I count the seconds till your better
and I can hold you again. I love you, I love you
July 20, 2015
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My Lovee,
Darling I'm sitting on our beach crying and grinning on
this 126 th day. Sometimes I'm torn between worrying and
just trusting in God and this master plan. I can't seem to
understand why all your friends have taken this position
with me to never speak to me again. It just doesn't make
sense to me that they could be so hurtful. They know how
much you love me and how much I love you. I know they are
kept informed of your recovery and your parents have most
likely told them not to share any news on you with me. This
is probably the most cruel act one can do to another.
Purposely making me suffer not knowing how you are. Here we
are over 4 months into this and the only information I have
on your recovery is from Deborah and you directly and this
comes from a telepathic spiritual realm. Perhaps the
universe set it up this way so we can fine tune that part
of our consciousness. At this point it's really the only
thing I can try and understand. If that's the case then we
have been ordered by God to enter into a higher frequency
of consciousness which will one day enable us and you
especially to be given prophetic messages from a higher
source. Perhaps God chose you for this since you did so
well that on your thesis. After all who would be better fit
than you to write all this down for humanity to learn one
day. I know our connection is beyond anything explicable to
any left brained human. This occurrence has really shifted
around which parts of the brain you're using now and the
other side is where all the powers of the mind come from. I
meditate in the morning and ask you to relay a certain
message to Deborah and she later calls me or leaves me a
recording of what you messaged her telepathically. The
other day I asked you to tune into Sadhu in his meditation
and he called me 2 days later that you came into it on your
own. You appeared metaphysically in his connection with
detail etc. two days in a row. These manifestations is
what's keeping me alive during these times as its really
all I have relating to your healing. Although your spirit
is your spirit and your body is your body, the two seem to
be talking to each other and your higher self, your soul is
telling me how you are. Your soul knows I'm kept in the
dark and wants to comfort me. This is the most incredible
thing I've ever experienced. Its like if you have been
developing what a dolphin has. In our book, The Secret
History of the World there's a quote I've read you before.
July 23, 2015


Perhaps now it will make more sense to you. It talks about
humanity attaining these gifts one day in a higher age. I
think we got an early intro through this situation. "Our
waking consciousness will develop so that it bears the same
relationship to our present-day waking consciousness as
today's waking consciousness bears to our dreaming
consciousness. Although we have believed ourselves to be
awake, we have actually been asleep." Sweetheart I believe
that although you have been asleep ( meaning mind not in
full capacity) I believe you have been awakened to a much
much higher level of consciousness due to through this
process. Esther the Kabalistic astrologer at the center
says that in your Stars you have the ability to understand
matters of the spiritual universe better than me and even
her. Wow.. She's a master and she says " more than her" You
were gifted with this from your many many ancient past life
earnings. This gift of yours that I believe you earned
throughout your soul's evolution has been forced to
manifest now into your waking consciousness. I know this
may seem heavy at first when you read all this but one day
it will all make perfect sense to you my love. You are the
love of my life and I know without any doubt that you're my
soulmate and this is our journey to figure out together. We
are each other's helpers and I will always be by your side
no matter what. This is what you wrote me during that
ceremony. Perhaps these lessons would not have been learned
if I was by your physical side at the hospital. This kind
of love with it's epic proportions had to find a way to
lead us back to each other regardless of all the blockages
put onto us. Had we been together physically this
consciousness growth would not of been as necessary.
Despite all of these thoughts though I still do not feel it
was necessary for all your friends to shut me out. Just
know that there is nothing that can separate our connection
as we are glued as a unit in the cosmos. You are my true
partner in this universe not just lifetime. I love you
infinitely has a whole new meaning. I love you.


Lovee,
Last night I went to the lobby of the James Hotel, where I
picked you up that night. I was googling your dad then and
telling you how great he seemed.
Then I went to the jetty on government cut to connect with
you by the water. I will tell you a beautiful story about
that moment when we see each other.
July 25, 2015


Darling,
Today marks our 14 month anniversary so I drove out to the
Moorings again. I love you infinitely and I will be here
meditating on you and sending you all the energy I can.
This is a new tradition where on every 25th day I come here
and buy you gifts from Miss Monroe.
July 25, 2015


Our first connection was here.. "May I hold your hand?”
July 25, 2015


So cute Christelle in Haiti wants me to say hello and bring
you back.
July 25, 2015


Always reciting this everyday to send you healing energies.
I'm even wearing my Princeton jersey.
July 28, 2015


I took this picture this morning but didn't write you
because I had to rush. Now I'm back here with a candle
connecting to you. I just love you unimaginably and I pray
every day for you to get better. Today I wrote another long
letter to Michelle asking her to at least tell me how you
are doing but she hasn't replied. I just don't understand
your friends and their secretive conspiracy against me. I
can't believe they are acting this way towards me and they
have really really hurt me. Nevertheless I will never give
up on out love and I will always be here waiting for you. I
love you infinitely and I really mean it. Your everything
to me. I love you I love you.
July 29, 2015


My love,
Lovee I just came back home from Shabbat and wanted to just
tell you how much I love you and how much I care about you.
This is by far the hardest thing we have had to go through
and everyday is just as painful as the last. I still can't
understand why your parents have decided to withhold all
information on your recovery from me and your friends like
Spencer, Eric etc. Anyone with a heart for others would at
least have the decency to give us weekly updates on your
recovery.
Rob doesn't even reply to Spencer or Eric Roth when they
ask how you are doing. You and I spent more time together
in the last year than you did with them since high school
and they feel we're not privy to know how you are
recovering. It's just unimaginably cruel and its so sad
they chose this route. You always warned me about their
ways and its heartbreaking that this accident has not
changed them. I remember our prayers together for your
mom's cancer on our mornings. Regardless of their tactics I
still continue to pray for them and only send them love.
Revenge is not the ways of God and will never be.
Purposefully inflicting pain onto others like they are
doing to me can only cause pain to boomerang back to
themselves as the prayer Ribono Shel Olam teaches. I know
you remember that prayer as we read it many times before
going to bed. To think that I've actually been threatened
not to send you flowers anymore. Wow...
Darling I do hear you and I feel you and what you're going
through. I know you're getting better and I'm getting
signals from you that you're going home soon under the
rules and guidelines of your parents. This does make me
really happy because I know they wouldn't release you if
you hadn't drastically improved.
My life today consists of pretty much meditating on your
healing as much as I can and going to the office and
construction sites to work. (Nothing else) There's not a
second that goes by that I'm not always thinking about you
and tears drip down my face in every instance that reminds
me of us.
I drive to work listening to our "US" playlist and I drive
August 1, 2015
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back listening to it again. I visit our dock at the
Moorings on every 25th day and light a candle every night.
Today's Shabbat was the preparation for the weeks leading
into Rosh Hashanah. Of course I'm taking this very
seriously as my intentions are for the new year are to
bring miracles of change on your recovery and your parents
anger towards me. Remember the beautiful Rosh Hashana
ceremony we celebrated together last year. Our vows..... "
to love each other with every fibre in us."
It's almost ironic to think that they would hate so much
the one person on earth who loves you unconditionally and
has tried to do everything to make your life better and
fill it with love and joy. My entire mission in life since
we met was to make you so happy and share everything with
you. Any parent on earth who really loves their daughter
should be delighted to know that there's a person out there
who loves you this much. I love you beyond what anyone
could ever understand. You are my true partner in this
universe and I know despite all of this that true love will
always prevail. I love you infinitely darling and please
don't ever doubt it even if they force us to be out of
sight and out of mind with each other.
I attached a picture of your name at Temple that's been up
since March. Everyone is praying nonstop for you and we all
meditate on this every Shabbat since. I'm here in every way
that I can be. I love you eternally. I am one with you and
God.
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Babe I made our album on IG like we always said we would. I
hope you can find it. I love you
I'm on Instagram as michael.brooke.infinity. Download the
app to follow my photos and videos.
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August 1, 2015
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Good morning my love.
August 3, 2015
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My love here I am again crying out to God to reconnect us
physically. This weekend was really difficult for me again
as I keep writing letters to Michelle but she just won't
reply to me. Not even a word, it's so hurtful to me as I
just don't understand why they want to hurt me so much and
keep me in the dark. I just can't get it out of my mind.
On a brighter note I feel like you are really progressing
and I feel you and hear you talking to me. It's all I have
but I know it's the most powerful connection anyone could
ever ask for. Im wondering when they will move you to
Chappaqua? I feel it's in preparation now and that really
makes me so happy. Hopefully you will find a way to send me
a note or tell Michelle to reach out to me.
Baby just know I'm here just praying for you every moment I
can. I just tell you all day long " I love you, I love you,
I love you" I must say it 50 times in a row as often as I
can just so you can feel it and hear me. I know you can
because I feel you grinning when I type this. This morning
I read you out loud the beautiful 6 month anniversary card
you wrote me. I hold it every day to connect to you. It's
so beautiful and when I read it to you there's not one word
that couldn't of come from me too. It's really the same if
I read to me from you or if I read it to you from me or us.
These things reassure me everyday that we really are one.
We really do share one heart, one soul and one love. You
are everything to me, just connecting to your soul and
energy is enough to light my world forever. Just know that
whatever is the outcome of your recovery I will love you
just as much. I really can't live without you and I await
you every day. I love you infinitely. Never give up my
baby. It will be ok I promise you.
Morning ritual. Brooke,
Michael and God
meditation.
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August 3, 2015
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Lovee I'm back here again now under a beautiful moon. My
entire life is to just send you all the love in the
universe. I love you eternally and will tell you this till
this moon falls from the sky.
August 3, 2015
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Good morning my baby.
I'm here with the bicycle at Cape Florida. I'm lost king
out at stiltsville as it reminds me of us. I love you so
much I can't bare this anymore. I'm sending you all my
live.
August 5, 2015
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Sending you another beautiful sunset from our beautiful
home. I miss you so much I can't even function anymore. I
love you baby.
August 5, 2015
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I found all these secret trails I can't wait to ride here
soon with you. I know how much you are going to need nature
my love. There's not a moment that goes by without me
talking to you in my head. I know you hear me.
August 5, 2015
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My love sorry I haven't written in two days I did another
ceremony so I was gathering all my thoughts. This picture
was this morning at Shabbat. We all pray for you and I
connect to the Torah and send you all its healing energy as
often as I can.
August 9, 2015
I'm doing everything I can do help heal you from the
aspects that I can. I love you infinitely. You are my
treasure and I will never give up on us. I love you
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Lovee I'm sitting on our beach now it's 3 am. Looking at
this moon and just sending you you all my love, all my
energy, all my commitment to you and everything else that
consists of me into you. I love you more by the minute and
continue to learn and understand how special this love
really is.
August 9, 2015
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