Letters to my Love

My lovee, The last few days have again been so hard for me
and I know it's even harder for you. I keep getting mixed
messages on your recovery and status. There was another
very deep ceremony days ago and as always I felt you with
me the entire time. Sometimes I feel like I'm chocking to
death if all that I'm holding with this situation. The pure
pain of this for both of us is sometimes so overwhelming I
can't even breath anymore. Peri has been really working on
himself and seems to be making significant changes now. We
have a plan that I will write you about after its
accomplished incase someone is reading these messages to
you. My love just know how much I love you. All I do is
talk to you in my head, out loud and in prayer. I bring the
singing bowl to all the locations where I know I will be
talking to you. I even keep it on our bed at night and play
it before I fall asleep as I tell you repeatedly how much I
love you. Most nights as I wake up through the night I tap
it a bit and send you more love through your dreams. My
mornings only consist of praying to God for my soulmate
Brooke Biederman daughter of Susan Biederman to heal. I'm
forever on my knees begging for mercy. I love you so
incredibly much. I love you to the moon and back. I love
you in ways I never knew existed. You are in a word
everything to me. I love you.
August 10, 2015
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Good morning my little soulmate.
Today marks the 144th day since I've held you in my arms.
Yesterday I finally went to see Rich Wilkinson Jr at his
new church. It was an interesting thing to watch. The
teaching yesterday was about the 4 kinds of love.
The most powerful one being Agape love. The pure
unconditional love that can never be conquered or
questioned. The kind of love God has for us and I realized
that this is the love I have for you. There are no more
questions or right or wrongs ever. My love for you is pure
as can ever be and I really really would sacrifice my self
if that's what it took to heal you.
I would give anything I could so you can smile again and be
healthy again. I'm here again connecting to you through our
sunrises. There's not a moment or thought I have that you
are not part of. Even in my business decisions now I ask
myself what you would want me to do. Thank you for being my
Kenegdo, my helper, my best friend and my true love. I will
never let you down again lovee and know that you are the
most precious and sacred thing in my world along with God.
I love you infinitely and beyond its cycles. I love you.
August 10, 2015
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Lovee,
The last few days have been extremely emotional for me. I
got some data on how you are but I can't type anything
since I don't know who will first read these messages. Just
know I'm always here baby and I love you eternally.
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This was a beautiful prayer circle we did at Sadhus
yesterday.
August 15, 2015
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Lovee,
The singers name here is Matish and he lives on Mount
Shasta. He's a very blessed soul and I dedicated this to
you.
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August 17, 2015
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So I came to Montreal to launch InList in Canada. Makes me
so sad were not together here. I love you so much and can't
be without you. This is a beautiful cathedral so I'm going
in morning to make a little prayer for you.
August 17, 2015
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Reminds me of you Lovee. We have this in prior texts.
August 17, 2015
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We would be sitting by this lake kissing.!I would be holding you with all my love. I love you infinitely.
August 17, 2015
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Darling I'm here in the most beautiful Basilica of Notre
Dame praying and lighting candles for you.
I know God will help us reunite soon and we will pull
through this. I love you infinitely and you are with me in
all that I do.
August 18, 2015
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I'm back home now baby and this was another beautiful
sunset from our balcony.
August 18, 2015
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Rabbi Sam came over again and sang this beautiful song for
you. He said you loved this one.
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August 19, 2015
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I wish I could send you these every day but I've been
ordered by your family not to send you anything. Incredible
August 19, 2015
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My love I'm out on our favorite sandbar this Sunrise. I
came here to meditate with you and bring you flowers. Still
cannot believe today marks 5 months and your family hasn't
had the courtesy to give me or your Florida friends one
viable update on how you are.
Your soul tells me you're much better and that makes me
really happy. Perhaps they have convinced themselves that
your recovery will be better if I'm out of site and out of
mind for you. Of course they don't understand what we have
and that's their denial. They claim they are doing what
medical professionals are advising them but these doctors
obviously don't have a full deck of cards on our
relationship to properly asses. It's not like your parents
portrayed me to your doctors as the closest you have ever
felt to a person or that we're true soulmates. This
strategy may apply to some situations but certainly not
when there
and it's
healing is
necessary.
At this
spoken to
experts in
injuries to
taking love
patient is
way
Fine tuning
mechanical
your
etc is only
it as I've
explain to
you to find
of life
true inner
love and
know that
finally
will all
you and I
minute for
happen. As soon as we're heart to heart again and our
energies' merge I know you will get so much better. I
remember when you were sick in NY and I would fly up to
take you to the doctor. Upon arriving we would hold each
August 20, 2015
is pure love
force of
obviously so
point I have
enough
brain
know that
away from a
not in any
beneficial.
the
aspects of
healing, PT
one part of
tried to
them. For
your spark
back and
joy requires
only love. I
when we
reunite this
come back to
pray every
this to
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other and all of a sudden you weren't sick anymore. You
used to tell me I was sick because I missed you so much. I
continue reading what you wrote me " I'm cold without you,
I'm only warm when we are heart to heart and I'm in my
spot" I tried to send this to your family so many times so
they can understand but as you always told me their
stubbornness and certitudeness makes it difficult.
When I first met your mother all she kept saying is how she
understood love and she didn't understand why you didn't
tell her about us. I thought there was hope and this would
bring all of us together which was your biggest dream. I
certainly never understood why you couldn't tell them and I
know we discussed it often. Unfortunately you were right
about it and they really have done everything in their
power to make sure I don't have any communication with you.
This really breaks my heart as when I was being discharged
I begged and tried to tell your mom not to take this road.
That in the end it would not make things better and only
add more complications to this already tragic situation.
At this point I'm left only to think that your memory is
not fully intact yet and they are doing everything they can
to make sure you're not thinking about me. Basically
blocking any recall you may have by you not having my
cards, flowers, pictures of us etc. Why else would they
threaten me with local, state and federal agencies if I
continued to send my girlfriend who I lived with for a year
flowers. Wow wow wow....my attorneys laughed at this as
I've never threatened anyone nor done any malice.
Regardless of these atrocious demands I decided to respect
there wishes for a short while longer.
Please don't ever think I forgot you or that I don't love
you because you don't get anything from me ok. I'm sure
they have let you talk with some people but certainly not
the person you truly love. Your soul also tells me that
your not ready to talk to me yet and that you feel stupid
right now. I can understand this Lovee and that's why I
haven't pushed it but I cannot understand why I'm not privy
of your medical updates and why you can't receive things
that I tried to send you. That will never be justified.....
The experts I'm consulting with tell me that memory recall
is one of the most difficult things with your type of
injury. They tell me that recall is key to remembering
things and without it there may not be much memory and the
patient is left to believe what they're told. It's pretty
obvious by now that your family does not want you to have
any recall of me. Pretty sad considering they have been
given cards that you wrote me where you thank me for the
best year of your life yet. Despite of all that they still
believe I am bad for you and refuse to give you the
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messages I've sent you. After all, what parent that loves
their child as they claim to would actually prevent them
from receiving gestures of pure sacred love. None of this
made any sense to me but now I think I understand their
obscured justifications on this. They don't want you to
think of me.
It's clear by now and they have been given enough evidence
of our love and connection. Rather than honoring you and
what you love, they have made a very conscious decision to
hurt me, keep me in the dark and make sure we have no
information on you whatsoever.
Purposely trying to hurt all of us that love you. There's
only one word for this my love and it's called cruelty and
revenge. Despite of all these tactics to keep me out of
site and out of mind they cannot separate our soul
connection and all this will soon unveil itself.
It's such a shame because your mother has put so much time
and efforts by your side. I know how much she loves you but
sometimes the overall strategy is just dead wrong because
it was born with hatred and the wrong intentions. One day
they will realize this and understand how much negativity
they have drawn upon themselves with the pain they have
purposefully caused to all of us like Spencer, Felicia,
Eric, Linda, my mom etc. My mom has had to go to the
hospital many times because of the anxiety I have not
knowing how my love is doing. Her heart is weak and this
has paralyzed all of us.
We have been kept in the complete dark about your recovery
for 5 months now. This is the most cruel act one can do and
it's certainly not the ways of God. For now I continue to
be patient, repent for my errors, send you unconditional
love and pray for your healing as often as it's possible. I
still have the pictures up of you and family around the
house despite all of this. I still pray for their well
being everyday and hope that they will soon realize that
you will heal much quicker once love is restored to your
physical being.
There is nothing in this universe that will deter me from
loving you and being there spiritually for you. I love you
infinitely and I know that what is meant to be will be and
that's just it. I love you with all that I behold. I'm so
sorry you have had to suffer and go through this darling.
Everyday I wish I could of been the one to trade places
with you. I would give all I have to take your suffering
myself. I love you infinitely and despite of all this I
still love your parents because they made you and you are
the most incredible being. I love you, I love you, don't
worry because we know that fate is fate and no one can
change that.
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Today was another difficult day my love. I tried to go out
on my moms boat with Peri and Gregory. It's not that I was
scared but I just missed you so much because our lives were
always on the water together.
I'm just sending you all my love and prayers sweetheart. I
know we will pull through this. I love you infinitely.
August 22, 2015
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Hi lovee,
I'm here at Farmers Market, The Golden Hog getting a bite
to eat and missing you so much. This was our little snack
spot. Earlier I was in Kundalini class with Sadhu and I
told you I love you in my mind for two straight hours as my
mantra.
August 23, 2015
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Now I'm at St Agnes chapel again praying to God to heal
you. I try and come here once a week. I love you
infinitely.
August 23, 2015
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Good morning my baby.
I'm here with Tigee watching another beautiful sunrise from
our bed. Every morning I watch it and think of us in bed
together waking up. I love you soo incredibly much and all
I can do is send you my thoughts both metaphysically and by
writing them like this. I love you with every fiber in me.
August 24, 2015
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Lovee look how beautiful our home came out. This is what it
looks like before the sun comes up.
August 25, 2015
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Happy 15 month anniversary my love. I'm here on our dock
again. I just got here and will be tuning into you all day.
I love you eternally.
August 25, 2015
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Here's some little gifts for my little soulmate.
August 25, 2015
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Good morning my love,
I stayed in the keys last night since I came up with Peri
and his son Gregory.
Peri has really been a good friend throughout all this. One
day I will explain everything he did ok. Looking how cute
Gregory is. They sat and waited for hours as I was on the
small dock where we first held hands.
August 26, 2015
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This is this morning's sunrise in Key West. We drove here
to take Gregory.
August 26, 2015
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I miss you so tremendously much my love. I've been praying
all morning for a miracle to happen in your healing. I know
it will come soon. Just know how much I love you and that
I'm completely devoted to you and only you ok. You are
everything to me and I will never ever give up on our love
and life together. We will make it through this.
I got you this beautiful card of two soulmate birds kissing
by Audubon. It reminds me of us being in Nantucket together
last summer. Of course that was a dream being there with my
soulmate and now I'm just sad missing you here.
August 26, 2015
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Hemingway’s house in Key West.
August 26, 2015
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St Mary's Basilica in Key West. I don't go anywhere now
without stopping in a local church or temple to pray for
your healing.
August 26, 2015
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My darling I'm back home watching this beautiful sunrise
and telling you how much I love you over and over like a
broken record. It's way I signal you into the universe.
August 28, 2015
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These things go with me everywhere I can to connect to you
and pray to God to heal you. I love you with every atom in
me darling. I can't wait to hold you in my arms again soon
and I know that when our energies merge so much will
happen. I'm so sorry you're going through this baby. I cry
every day still knowing how much you must need me.
August 28, 2015
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Sweetheart I'm sitting on our beach again, it's almost 3:30
am and full moon. I'm talking to you and sending you all my
love from all my heart and all my soul. You are the most
special being in my life and I just want you to know that
I'm always here with you. I love you infinitely and will
never leave your side.
August 29, 2015
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My darling I'm on the beach out front of Flamingo watching
the tropical storm Erica that's coming through. This
stretch reminds me of the part in Venice California we took
that picture at.
August 30, 2015
More Sunday prayers for my love.
I love you eternally.
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Darling this morning I went back to our favorite sandbar.
It was really choppy because of the storm but that's ok. I
miss you so terribly much. As I was meditating you told me
to be strong so I'm going to try my hardest. I think about
you every second that ticks by.
August 31, 2015
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My lovee I've been in our meditation room this morning
praying to the angels to create miracles. I know they will
soon and that incredible knowledge and gifts will arise out
of this. I love you so much my darling. I'm always with you
in all that I do, in every thought, every breath and every
moment. I love you eternally.
September 1, 2015
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September 2, 2015
I just miss you too much and I want to be there to help you
get through this my love.
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September 4, 2015
Morning prayers for my love. I cannot believe it's been 167
days and your family hasn't allowed me to even send you
flowers. This is just beyond my imagination my love. I love
you so much I'm so sorry this happened. I love you
infinitely.
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Lovee I'm flying to Jacmel today to see our kids and bring
them to school. It's so hard sitting in this plane as it
reminds me of our trip here in December.
I'm dedicating
this whole trip
to you and I
will keep
sending you
messages from
all the
children ok. I
love you so
much.
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September 6, 2015
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I just went surfing with the kids and u was picturing you in the water with me taking pictures like you were when we were here. !Everyone misses you so much. I love you so incredibly much I'm in forever tears without you. This is the room we stayed in together in Kabic.
September 6, 2015
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Kesny sent you s message lovee.
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September 7, 2015
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Good morning my darling, I went to Kabik this morning to
talk to you. I remember just yesterday waking up here with
you and we would look at this very sunrise from our
balcony. I'm here in perfect dedication to you my love. My
commitment to our love is infinite and nothing will deter
me from you. I am here forever by your side.
September 8, 2015
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Rosh Hashanah
My darling, my angel, my little soulmate,
L'shana Tova sweetheart. Lovee as you know this is the time
where we plant new seeds for our coming year. Yesterday at
dinner, as each of the blessed foods came I ate one for you
and one for me. Upon each bite, I took in it's seed energy
and made a prayer for the both of us.
This is the time of great miracles my love and I've been
receiving so many messages from your soul and from your
guides. You will have many books to write one day with all
that's occurred. This is a new beginning now darling and
whatever you lost physically will be compensated with
spiritual gifts and new powers you could of never imagined
before. I know your body is not ready yet to receive all
that your soul will bring down from these incredible
journeys.
Know that I am here with you, in all that you do. I feel
what you are going through and my life is dedicated to your
healing and sending you messages of love and light. You are
the most important thing to me in this universe with God of
course and there's a major mission to complete here.
I pray that your parents learn empathy and start honoring
you and the decisions you made about who you love. Even if
the current memory you have has clouded everything for you,
they know the truth. They have been given all the proof
they needed and everyday that they deny the person you love
information on your healing they are dishonoring you and
bringing upon more negativity and complexity to this
situation.
They know you are brilliant and should of never ever
questioned your decisions. You were plenty capable of
deciphering what is real and what is not. They needed to
honor you and respect what you love and what you want in
life.
I send you all my strength and prayers throughout the days.
I tell you how much I love you thousands of times per day.
Although we are currently physically separated were closer
than ever. Our souls are joined together and we both know
that. It's really all that matters. Don't be scared my love
we will reunite soon. I love you infinitely and nothing
will ever break our bond.
September 14, 2015
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I love you with every fiber in me as we promised to each
other. Our Rabbi's all send their blessings and prayers.
I'm on my way to service and I hold you in my heart through
out it all. I love you
I'm here in service my love. Every time I Roch the Torah I
send you it's energy.
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I recorded the 100th blowing for you. Upon each blow I
meditated that I clears things for both of us together. I
love you with all that I am.
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September 19, 2015
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My love,
Today marks 182 days since we last held each other and
since we were forcefully separated. I feel you and talk to
your soul everyday so that just keeps me going. Every
moment I pray all I can for you to heal and for us to
reunite soon. I still cry everyday because I love you so
much and my baby is hurt and I can't see her.
I've been working on finishing Flamingo this week, building
Inlist and I changed the name of our foundation from Haiti
Empowerment Mission to Global Empowerment Mission. I'm
really happy about GEM and of course you are my co-chair as
we always discussed. You were so happy in Haiti with the
kids and so excited about helping Kesny get into college.
They really love love and care about you so much there.
They know how special you are and they pray so much for you
my love.
This Sunday will mark 6 months so it's extremely difficult
for me and especially you. I'm trying so hard not to hate
your parents and it's so difficult. Felicia gave me a
prayer to say every morning about how they are sick and to
forgive them. I just don't understand the cruelty of
keeping your recovery such a secret. I know that's how they
wish to punish us.
My love I'm forever by your side in perfect honor, loyalty
and sacredness. I love you infinitely and beyond oceans and
galaxies.
You are my true Kenegdo and I'm here ok. I love you with
every every every atom in me.
These are all the pictures of you or you and I on the console.
September 18, 2015
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I love you infinitely. This has been a really difficult
day. I just can't believe what your family has done. They
went as far as going into your Facebook and deleting me, my
mom and your Florida friends. They just want you to forget
all of us and this is just sick. I'm so sorry this happened
my love.
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Your brother has gone into your Instagram and deleted all
the messages of love and healing that I sent you.
September 20, 2015
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Good morning my most precious and incredible darling. I've
been mediating all morning trying to bring peace and light
to this situation. Just know that you are the world to me
and I'm patiently awaiting for you to recover. I love you u
infinitely and always will. Every time I go to Jugo Fresh I
grab a juice for you and wish I was able to send it to you.
I'm so sorry they won't let me send you anything.
September 21, 2015
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My love,
Today marks 186 days since I've been able to even send you
a card or flowers. I'm here on our beach talking to you all
morning and preparing your bi-weekly spiritual healing from
our light workers. I'm reading a portion in the Zohar today
about soulmates. It says God reunites souls if their meant
to be. I know we're meant to be so I know we will reunite
my love. Until then I pray for your recovery and that you
may regain abilities soon.
September 22, 2015
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I love you with all my essence and being. You are my only
kenegdo. We have a giant missions to fulfill here on earth
my love. Hurry back.
Your soul sent me this message this morning. This is the
word that was channeled.
September 22, 2015
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Happy Yom Kippur my love, I'm so sorry for everything. I
love you with every fiber.
I light these candles for us tonight at the Kabbalah center
my love. Every prayer I scanned was with you in mind. I
started Kol Nidre as if it was for us. I love you
infinitely.
September 22, 2015
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I can't believe you gave me this on our first few
encounters. This is what this story will become now.
September 22, 2015
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Morning prayers for my love..
September 24, 2015
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My beautiful incredible darling today is the 25th so I
drove up to our spot again. I come here every 25th day to
connect to you and tell you how much I love you.
September 25, 2015
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