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existent. He feels like he could live for thousands of years. I have


identified that he is an energy worker like me and like Avery. That we


bonded through our soul relationships and aligned goals, which are

both to enhance the energy field that exists here on Earth, to raise the


vibration here, but not just here on Earth, to make an impact across


the universe. Why ever settle for one planet when you can truly have


the entire universe in the palm of your hands? Not only that, but just


to enjoy each other’s soul in another physical life together, even if it’s

in different forms and on different planets.






So that’s what I have for you today. I have a feeling I’ll be discovering


so much more from Ipaygus, and I can’t wait to share it!






























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EGYPTIAN PAST LIFE WITH MY


ALIEN FRIEND, IPAYGUS





POSTED ON JULY 11, 2015 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL




Ipaygus visited me in the night. It usually happens where I wake up


and see his face in my mind. It was rather surprising though as I


hadn’t talked to him for several days. It’s not unusual for my human


life to separate me from interacting with the alien and spirit world,


this happens on occasion. What he showed me was brief, and I found

myself teasing him and then I fell asleep shortly after he showed me


something astounding.





So, at some severely early hour, like 2 am, I woke up and saw Ipaygus


there. I was instantly surprised and overjoyed to see him. I saw his


dark face and dark eyes, and the halo of a dark world behind him. I


didn’t feel any negative energy, as I usually associate negative energy


with darkness, and seeing as his form would terrify most humans on


this planet, it’s such a refreshing feeling to experience such

unconditional love coming from what would be a terrifying creature of








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darkness. But it’s really just the nature of his form and the desolate


world he lives in, he’s not actually terrifying or a creature of darkness.


Then the picture became larger so I could see more than just his


face. He showed me that he lives in a cave, which instantly made me


start laughing. I told him, ‘Ipaygus, it’s not exactly a good thing you


live in a cave (hehehehe).’ And then I showed him it’s like living under

a rock as a means to explain my joke. I’m not certain if he has any


sense of humor. Sense of humor is a special thing, indeed. Not all


aliens have the capacity to experience life at our astounding human


spectrum. Because we have the capacity to feel so much, from


darkest to lightest, we actually have the capacity to have humor,


because we can see the light and the dark side of things and

laugh. I’m serious when I tell you that other alien natures would not


relate to this. They might find it interesting, and the energy from the


laughter to be pleasing, but they wouldn’t be able to crack a joke. As


of yet, I consider Ipaygus more serious, but also has the ability to

relate or understand what I mean, just not in the same hilarious


way. At least that is my interpretation thus far.






So back to the story! He showed me he lives in a cave. I made my

silly joke, which then there was an awkward pause, and in my mind



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I’m trying to figure out if I offended him, if he didn’t get it, or maybe he


just doesn’t react like a human ego would need him too. Then I saw


the image shift, and he showed me what was underground, and it was

like a giant buried Egyptian grave. It was unimaginable in the size


and the capacity of what it was filled with. It was literally an


enormous underground room. And there were jewels and gold, and


there were other things I couldn’t understand. There were statues and


fancy boxes, I’m guessing with dead people in them, and it was all sort

of a conglomeration of stuff, and I could see hieroglyphics on all the


walls. All of this was linked back to the cave he was in. It was like he


turned a light on inside to show me all of this information. Although


I’m still convinced it would make sense for him to live in a cave on his


planet, but there was a real link and message he was trying to share

with me beyond, what would be his home inside a cave. It felt like this


Egyptian grave was also his home.





He told me his name did not come from Greece, but was Egyptian. I


would tell you this next part, but it was a little odd to me, but I’ll try


my best. I saw what were two Egyptian cats, like the larger kind with


the large ears. I just looked this up, they are called Sphynx


(duh!). They were both bonded, one facing right and one facing left,



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but their bodies were connected. Obviously I was a confused why


Ipaygus, the cave dweller, would show me two cats, in a sexual bond,


facing opposite directions, but then a greater truth started to develop

from this image. What developed was something extremely


unpredictable, and all of this information poured down so swiftly. I


will just tell you as it came to me. I saw a male and a female, what


would be Ipaygus and Abbey in a previous life. We were standing at a


higher level. I then became instantly aware that we were both

sacrificed for a higher power and then buried in this Egyptian tomb


together.






As you can imagine, the nervous system in my brain was tweaking out

over this massive strangeness at 2 am and the information wasn’t just


in images, but feelings and emotions too. It was truly overwhelming


and extremely real to me. I can’t tell you how we were sacrificed, but


the emotional state of all of this was like 10,000 colors being smashed

together at one time. I don’t have enough links in my brain to make


sense of this as a human. What he shared with me was on his


extraordinary level and what would be like 20 million bits of


information, I was only able to process 100 bits. And that’s about the


moment I fell back into a dead sleep. I literally did not contemplate



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this at all or even ask Ipaygus any questions. The information


revealed itself, the profundity put me into a state of shock and


confusion, and then I fell back asleep.





Anyway, because of the information overload and the early hour it


was, I honestly have no further memory of that discussion, I’m certain

I drifted off to sleep so that’s as far as this story goes. And since I


have some spare time in my human life, I wanted to at least share this


new found information. I have a feeling there is a lot more to come


with this Ipaygus story. I’m really intrigued to learn more about his


experience of life, and our soul relationship, and I really am looking


forward to exploring more of the energetic healing side of his nature.

He and Avery are a lot alike, in just the experience of energy they both


share with me. Just like reacquainting with old, dearest friends. Like


long lost friends that I’m so overjoyed to see again. But there is more


to it than that, we all have a purpose with each other in this life, and

there is a link that I am, a soul who chose to walk the Earth path, and


now I can reach out to my alien friends for greater light and


information that my human mind can’t get to, whereas their minds


can. It’s a team effort, but it’s also a fantastic friendship. … Anyway, I


will stop here for now, bye!



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SIMPLE STEPS TO BECOME A


SPIRITUAL HEALER





POSTED ON JULY 13, 2015 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL




I’m a real advocate in all human beings reconnecting with their


spiritual identity and when you start connecting with your infinite


expression, suddenly you are capable of creating miracles. This isn’t


mumbo-jumbo, this is 100%, the real-deal. Miracles actually aren’t


that amazing, they are only called miracles because on this planet,

very little is so astonishing and mind blowing because human beings


are satisfied with living in a grey coated, extremely dull, unexciting


world. People get a rise out of their dramas on TV and news reports of


asshole politicians and some new terrorist on the other side of the


world, but human beings don’t go crazy about creating a spiritual

thrill ride within their own life. The greatest thrill ride any human


could take is to explore who and what they are, and then explore the


infinite universe. When you start seeing miracles taking place all


across the stars, suddenly it isn’t so miraculous anymore, suddenly

you just start realizing that anything is possible.









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Part of ‘anything being possible’ is the reality that all human beings


can manifest ‘miraculous’ Jesus style healings on each other. Every


living being on this planet does have the capacity to instantly heal

bones, remove blood disorders, regrow hair, alter DNA strands,


literally ‘delete’ cancer from the body, cleanse clogged arteries…the list


goes on and on and on. This isn’t rocket science. To be able to


manifest such miracles, you have to first become acquainted with your


soul expression. Your soul expression is just as much a part of the

spirit realm as it is the physical realm. When you realize you are


attached to both, now suddenly you can channel energies from


anywhere and with any degree of power and strength. You can call


upon all the energies of the rainbow, you can call upon spiritual


identities that truly are as fabricated and made up as the best fiction

novels, but guess what, you’ll find these spirits actually are as real


and amazing as the most exotic dream vacations, and you can use


these expressions to draw energy from. It’s impossible to not think up


what already exists. There is a reason you are drawn to certain


fabricated ideas, because your vibration relates to those images and

finds them interesting, enlightening, intriguing, hilarious, or whatever


it may be, but there is a vibration in all of creation that also relates to


anything you can think up and you can use these vibrations to spark




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energy that you can channel and direct at will and for the benefit of


anyone, including yourself.





So, when it comes to healing, you connect with your spiritual


vibration. Your spiritual vibration is connected with ALL spiritual


vibrations. My soul is a part of your soul as much as your soul is a

part of mine. If I am healing you, for instance, together we can


manifest your own healing because our souls will use combined


energy, a combined dream, and then the usage of unconditional love,


and all the power of creation to alter your physical expression and


physical reality – which isn’t as real as you may think it is. You draw


in your own dreams and alter the ones that were there before. When

you make a commitment to change, you tell the universe you are


ready for a new experience of life and you ask for spiritual healing,


help or the manifestation of a new dream through the powers of your


own will or in conjunction with several spiritual wills. You will always

be guided to a solution to any problem if you ask for it.






So, if you are healing yourself, once you connect with your spiritual


expression, you now connect with an intention. You can say your

intention, as in, I choose to heal this pinched nerve in my back



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now. Then, you focus energy that is drawn from within you. You


have the power to go to work each day, you also have the power to


drawn energy and use it whenever and wherever and for whatever

purpose, good or bad. It’s entirely up to you, but remember, negative


energy feeds back negative energy and you don’t want to deal with the


karmic teacher when it comes to negative feedback, so I definitely


recommend using energy for good.





Now, you feel all of this energy welling inside you, but you are focused


on your intention, and you are focused on visualizing change.


Visualizing is manifesting. Intentions + visualizing + energy welling =


super manifesting. You can do this in profound ways. Imagine you

are about to go into a heated UFC brawl, suddenly your adrenaline is


pumping and you feel powerful from that, or it can instigate power


after you’ve been punched in the face and now you are reading to


throw blows. Energy welling and manifesting and visualizing, it’s

using all of these same techniques. You create the sensation of


getting pumped up and then surging energy – sucking it in from the


universe and then pushing it into your physical body or you can push


it through your spirit and into the spirit receiving the energy which


pushes it into their physical body.



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You also have the power to leave your own body, enter another


person’s energy field and start healing them as though you are


standing right next to them. It’s not as if you have to know what they

look like, the universe will always get you to the right place, it’s all


energy and believing in your dreams and intentions, and believing that


they matter. YOUR DREAMS MATTER. I can’t emphasize that


enough. When your dreams intertwine with healing another human


being, WOW, that is a huge big-time deal in the universe. The

universe reacts positively toward such dreams and it wants to share


profound healing energy for you to use for the betterment of others. It


always will give you exactly what you need to heal others when healing


others is your greatest dream. Dreams come from your heart and


there is no purer place and no purer energy that can be manifested.

Pure love is Jesus style manifesting, and that’s the type of energy that


cures all, and positively alters all experiences of life. This isn’t rocket


science, I’m telling you. All living things are expressions of energy,


just like ailments, they aren’t as real as you would think they


are. They are all just energy, and energy can be washed away, altered,

and changed. It’s like when you have a friend that’s down, and you


cheer them up. Negative energy can be altered into positive


energy. Any aches and pains can be returned to a joyful, youthful




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experience of life, even at an extremely old age.





So, when it comes to healing, connect with your energetic


expression. Sense it, feel the connection, and know you are infinite


and part of an infinite universe. Allow your intentions to develop and


feel the power of your dreams welling inside of you. Feel yourself

believing in what you are capable of and then start feeding off of that


super, adrenaline rushing energy. Trust that what you dream and the


healing energy you share is making a difference. There is a reason


you have come to this corner stone and there is a reason you are


deciding to make a healthy change. You can choose a joyful new


experience of life, but you can’t experience it unless you choose to

experience it. Once you make that choice, let the manifesting


begin. Allow yourself to imagine healing taking place. Just have fun


with it. Be a kid and dream up anything you want on how you are


going to heal your body, and then use the manifested energy and the

images and the intentions and your trust in the universe, and you can


use all of these things to create a new physical reality, one that


doesn’t include that particular ailment.










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I’m just going to share this for now, but definitely give this a try. See


what happens when you just start letting your mind wander and


wonder what your spirit is like. You have to start there. Try to ‘sense’

what your spirit feels like. It’s going to feel like nothing at first. You


will be convinced you’re a lunatic for even trying this, but just sense


it. The more you try this out, the sensation of nothingness will start


to be filled with what could even be considered tangible energy. When


your spirit feels as real as a waterfall, suddenly now the energy

sensation is tangible. Even if you can’t touch it, you are energy


yourself so you are already touching everything in creation, whether


you realize it or not. That even means you have the power to touch


people all the way across the planet and even across the universe. We


all have invisible spiritual hands, just like we all have invisible

spiritual bodies. We are beams of electricity and we can alter and


manifest beautiful new realities, and it truly is so incredibly simple.


Start looking at the world as infinite and start seeing that ALL dreams


are possible, even the most ridiculous almost insane dreams are truly


possible, you have to just keep expanding your ability to see how the

impossible can become possible in an infinite world where the invisible


is also as real as the physical and the invisible does have the power to


manifest new physical realities at your hearts beck and call. All you




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have to do is beck and call, it really is that easy. Now don’t be shy,


give it a try!




























































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HEALING OUR MOTHER EARTH





POSTED ON JULY 16, 2015 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL





A lot of people don’t realize that our planet Earth is actually a living

breathing organism in the universe. When people call the spirit of our


Earth, ‘Mother Earth,’ there is a reason for that. All living things


possess a soul, right on down to the bed bugs, cockroaches, and


spiders, and then right up to the size of humans, and then the size of

giant alien beings, dinosaurs, and even planets. We couldn’t possibly


sense the spirit of Mother Earth unless our planet was possessed by a


divine spiritual being, and this is true. But still, my mind wants to


throw up the defense and tell me that it’s absurd, ‘A planet can’t


possess a soul, that’s just stupid!’ And the reasons it must be absurd

is that a planet doesn’t have a heart or a circulatory system and when


is a planet technically born and when does it die?






No matter how many questions, I always remember, the reality is, for

centuries uncountable, all human beings have recognized the spirit of


Mother Earth, it doesn’t matter if it makes sense or not. Planets go


through stages of development and stages of death, just like people




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do. My soul has reincarnated on dying planets before, I have also


lived in physical alien forms that remained alive for thousands of


years, and we are talking 50,000 Earth years. Time is all relative.

Waiting 1 hour at the doctor’s office feels like an eternity, whereas,


you can be 80 years old and looking back at the span of your entire


life and feel like it passed in the blink of an eye. You can even do that


at 30 and feel like it’s so weird how you are now 30 years old.


Eventually you’ll be 60 and then 90 and then you’ll be on to your next

lifetime as a new born baby. Time does not matter to a soul.






I think human beings really dislike the thought of reincarnation


because one lifetime on Earth is hard enough. Even I, in my worst of

moments, have told the universe, ‘I am done after this lifetime! I’m


never coming back again, I’m going to stay as a spirit and never come


back.’ Then I discover past lives that seem truly, far more


nightmarish than the one I am currently enduring, and then I think, if

I were to stop after any lifetime, it would have definitely been that one,


but here I am, still exploring the universe for the development of my


soul and the development and experience of ALL souls, because


everything possesses ALL souls – my body and your body possess ALL


souls. It’s not just me, and it’s not just you as perfect individuals, NO,



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we have always been One.





You see how the human experience skews the actual truth? It’s


extremely difficult to fully comprehend it all in the physical form we


possess, which is why meditation and connection with spirit is so


important. I often feel like a blind person, just making my way as best

I can through a dark cave, trying to make sense of the nonsensical,


and before me I have the Light of All and I can’t screw this thing up


and I can’t go in the wrong direction and there will always, ALWAYS be


a safety net, even in what feels like the worst of times and then you


die. It doesn’t matter the life experience, everything is for the


experience, and you can’t screw this thing up. You live for eternity,

this is just one lifetime of infinite lifetimes. It’s overwhelming to think


too hard about it, but it is the truth, and for a living planet to possess


a soul, now it suddenly doesn’t seem so profound and hard to


believe. It’s a very special lifetime to explore, and it would take a very

special soul to do it, of that I’m sure.






But back to planet Earth, which is the point of all of this. Over the


course of my entire lifetime of 32 years, the spirit of the Earth has

been like a best friend to me. When I felt so bitterly alone, I would go



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into nature to be close to a living, breathing being, and she was there,


every time. I can’t deny how real her spirit is to me. I try to avoid the


television and any sound of news at all cost, and when I hear about all

the garbage plaguing the ocean and I hear about all the misery Mother


Earth endures, just from our human energy fields slinging hatred and


violence, and I think about all the super catastrophes that fill her with


radiation poisoning, it’s absolutely horrible to contemplate in my


mind. Now take the body of the Earth and make it as your own

body. Imagine your own body inflicted with such pain and turmoil,


it’s amazing that she is still alive, and still loves us!






The mind-boggling thing about the Earth, she loves unconditionally,

she accepts her place in the universe, although she does still


experience pain. When I go out onto my balcony in the early morning,


I raise my hand out to her and imagine I am a living being, even larger


than the Earth, and I surround her with healing light and I let the

light seep deep into her soil, all the way to her core, and I start with


pure radiating white light with vibrations that heal and develop more


light and energy to sustain her. I watch all the dark impurities lift


into the atmosphere and then disintegrate into the light. I then


surround her with radiating love, as though I am holding the entire



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planet, close to my heart. She needs to feel loved and nurtured. In a


balanced relationship, love goes both ways. When you love the Earth,


the Earth loves you back, and the love that is exchanged only gets

more and more extraordinary.






We should all be sharing love with the Earth, every single day. Each

human on this planet has a special ability, I happen to really enjoy


working with energy and I love to write. I can heal the Earth everyday


through sharing energy vibrations with her to help her sustain


through this transitioning time for our human race, and then I can


write about it in an attempt to inspire other human beings to take on


similar efforts to help Mother Earth. You have to perceive her as a

living being that is alive and deserving of love, just as you are. You


can show your love for Mother Earth by simply acknowledging her. If


you tell the Earth, ‘I love you,’ in your mind, the direction of your


intentions will be felt within her heart, and then you will feel it within

your own heart, and this is true. This happens because we are all


One, so when you heal her heart, you are also healing your own


heart. She is alive and she does breathe and she does have a heart,


believe it or not. Her physical makeup is just different than our own,







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but she is still a living organic being in the universe, just the same as


you are.




























































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HEALING ALIENS – THE EIGHT


LITTLE BLUE MEN





POSTED ON JULY 23, 2015 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL




I met some new alien entities last night. They came in a pack of what


were eight little blue men, what would be three feet tall, with pale blue


skin, and jet black eyes – what looked like bug eyes. They actually did


possess a similar physical expression to the common ‘grey’ aliens we


all know and love. I wasn’t particularly pleased to see them at first,

but it seems the older I get, the less concerned or instinctual scared I


am. I made it clear that I was aware of their presence, and I told them


I will hurt them energetically if they interfere with me in any negative


way.





There were a few minutes of no interaction, just me calming my mind


and perception, allowing information to transfer itself between us. By


the end of these moments, I felt this extremely warm light, and in my


mind’s eye, there it was, warm loving light streaming from my very

own heart. I saw my spirit, twirling or dancing around them, and


sharing this light with them. There were eight of these little blue




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beings, but they were being healed all simultaneously. That’s when I


realized these beings actually came to me for healing. So I stopped


being human and so on the defense, and I focused on enhancing all

the energy I saw developing and consuming them in one big cloud of


light.





I started focusing on sharing very immense unconditional love energy


with their auric field and hearts. It just seemed natural to go this


route, if only due to the warm loving feeling I was already sharing from


my heart. And whether they have hearts or not doesn’t matter, the


intention of sharing unconditional love with that core area of their


body is where the energy was sent, but it did appear they have hearts

and they are in a similar location. The light was very immense and


was shared as pure white light. Not all healing is done with white


light, it can be done with all light, including dark light, which often


surprises me. If you are interested in being a healer or do healing of

your own, you should practice visualizing yourself being consumed by


an extremely dark blue color and see what the outcome is. It’s about


the most amazing, peaceful, relaxed feeling you’ll ever experience. I


love dark blue light, it’s fantastic, but back to the story!







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So I was watching my own spirit as I was also experiencing myself


healing these beings with very concentrated white light. This light


began emanating vibrations that were very favorable to their bodies.

The energy was very much related toward developing a higher


intelligence or understanding. Connecting them with a new awareness


or perception. Helping them find an answer to some ‘thing.’ I couldn’t


possibly tell you what that ‘some thing’ would be, but it was clear they


were requesting energy vibrations that would allow them to connect

with a higher awareness. What would be like providing them with a


new vein into the wisdom of the source.






As all of this energy was being shared, and all little blue beings were

being surrounded and bathed and cleansed with white light, along


with very visible vibrations of energy flowing into their physical matter,


I saw develop what was like a disco ball of light. So the light was in a


shape that was circular, but had a thousand little flat parts that

beamed light of different colors, but the light was all contained inside


of it, which made it also look like a fluid more than a light; there was


an iridescence to it. I saw this one ball multiply into enough balls as


there were beings, and then one of each ball was floating before each


being. The energy from each ball then became one with each being



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and then grew until it covered the totality of that being’s exact


expression. They all looked the same to me, but I’m sure there were


variances. I think all ants look the same, but I’m sure there are

variances with ants too somehow.






Once I saw each of the eight men shimmering with this fluid light, I

felt a disconnect from healing them. I’m not sure if I was done healing


them or if I just got distracted. I think it was distracted, only because I


was surprised to see angelic beings assisting with all of the energy


flow. You see, angels aren’t just part and partial to the Earth, they


exist in all areas of the cosmos. Seeing as I’m just as much human as


the next human, I just had a funny thought that maybe there are

angels that even look like Grey Aliens with wings? I don’t see why not,


but these angels definitely looked like human expressions of angels


that we see all the time. So I disconnected from the surprise. I wasn’t


expecting to see angels. I’m not sure why I was surprised, I think it’s

because I don’t often heal alien beings and the few I have, I have not


seen angelic beings assisting with the healing.






So, as I came back to my senses and reconnected with the healing

session, I discovered a new healing light was surrounding them. It was



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a blue vapor, a baby blue color, and it was lifting them and filling


them with baby blue light energy. This was all being shared through


my spirit which was completely immersed in the session while my

human consciousness was briefly out of focus. I then saw one of these


beings come very close to me, it had long fingers. We had a brief


conversation. I won’t tell you what it was about, it was too personal, it


was about myself and my life. I was unable to continue after that. I left


a part of my heart within the realm of the healing session, but took my

consciousness out. I took a shower and then went to bed. I could still


visibly (third eye) connect with these beings as I was laying in bed and


falling asleep. I was just observing them, they were still contained in a


very blissful, peaceful blue mist. I fell asleep to this view, and my


personal contemplation over the event that unexpectedly took place.



























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THE INFINITE SPIRIT MIND VS


THE HUMAN MIND





POSTED ON SEPTEMBER 17, 2015 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL




I wanted to write about an experience I had several days ago, this

would include Avery, although I’m not sure how much I will discuss


that element of the story. The primary outcome was a discovery I had


about the soul mind vs the human mind, the soul experience of an


infinite world vs the human experience of a time based world. I only


discovered this when I realized I had spent time with Avery the night


before, although I had no memory of it. I recognized this was true,

only because of the addition of human behaviors that only happen


when Avery has been around, which usually is me feeling irritable and


emotionally sensitive and then listening to love songs for no


explainable reason. When it dawned on me the reasoning for all of

this, something happened that hasn’t happened as of yet. I started


surfacing outside of my human experience into my spirit experience. I


never left my body, as in, floating overhead or anything of that kind,


although I definitely left my consciousness. I was aware of it because


the sensation of being human was so insignificant. The sensation of

all of the events and the feeling of 32 years of life was so insignificant,


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it could be like a tiny thin tracing with very little magnanimous


detail. It was slightly disturbing, because, as a human, feeling every


moment of my existence is part of my life, and the memories which

have primarily been extremely determinate to my experience of joy,


they felt insignificant, in a way that was unfathomable. All the piles of


memories and feelings I’ve had, the mass amounts of confusion I’ve


endured in a life that has been stuck between worlds and without


anybody there to help me or direct me through it, only me, and none

of it matter. The sensation of timelessness completely eradicated the


importance of all of what had felt so important through each and every


day of my existence. In a state of timeliness, this exploration as Abbey


was like pencil shavings. It’s very hard to describe and I have not


been able to return to that state of being since that moment so I

thought I’d better write it down now before it evaporated from my


memory. I have found that I’ve got only a few days, and then a few


weeks at most before my memories seem to drift into the nothingness,


to be forgotten. As a human being on Earth, it is so hard to retain


memory, it makes me feel no different than a fish in a fish bowl, and I

remind myself that everything I’ve ever done, felt, and thought, has


been stored in my soul’s memory, never to be forgotten. That too


would include all memories of spending time with Avery, of which have




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been non-existent to my human mind. I can say that, after this day,


this experience, I did discover that there are more ways of


experiencing ‘life’ than what would be constituted as a ‘physical’

experience. I could tell that, when I spent time with Avery, it was far


more physical that what feels like physical as a human being. What


feels physical as a human would be like the sensation of an entire


body, shot full of Novocain, in comparison to what it feels like when


explored as a project of yourself in a spiritual essence. I have yet to

blend the two, the spiritual with the physical (or human), but I did


discover too that my human self actually has a block against the


extreme joyful memories of being outside my body as it is just far, far


too overwhelming for my mind to process it. I felt all of this was


true. I have never gotten to a point where I felt the barriers between

the two. The barriers of my human mind and spirit/infinite mind. I


have discovered my life is becoming more and more filled with visitors


and foggy memories or sensations of doing things that I have no exact


memory of it. I can tell when something’s been happening because


the thoughts I have that just don’t make any sense. For instance,

there was one night I told the universe that I felt like someone was


going to visit me tonight, but I guarantee nobody will show because


nobody ever shows. Then a bell went off in my head, why did I even




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think that? Then I thought back to all the times I had that same


thought, like when I lived in Iowa City, and was often walking to the


cemetery in the middle of the night because I was sure there was a

boy waiting for me there, but he never came, and when I would leave I


would feel extreme heartbreak and it was absolutely tormenting. I


would get so angry at myself for thinking such outlandish things, and


here I still do it think the same things. I asked Avery if he would ever


rescue me from aliens that were up to no good. Why the hell would I

ever have that thought? You see, because I live such a far stretch


from normal, I can actually evaluate my experiences through the


thoughts behaviors I have that seem out of the ordinary. I’m not


certain I have been visited by an unsavory aliens, only because I don’t


have any disagreeable feelings about my home or about going to sleep

at night, but I feel things about my destiny and I know it involves


visitors from other worlds, which it already involves that, I just don’t


have any exact memory of it as of yet. Only foggy feelings, hunches,


and catching myself with certain repetitious thoughts, usually I’m


joking to myself about something that later seems really off to

me. Sometimes in the night, I’m certain I have seen someone walking


through my door but nobody is ever walking through my door, yet I’m


certain I’ve seen someone before. You see how this works? The




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blending of what is one mind with another mind. The human mind


that can’t process the information so it blacks it out. I have also


noticed myself waking up from what would be like, an entire night’s

sleep, then checking the clock and I’ve only been asleep for 1 hour,


now how can that be?! The oddest thing is, I’m certain I wasn’t


asleep, I know I only thought I had fall asleep but was doing


something else, and then when it ended it seemed as though I just


woke up. It’s the blending of two minds. As you can see, I’m still

evaluating and exploring how to make sense of this. This type of


writing would easily be deemed written by an insane person, but if you


have alien experiences or spiritual experiences, you would actually


relate to what I’m writing about. The memories I do have of aliens,


they are all stored in my conscious mind of times when I’ve had real

conversations with them in my 3 eye, and there are so many and
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such a variety and I’m always so happy because these are my soul


mates, my best soul friends come to visit me, they just happen to


incarnate as other beings. But I’m discovering that I’m far more


involved with alien beings, and in ways that my human mind has been

putting a block on, but that block is starting to fade.



Anyway, that is all I have to say for now!






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MY BLUE ALIEN FRIENDS & THE


UGLY DIGITAL CLOCK





POSTED ON SEPTEMBER 21, 2015 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL




I woke up this morning, it was about 2 am, and I noticed it wasn’t just


me. You don’t realize how easy it is to sense and communicate with


spiritual and alien visitors, it seriously is easier than you could ever


imagine. The hard part is realizing that what feels like your


imagination is far more real than your brain will let you believe it

is. We truly are locked into a prison of our own mind. The mind


wants you to believe this world, this reality, is ‘real.’ This isn’t real,


and what you think is physical, isn’t physical. When you are in a


spiritual state, the sensation of physical is far more profound, far


more savory, far more musical, far more vivid in color, and a million

other flavors of the senses than anything you can imagine feeling in


your human body. The human body is truly like a dead form that


thinks it feels things, tastes things, and sees things, but it’s all within


the range of the human perception, which is dull. When you are in

spirit, there are no boundaries because you are not bound by the


physical form, you are not bound by the mind, you are not bound by





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the illusionary world. You are 100%, an expression of the source


which is infinite. So when you are spirit, you are infinite and you feel


to the extremes. Your mind lies to you to keep you locked in a world

that it deems is ‘safe’ and the spirit realm is far, far from safe. That’s


why so many humans struggle with religion and struggle to


understand life after death, and even struggle to comprehend alien


life. The human mind loves to tell you spirits and aliens are a bunch


of baloney, and to go to work now and follow the other sheep because

that’s what everybody else is doing and that’s what all the other


human minds can make sense of, and this feels safe and comfortable.


This is all the human perception and what the mind provides vs what


the spirit provides, which is boundless and infinite.





So back to the story. I woke up and I saw the little blue aliens there


in my mind. I had been pushing them away for a while, that doesn’t


mean they don’t try to interfere and demand I notice them. Ipaygus

and Avery do these things too, they come to visit me and then I ignore


them. It all depends on how I feel and sometimes I really want to just


be human and I do get down because I am surrounded by my best


friend which don’t even live on this planet. It’s kind of a terrible thing


to my human experience that your best friends are invisible. It’s



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pretty noticeable that my energy field is different than the others here,


which has created a very long life of not fitting in, people not


understanding me, and me receding to a spiritual world, and I’ve done

this for years of my life, and we are talking 20+ years of my life I have


explored being alone. I can tell you all about being alone, the


suffering acidic feeling of nobody to help you, nobody to talk to,


nobody to care about you, only you caring about you, only you seeing


you, only you knowing you. So, my emotional body has been built up

with these types of memories, lots and lots and lots and lots of these


types of memories, which is also why I consider myself an expert in


the exploration of dark energy because I know what emotional pain


and suffering feels like, to an extreme and to even a point where I had


dark visitors playing tricks on me and they forced me to stop certain

behaviors, if only out of not wanting those visitors in my life anymore.


But I do find these emotions are a part of my human based self, and


so I do push away the invisible world at times, because of the way it


instigates very sad and lonely memories of only having the invisible


world and wanting to have humans here with me in my human world.


I have to tell you that part, because part of my development right now


is learning how to ‘let go.’ This isn’t a snap of the fingers. It literally is


a process of learning how to train my body out of its natural need to



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cling onto emotional memories. You don’t realize this, but your


memories are stored in sounds, colors, in your muscles, in your


bones, in your cells, and in your soul. These memories that are

painful are severely hard to let go because they are stored in so many


places and they do have a way of harvesting your future experiences,


because you have attachments to them. You think you have let go,


but then some event happens in your life and it instigates memories


from the past to inspire your decision making in the present and in

the future. I have to find a way to heal all these years of memories


and pain, because it inspires me to push away my invisible friends


and I am cycling into a new phase where I need to find a way to


embrace them and use them for the betterment of mankind. So I’m


working on this part, and I truly have made leaps and bound

unimaginable, but I still have a lot of work to do.






So, I’ve told you that part, well, these blue aliens, they are in a pack of

what would be like 8, and they seem to all think at the same time but


they also have their own expression of thoughts. That’s where I’m at


with them thus far. I didn’t like the look of them, so I’ve been uneasy


about these visitors, however, they keep reminding me that they are


not here to hurt me, so when I open my heart to them, each new time,



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I then do the human thing, resort to fear and violence, and remind


them that I will energetically hurt them severely if they cause harm to


myself, my family, or any human being on this planet, and then again,

I discover that they aren’t going to hurt me and then I say I’m sorry


again cause I got angry and didn’t mean to, I just don’t know for sure


about them. I do this because they remind me of Gray aliens, but


they aren’t gray, they literally are blue – not dark blue, but a light blue


color. Like baby blue. And they have big black eyes, like bug eyes,

and they have little noses and a little mouth, and they do look like


children because they aren’t very tall, just small people, although


there seem to be taller one’s. I discovered that I happen to have


nicknamed them ‘friend.’ It keeps coming out of me every time I let go


of the human facade and start absorbing their messages from a spirit

mind, I start calling them ‘friends.’ They are extremely energetically


powerful and they are actually healing me, but I have also healed


them too. They don’t exactly speak in words, but they also do or can


speak in words because they have spoken to me before, but they send


me waves of energy that are also in the form of informational

downloads, but what they send is always very healing to me, and they


were there last night and they were there at 2 am this morning.








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So, we’ll start with last night, when I finally decided to let the fence


down and allow my invisible friends back into my life. I go into phases


where I don’t want to see them, feel them, or be near them, I just want

to be a normal human being, and that usually spirals me into a


darker world, then I have to recognize what I’ve done (block everybody


out), then I have to submit to letting go of the old negative feelings and


stepping into the light to heal myself again. I usually have angels help


me with this, and I usually feel embarrassed and apologetic because I

can suddenly feel the difference between where I was and where I have


elevated to – which is from low to high, and I feel how I create


separation and that doesn’t just cause myself pain, it causes pain to


those who care about me, even if they are invisible and don’t live on


this planet, they still feel what’s in my heart as if it is in their own

heart. So, I did that last night (healed myself), and when I was drifting


off to sleep, I discovered a memory of the 8 little blue men, and I know


they have been in my apartment before – but it just seems so dream-


like it’s impossible to feel as though this is real, but I keep feeling like


I’ve seen them there before and here I had a vivid recall of a mere 2

seconds of several little blue men approaching my bed in the middle of


the night. This vivid moment was enough to instantly bother me


which then put up the force field of security which blocks them out. I




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then checked to see if I had any negative sensations about them, and


there were none. I didn’t hate them, I didn’t feel uncomfortable in my


own home, I didn’t feel scared to go to bed, and so I eased up that they

must be harmless. Then I eased up some more and opened my third


eye to see them, which is when I saw one very, very close up, more


close up then I ever had before. Very distinctly could I see the large


black eyes, the hairless body, the larger head with the tiny nose and


thin mouth. They seriously do not appear to have any genitalia (if you

were ever wondering), and they don’t wear clothes. I suddenly was


really impressed by what felt like beauty. It’s shocking to me how,


when I make a spiritual connection, the experience of what is


beautiful to me, it translates itself into something far different than


what my human self would see. When I saw this little blue man, so

clearly and so closely, it honestly felt like pure joy and love for this


creature. It was undeniable. Then I thought about its eerie


similarities to gray aliens and I instantly got defensive again…but it all


slowly circled out and I heard myself call him ‘friend.’ And I thought


about the brief memory and heard myself fill with joy again and call

them ‘friends.’ I don’t try to create these responses, I allow just a


spiritual presence to inspire my human reaction, if only to discover


the essence of truth more clearly, and then I feel asleep to all of that.




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So, at 2 am this morning when I woke up, I was immediately thinking


about them, and I realized all along that these blue beings are my


friends, and they have been guiding me all along. They have been

helping me, more than I realized before. One message that has been


very repetitive of late has been to get rid of my cellphone. I have a


Samsaung Galaxy S5, and I have internet and the works. I use it as


my alarm clock so it’s always near me. I never have liked cellphones, I


was sort of pushed into getting one after I started having kids and just

kept it and kept upgrading it to newer and better phones. So, there


has been this very insistent and urgent push to get the phone away


from me, especially while I’m sleeping at night. Well, I finally, finally,


after what has been almost 2 months of this urgent message, I went to


Walmart and went to look at the digital clocks. When I got there, I

looked over the selection, and then I saw one. It was the ugliest neon


type of yellow green color, and it’s a small box shape. It was the only


one of its kind that was there, and the box was even beat up and I


didn’t want it. The thing about this digital clock is, I saw that I


already owned it in the future. I kept saying, no way, I’m not buying

that ugly thing, I don’t know why I see myself owning this in the


future, but that doesn’t mean I have to buy it, I don’t have to buy


whatever I feel I own in the future, that’s just stupid. Naturally, I had




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to get the one I felt I owned in the future because I couldn’t NOT get it,


and the explanation was extremely extraordinary when I woke up at 2


am this morning, what the feeling was all about. The feeling was that

this ugly clock was actually created for me, for me specifically, and


that I was supposed to own that specific digital clock because it was


prepared for me as a gift. That these blue beings, manifested this


digital clock for me. Naturally it was made in a factory and it was


supplied to a buyer at Walmart, but it’s not what you think, this

actually was more than that process, it was their dream for me to get


a digital clock that manifested itself into that ugly neon yellow/green


cheap clock I have now from Walmart, and these beings are who did


this. It was a eureka moment, undeniable, at 2 am in the


morning. I’m seriously not making this shit up.





You have to realize the profundity of this, because I realized at 2 am,


that this is a present they gave to me in my physical reality. The

present is not only this digital clock, but since I’ve moved my


cellphone out of my bedroom, I sleep like a brick now, where I was


waking up almost 5 times a night, and some nights what felt like,


every hour, or not even sleeping at all. And I would check my


cellphone for the time and the light of the phone was very harsh on



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my eyes. So you can see all the benefits that have come from me


following these instructions, removing the cellphone from my bedroom


and now using a digital clock.





Okay, so that’s what I have for you. I’m back on track again, as far as


my reconnection with spirits and aliens, which I was always on track,

but I’m more so on track. I’m working on letting go of feeling as


though I was abandoned by everybody. I’ve had a very deep spiritual


awareness for a very long time, and I have honestly felt like I did


something tragically wrong in a past life to deserve the severity of


loneliness I have endured in this lifetime. But I have discovered it was


only to mold me into someone who was forced to have invisible

friends, then someone who was forced to go into complete darkness,


then someone who was forced to discover her own personal power,


even in the midst of the severe emotional hell, only to discover her way


out, become a healer, develop a website, then learn how to love and

accept all of this as a necessary means to become a master teacher in


this lifetime. Essentially, I have experienced death and rebirth in one


lifetime. Literally, at the end of this 20 year cycle, I honestly


compared myself to a living dead person, that was the sensation of my


life and I had no emotion, because I had no will to live, no heart beat



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and no inspiration, you have no idea the feeling of hell to be as


spiritually profound as I am and feel that dead with no way out. It


actually has a pain associated with it – it’s beyond depression and I

can feel it like I’m literally dead and it’s like a terrible acidic battery


feeling and I feel like I’m suffocating in dirty air but there is no death


… and I have felt this way, all while I’m still working on a website,


youtube videos, developing my healing ability … etc. Certain events


motivated change and now I’m starting to feel like I am a living person,

which the experience of being ‘alive’ is unlike you can imagine, the joy


of the feeling, the sound of music, the taste of air, the simple act of


getting up and being alive is real beyond imagination …. But I still


have attachments, not purposely, but they are there and I have to


remove them to completely cycle out from the past into the Now

moment more completely. Basically, the whole point of all of this is, I


have to let go so I can connect with my alien and spirit friends more


deeply if only to share the greater messages they can send for


humanity.





So anyway, gotta go. Sorry if this was long and drawn out, my mind


has been really sporadic and rushed at the same time as being slightly


confused as to what I’m writing about.



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And anyway, got more writing to share soon and I want to add music


to my website, if only to create more active energy. Good music is like


breathing fresh air and drinking clean water when you’re so thirsty. If

none of this writing is motivating, if I can at least inspire joy from


sharing a good tune on my website, I’ve made an impact, and that


means something to me. And then too, I’m going to attempt to create


a video of myself sharing abbey normal type wisdom. Anyway, taking


everything one step at a time. Bye for now!










































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IPAYGUS THE ROCK MAN





POSTED ON DECEMBER 18, 2015 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL





































Ipaygus is an alien friend I discovered several months ago, this year. I


was just having a normal day at work, and then suddenly I saw a


large, dark rock creature, living in what is like a barren rock land. I

was immediately on defense. I don’t need any pests in my life, alien or


spirit, and I didn’t like the look of him. But he didn’t react to me, he


only sat there and observed me while I tried to make sense of him. He


was very patient, not moving or making any real interaction, except for


a strange scratching noise, which came from his voice box. The longer




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I looked at him, the less fearful I was and the more I felt my heart fill


with joy and happiness, as though I had just discovered a long lost


friend.





Needless to say, it was very difficult to stay focused at work that day,


as I was getting to know this strange rock man. He showed me a

spectrum of light from dark to pure white and in between, all the


colors of the rainbow. He told me he is all of these colors. During the


day, I practiced exploring his appearance, I sensed what he meant to


my soul, and I sensed what his expression was like. He seemed like


he could live for 50,000 years and time had no presence to him, which


was unfathomable, the sensation of an experience without time. He

seemed extremely wise, like an elder, like a leader, but none of these


things had any meaning because there is no such thing as ‘leader’ or


‘wise man’ or anything of that kind to where he exists. I could only


describe it as though he was exactly his soul expression within the

body of an extraordinary man, made out of, or at least what looks like


rock.






He was fascinating, his patience was unimaginable. What would feel

like, he could sit in the same position for an entire year and not even



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be phased by that. Although he doesn’t sit in the same position, he


does move, but this is an example of the type of patience he has in a


world of timelessness – the patience he has would be insane to

us. But the whole day, he hardly moved, he just let me inspect him


and learn about him throughout the day as he showed me things here


and there. It was extremely exciting the day I met Ipaygus and the


days that followed, getting to know a long lost soul friend. He really


means a lot to me.





So here I’ve created an oil painting of him. He definitely lives on a


planet that would be difficult to survive on. His body is literally made


out of what is like rock or a very thick, hard shell, like a beetle. It’s

got sharp edges. He’s extremely tall, like 8 feet tall. Whenever I


connect with him, I sense how strong his body is, and I can feel how


fragile my body is in comparison. My body is literally like an egg


without a shell that could easily be squashed, where his is so tough

and protected by his outer bone structure, it feels indestructible. I


asked him if I could live on his planet, and he told me, ‘No,’ and that I


would be crushed by the atmosphere. He showed me my body literally


being instantly crushed. He told me he lives on a planet with Dense


Atmospheric Pressure. I couldn’t possibly tell you what that means,



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but I get the impression it’s not inhabitable by human beings. So this


is my alien friend, Ipaygus.




























































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AVERY THE HUMAN ALIEN





POSTED ON DECEMBER 18, 2015 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL









































This is Avery the Human Alien. He is definitely my best friend, he’s


been with me through thick and thin. I trust him 100%, even if I don’t


like what he tells me. Avery is invisible, but I can still see him in my

mind’s eye, but I can also feel his presence like a real person, standing


next to me, but invisible. He’s been my best friend for longer than I


was aware, and he’s definitely the first alien I’ve come to know in this


lifetime. He has helped me in a lot of ways, but he does come with his




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own challenges.





I first discovered him in college, but I didn’t realize he was more than


a ghost until several years later. Because his invisible presence can


seem almost real, I really did think I had a ghost following me, even


from apartments and then towns. He has a very distinctive presence,

and it’s energetically overwhelming, which challenges me emotionally


and I will tell you about that, but first I’ll at least tell you the basics


about his physical appearance. Avery is definitely a very handsome


man. He’s also very tall, what feels like 7 feet tall. He has pale skin,


deep blue eyes, and blonde hair. That’s the basic part of him, then


there’s his presence which feels like extremely powerful love energy.

It’s so potent that I have an immediate and disagreeable reaction


toward it. It can make me feel ashamed, ugly, like I want to hide


under a rock. I hated this ghost for a long time, because he wouldn’t


leave me alone, and as I started to discover he wasn’t a ghost

haunting me, I started to be able to make sense of my physical


reaction toward him. My physical form doesn’t know love of this


extreme and pure kind and it’s extremely hard to digest it and tolerate


it. I can feel so happy to see him come to visit me in my mind, and


then if he feels too close, it goes south, within seconds, and I suddenly



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feel like crying, and then I get angry, spiteful, and I want him to go


away. I literally have tried to not react this way, for years now, and I


can’t seem to stop this instinctive reaction.





Avery has come to visit me in other versions of himself, which seem to


be more emotionally tolerable. I’ve seen him visit me in forms that

were him in other lifetimes when we were together, so I recognize the


alien appearance and the past life memories somehow allows me to


tolerate his presence better, just in a different expression. He’s visited


me as a Praying Mantis Man and Emerald the Horseman. It’s odd


because I recognize Avery in them, but these visitors also seem like


their own identity, and not the same identity as Avery, although they

are also Avery.






You can wonder why I would call him my best friend with so many

obstacles, but it’s not always so difficult. At a distance, when he is


what feels like miles away, we can talk, and Avery doesn’t sleep ever,


so he’s awake what feels like all the time, so I can talk to him about


anything, whenever I feel like it. This can feel one-sided at times,


which is when I try to make deeper connections, to let him share more

with me, but they always end with me feeling terrible, severe grief and



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even anger, because I can’t process his natural continence of Love.


It’s severely intolerable to me. But it is what it is, all I can do is


acknowledge the reaction and try to make improvements, which I am

making improvements. It’s like with the Blue Men, I have to find new


ways of allowing my heart to fill with love so I can tolerate more


meaningful connections, and I have learned an amazing great deal


from Avery, even amidst all of this.





So all that being said, Avery’s primary messages are about love and


sacredness. He is helping me undo all the conditioning of this


unnatural world, and helping me to see what a natural human being


is like. The hardest lesson is me acknowledging that I am deserving of

love. Why this is so hard is ridiculous, but it is, and I know this is


hard for all human beings, not just me. It really is something we all


need to work on, realizing that we all deserve to feel love, and extreme


love – pure, extreme, and unconditional love … and for ridiculous

reasons, it’s the most terrifying love of all kind, but that just goes to


show how low on the totem pole we are vibrating. Where we feel cozy


in a polluted, disgusting, disturbed, messed up world. Avery is also


helping me to see through the lens of love, to see the beauty and


connection in everything, and that also includes nature and



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