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Published by amanda.khan1985, 2019-09-05 18:22:43

2013 Single Entries - PDF FORMAT

2013 SINGLE ENTRIES




1. HUMAN ALIEN CONNECTION, THE AVERY STORY BEGINS

2. THOUGHT PRISONS

3. YOUNG SOULS AND THE EARTH

4. VISIONS IN THE NIGHT, YOUR TYPICAL 4 AM WEIRDNESS

5. ENERGY SHIFTS, VISIONS, AND SACRED RITUATIONS; MORE
WEIRDNESS TO THE NTH DEGREE

6. EXPERIENCING ENERGY SHIFTS, GOING NORMAL AND
BEYOND, THE AVERY STORY CONTINUES

7. LOVE IN LIGHT AND DARKNESS

8. THE GREYS: HOW I FOUGHT BACK AND WON

9. AVERY THE ANGEL AND THE HUMAN ZOMBIE

10. THE TRUTH ABOUT ALIENS AND OUR HUMAN AWAKENING IN
THE UNIVERSE

11. AN INTRODUCTION TO MYSELF: WHO IS ABBEY NORMAL?

12. SELF-HEALING TECHNIQUES: ASKING THE UNIVERSE FOR
HELP IN SELF-HEALING

13. SUMMER SOLSTICE 2013: 4 AM AT GRAY’S LAKE
CELEBRATING WITH NATURE

14. LOSS AND LETTING GO: ABBEY NORMAL’S LOST TREASURE









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HUMAN ALIEN CONNECTION,


THE AVERY STORY BEGINS





POSTED ON SEPTEMBER 15, 2013 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL




He’s tall and athletic and he never wears clothing, ever. I can’t even try to


put clothes on him, my mind rejects the idea because the truth is, he really


isn’t wearing clothes and no amount of pretending will change that. He has

curly blond hair and it hits his shoulders. I’m not convinced whether or not


he has blue or green eyes. He lives in a forest. It’s rocky in some places,


like, very large stones and there is a mountainous feel to this place. There


are tall old trees there, lots of them. There is also a large lake. He lives in a


round wooden house on the lake. It’s not a large home, and it seems to only

possess a bed and a fireplace, and I’m not even convinced it possesses a


bed, but I’ve seen a fire burning before. He seems to be the only one who


lives there. I’ve never seen anyone else there but him.





In my mind, I can project myself to this place. I can feel the sand in my toes


and the cool water. The air seems crisp. When I project myself to this place

I have to concentrate really hard on feeling fully present there, present with


all the elements and at all moments simultaneously, this isn’t particularly


easy for me. In the beginning, I used to project myself there but my face

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and body were never that of my own. I’m not sure why, it seemed easier


this way. It’s quite amazing how many faces and forms my mind can think


up in a split moment, but the hardest form to be is myself. I don’t know

why that was so difficult, but once I was able to project myself there he


seems to appreciate that better so I always try to only ever be me.





I don’t think I entirely understood what this was at first, I just figured it was


an imaginary place and the whole of what I was seeing was entirely made


up. I really didn’t know what I was seeing, but the more times I have visited


this place in my mind, the scene is always the same and never

changing. The only difference is sometimes it’s day and sometimes it’s


night. This has proven to me that this place is more than imaginary and is


entirely real in some space and time. Sometimes I’ve seen this man doing


things near the lake, I’ve even caught him peeing off a ledge before – now

don’t tell me that my mind wants to see some guy pee, that was what


convinced me even more that this is not just imaginary; sometimes I project


myself there and I can’t find him anywhere near the lake, but he seems to


always notice when I visit him in my mind. Maybe not right away, but I


have called his name before and ran from the beach to his house, late one


night, and he came out the door and hugged me.







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Comprehending this has only come recently, in the last year or so. His


spirit came to visit me many times and the energy was undeniable. He told


me his name was Avery. This is the same spirit that I saw in my living room

when I first gave blood to the Earth. His spirit visited me often at first and


then it slowly transformed and I started to see this man and that lake and


the house. There was a long period of time where Avery, the spirit, did not


visit me and I wondered what had happened. It was probably 3 months


that went by and nothing and during this time it felt like the closest way I

could be to his spirit was through this man I saw in my mind. From that


point forward the energy has slowly changed and my experience of Avery is


changing and I’m noticing that I’m becoming confused as to who is visiting


me, Avery spirit or Avery man?





This does get very confusing, especially when it’s difficult to put all the

pieces of the puzzle together and all these moments and times and places


when I noticed Avery, Avery spirit or Avery man I don’t know know. My


story of knowing Avery does not just begin over the last year, it begins many


years ago when I first noticed him. I’d say I was 14 and I was swimming at


my grandparent’s house and I was alone at their pool which rested on top of


a hill and this home was surrounded by a forest of trees so it felt very

secluded there. I remember I was on the diving board when I suddenly




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noticed I was being watched. From my mind’s eye I could see a teenage boy


standing behind me on the other side of the fence watching me very


closely. I was so taken aback by this, I tried to pretend I didn’t notice and

when I attempted to dive into the pool I did a perfect belly flop and actually


bruised my lungs. There was a bruise on my chest for several weeks. I felt


so stupid I wanted to cry. He didn’t seem to think I was stupid and his


reaction never changed toward me. The only way I can describe it is as if he


was captivated by me. I couldn’t bare to swim any longer with what just

happened between being so surprised, noticing someone there watching me,


then being embarrassed and feeling like I made a fool out of myself, to


feeling overwhelmed and confused as to why this boy wasn’t laughing


hysterically at me. I felt like crying and I wanted to hide and I left the pool


immediately.




I’ve always felt as though there was someone out there who knew about me


and loved me very much who lived in the stars. I remember it being my last


year of college, after many years of feeling like I was being watched by a tall


handsome man. You can say what you want but I found it to be very


annoying and rude. I could tell when he was there because the air’s energy


had suddenly transformed and become manlike and had eyes. I would tell

him he was rude to come here and watch me and stay hidden behind the




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air and I would consider him ungentlemanly and a coward. As you can


imagine, I hated changing clothes or getting showers or going to the


bathroom cause I could feel his eyes on me often. I hated feeling watching

by someone that I couldn’t see. And I couldn’t see him at all then, only


sensed his presence very clearly and for whatever reason, I knew he was a


tall handsome man.





I know much more, now that time has passed and now in the present day


he has become clearer and clearer in my mind and in my daily life. His


mental capacity is clearly much greater than my own as he is always able to

welcome my visits to his forest home, however, when he comes to visit me, I


can sense his energy so well that it is almost overwhelming and often times


my mind instantly rejects it. The mind is very good at rejecting things and


keeping our human selves contained and imprisoned into a world that is

safe and that the mind understands and can relate to. My mind can’t


understand this although my heart understands very well and I know I can


trust him. As you can see, I’m often in a constant battle between a human


mind and a spiritual heart. Unfortunately, I’m still practicing allowing my


mind not to put up an instant red flag and develop a self-conscious reaction


that usually turns into anger and me telling him to go away and stop

visiting me when I’m trying to take a shower. One thing you probably don’t




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realize is that it’s very natural for our human species to not wear clothing in


all places where we exist in the universe. Wearing clothes is part of the


enslavement of our species, a gift of the third dimension, but that’s a whole

other story.





So, in the last several months, I’ve noticed something different in his


approach toward visiting me. Since my mind is so good at rejecting his


visits he is trying to avoid alerting this response so instead he has been


relaxing me into an almost catatonic unmoving state; I’m so relaxed I’m


almost sleepy, my mind does not resist this as much as when he doesn’t

relax me first. I can’t say that I quite enjoy being instantly relaxed like this,


especially while I’m driving or while I’m busy at work and suddenly I have


stopped moving and can only just stare and I worry that someone will notice


and think I’m insane. I have tried to break this relaxed state. I can

certainly break it but I feel this horrible sensation inside when I do. Like, I


want to cry. Whatever he is using to relax me is obviously some profound


surge of love that makes me feel instantly peaceful and like resting. It is a


pleasant sensation and much easier to embrace than a tall handsome man


staring at me while I’m on the toilet.










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So this is part of my life story. This is only a part and there is much more to


this particular story than I can tell, its so much more complicated than this


very basic part of the story. But I do know that I need to start sharing

myself more with the world. I’m very good and containing who I really am


and pretending to be so very normal when my life experience has been far


from explanatory. No amount of trying to fit in will ever hide the fact that


I’m different and my experience has been different. If there is one thing I


can say about the purpose of my life, it’s about embracing who I truly am

and learning how to share that person with the world. I have worked very


hard in my life to hide my true identity so that I could fit in and be


normal. I’m at a point now where it doesn’t seem to make sense anymore, I


just want to be myself. Coming to this point has been a huge step for me


and to share this giant secret is an even bigger step. I’m working on

opening up to sharing these big secrets, but also learning how to capture a


voice that I relate to and that helps me share my story in a way that feels


right to me. You may not notice that about yourself, but you and I and


everyone are filled with a million different voices. One voice may be funny,


one voice may be very judgmental, one voice may be very professional and

we use different voices in different situations where they make the most


amount of sense. Since I am not accustomed to sharing the true side of


myself, it’s hard to figure out what voice is my own. Again, this is the mind




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at work, trying to create an illusion that I must find a ‘right’ voice to share


my story. I can tell you that I am also a super perfectionist and that is


another challenge with sharing my story because my mind has worked so

hard at concluding that to be ‘perfect’ in this world, you have to be like


everybody else, so me not being like everybody else is really conflicting, and I


think a natural response to most humans. We all want to be loved and


appreciated, even for our differences.


Anyway, I can at least go about my day knowing that I have shared


something about my ‘Normal’ life. Hopefully I will be able to share more


again soon enough. What you may not be aware of is that my hours are

between 3:30 am and 8:30 pm: 1 hour of that time is getting ready for work,


1 hour of that time is my drive to and from work. 12 hours of that time is


working, and the remainder of that time is spent with my kids, figuring out


dinner, and making sure everybody is bathed and ‘jamied up and ready for

bed. It feels almost impossible to continue with my website but I have to at


least try. So please be patient with me as I try to develop something here.



















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THOUGHT PRISONS





POSTED ON SEPTEMBER 20, 2013 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL



In my years of search and discovery, one thing I am constantly combating is


my never-ending thought making brain. Have you ever tried to


comprehend, just by thinking about it, what it is to be human? Part of what

I have discovered is that, to be completely and utterly human, is to think,


and think constantly. I feel quite certain that humans are the only species


in the universe that can think this much, that want to think this much, that


insist on thinking this much. This, to me, is actually a sign of an

underdeveloped species. Now, that being said, I do believe it also shows


sign of a manipulating outer species that is enhancing our minds to create


thought prisons. When you are constantly in a deep world of thought, you


are actually in a thought prison. When you can learn to quite the mind and


connect with the universe, you will find information absorbs into your


body. You don’t have to think to discover it, it becomes infused within you

and you suddenly already know the answer. I can’t deny that I feel very


confident that our species has profound capabilities that have been


degraded and repressed over the years to a point that our minds are telling


us that we are underdeveloped but yet our minds also tell us that we are an

advancing species and advancing society. And we have become so



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accustomed to thought prisons that we now feel this constant thinking is a


natural part of our species and that this constant thinking can have good


components and has opened the doorway to wonderful scientific

discoveries. This is a lie. What human beings have created today, this


world that is today, this world that is so degrading and disgusting, yes, this


world was created by billions and billions of thought prisons. Don’t you find


it interesting how human beings today have drifted from the old fashioned


porch and lemonade scene to the cellphone addiction scene? What has

become of our species that we can’t sit and relax anymore? What has


become of our species that we must be constantly entertaining ourselves


through devices that actually provide no sustenance to our physical and


mental forms. These devices are only helping us ignore time and pass the


time without actually living ‘in time.’ How about your last breath and

looking back on your life and seeing how good you were at ignoring your


family while you played on your cellphone, and ignoring your family while


you watched TV, and ignoring your family because you had to do this one


more thing on the computer; but the reality is, you probably won’t notice


how good you were at ignoring anybody, because you were so busy

immersing yourself in this world that became natural to you, and your


closest companion is probably busy doing the same thing, and then all of


your children who were once natural forms became unnatural forms,




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obsessed with devices and ignoring the world and each other until


suddenly, on your last breath, you actually felt like you accomplished


something beautiful in life when really the only thing you accomplished was

further degrading yourself, and degrading your sacred creations which will


pass on the degradation until all of humanity and the planet Earth is


dead. I’m not certain what all of this means, other than the reality that we


need to wake up and start observing ourselves and observing each


other. Taking one step forward and deciding to be different. Taking one step

forward and deciding to take notice of something peculiar. Every day of my


life and as much time as I can muster, I spend connecting with my body,


with my mind, with my soul, with nature, with the universe, with the energy


of life, the energy of all that is, was, and ever will be. If there is anything I


can tell you, once you discover it, this energy is way more appealing, way

more enjoyable, way more inspiring, beautiful, amazing, profound, and life


altering than any app you can find on your cellphone. When you can go


into the forest and find a peaceful place and feel your body connecting to


every large and every small form of life, and you feel your vibration shifting


and you feel this stream of light and love flowing into your heart and it

brings tears to your eyes, when you can do this every day, making love to


life itself by just finding peace and quietness in mind, body, and soul, you


will find true ecstasy beyond anything these devices can provide. Then you




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will start to realize what it is to truly be a human being in the universe and


then you will start to take notice of something that often times goes


unnoticed and that is the reality that there is something ‘bigger’ going on

behind the scenes. Something that is creating an illusion for us all that has


created billions and billions of thought prisons that will forever keep us


locked in this disturbing world that is today. The only way to break free


from this is to accept your mind and the thought prison, and then to choose


a different way of being which is to open the prison cell and walk through

that door to the rays of light that exist all around us and that are ready to


raise billions and billions of vibrations so far that they reach the endless


universe and take our species to an everyday experience of infinity.

































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YOUNG SOULS AND THE EARTH





POSTED ON SEPTEMBER 20, 2013 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL




This is important for me to share, and important for me to make sure every


human being knows this truth, and the truth is that each and every human

being on this planet is not on Earth because we are all young souls. Earth


is not the beginning of our soul destination and once we have gotten to


some point in our soul development, we finally get to move on to alien life


experiences. No, this is not true. The reason I’m bringing this up is


because this has become a repetitive ‘discovery’ that I have read and heard

throughout my life. Remember, I’m only 30 and I’ve heard it more than


once and more than twice and the interaction and response to this lie


seemed favorable, that it seemed to make sense that our souls would start


here and then go elsewhere. It is mind boggling to me that our minds can

be so simple that this fact would make sense. Just because this world of


today is a complete and utter mess, it was not created by billions of young


souls who don’t know any better. Absolutely not. There are other factors


than just humans that have created this world of today. So please know


that just because you live on Earth, you aren’t living here because Earth is


step one. Know that you are living on Earth because you have a tough soul

who wanted to start in the pits of hell verse starting in a beautiful and


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reverberating love body like that of the Pleiadeans. It’s not about the body


you inhabit or the place you inhabit that determines the age of your soul,


it’s about how you love in a world of hell and that and only that will

determine who and what you are.






















































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VISIONS IN THE NIGHT, YOUR


TYPICAL 4 AM WEIRDNESS





POSTED ON SEPTEMBER 23, 2013 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL




I’ve decided I probably should write down what I wake up to in the middle of

the night; usually anywhere between 1 and 5 am. My life is so full of


constant distractions, I never just write it down first thing when I get up in


the morning and next thing you know a few days have passed and I don’t


really relate to the information in the same way or I can’t remember the


words exactly and there are so many reasons why. So, I’ve decided to


change my ways and start writing things down, and the first thing I’m going

to write down is what a spirit shared with me a week ago, in fact, it might


have been two weeks ago, I can’t remember.





So, it was around 1 in the morning. It was a strange series of dreams I’d


been having over the past few days, and I had been feeling for several


months somewhat disconnected from the universe. I hate feeling

disconnected and the feeling is really just noticing that I don’t hear from the


spirit world as often as I’d like to. My life just feels dull in some


unexplainable way; something I love feels further away from me than I’d like


and it creates an empty feeling. I have a very special relationship with a

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spirit that my soul knows very well. His name is Avery and I wrote about


him in a previous entry. I know his spirit well but his physical form is quite


distant still and confusing. Regardless, Avery spirit visited me a few weeks

ago in the night and when he visits me in this way, it fills my heart with


joy. I absolutely love learning new things from him. He shared several


pictures with me and what happened in the end was extremely strange and


hard to make sense of.





The first thing I remember him showing me was a beautiful woman, she


seemed somewhat Asian and somewhat looked like Jasmine from Aladdin,

but not a cartoon image an image of a real person. Her hair was black and


extraordinarily thick, and it had extraordinary braids in it. Unlike any


braids I had ever seen, they were intricate. Not all of her hair was braided. I


saw that she was holding something; I can’t seem to recall what it

was. Regardless I know it was a gift. This woman had walked into a tunnel


underground and there was a stream there of illuminated water. The light


seemed to come from the ground. I know that she gave this gift to the


water. I don’t know where it went or why she was doing this. There was


more information shared about the image but I can’t remember. This is the


first picture.






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The next picture I remember clearly was the memory of another lifetime. I


was a woman lying on a bed. I wasn’t older than 40, for certain I wasn’t. I


was very, very sick. Avery was there as a man who was taking care of

me. We were certainly together, married. I remember feeling so sad because


I was weak and I knew I was going to die from this sickness and that I was


going to leave Avery alone. It was extremely odd because I remember seeing


how broken hearted he was and I desperately didn’t want to leave him


alone. I passed away in the vision and I could even feel my soul escaping

my body as I left him alone. It was just a sensation of ‘lightness’, like


detaching from a crust and drifting away like air.





The final thing I remember seeing was very unusual and I felt I was in an


altered state of being. As though I was in my body and I was myself but I


wasn’t entirely surrounded by our dimension as we know it. All I can tell

you is that there was a strange man that had no face and it would be the


equivalent of wearing a black spider man mask. Just a black face, not like


African American black skin, but black salamander like skin with no


distinguishable eyes or mouth or ears but a face no doubt and it was


attached to a body of some kind. I could only see the face and neck and I


thought the rest of its form was like a snake, but I can’t be sure. I suddenly

saw the walls disappear and it seemed as though I was in a barren dessert,




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and it was desolate and dead there. There was an extreme wind and sand


blowing everywhere. I really have no clue what any of this means but it was


a very clear image and I was in a real place. This face was right next to

mine and with unknown hands I was able to feel its sturdy structure and I


did all of this as I was lying in bed in my bedroom but also surrounded by


this other world I could see so clearly in my mind that it was projected


around me and it literally was around me. I asked Avery what this was and


all I could understand of it was that this creature was real and this place

was real.





I really can’t explain half the things I see but what I can tell you is that I can


recognize a distinct difference between falling asleep and recognizing a


dream world, the difference between being completely and utterly awake in


the real world, and the difference between feeling my ‘self’ in an altered state

of being. It appears to be easy to pull me into an altered state of being


between 1 and 5 am and I’m almost certain I’m not the only human being


on the planet that has experienced strange things between these hours. I


would say 4 am is the kicker time for weird spiritual experiences but since


my hours are getting earlier and earlier to rise it seems the spirit world has


to catch me a little earlier as well.







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Anyway, I’m sharing this with you. I asked the universe to open that door


again and give me a second chance. I need to make an honest effort to write


down what I’m shown in the middle of the night. Maybe it doesn’t make

sense to anyone and maybe this website has no meaning but for myself, but


at least I’m making a concerted effort for me and my choice to enhance my


relationship with the spirit world and anyone else who might relate or find


this interesting.











































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ENERGY SHIFTS, VISIONS, AND


THE SACRED RITUALS; MORE


WEIRDNESS TO THE NTH


DEGREE





POSTED ON SEPTEMBER 26, 2013 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL



So I’ve spent the last few days feeling sensitive to some unknown and


overwhelming energy fluctuations. I don’t know about you, but Monday


was a very bad day for me. I’ve gone through so many years of my life


knowing a great deal about depression but I’ve never felt any kind of


suffering like I did on Monday. It was completely out of mind and it was like

a large ball of energy that was welling around my midsection. Not even in


my heart but below that. Over the last few days I have finally perceived


what a chakra actually looks like and it looks like an incredible flower that


exists outside of the body. It’s sort of like all human beings exist inside of a


bubble and somewhere attached and not attached to this bubble is a

floating flower. The flower I saw was a yellowish orange color, with sharp


distinguished petals, and it was extraordinary and beautiful.


But back to what I was saying, this sensation I’ve been feeling is like an


intense pain. Like a deep sorrow coming from the Earth and coming from

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inside of me. I’ve been feeling like I can’t be a normal human anymore. I


haven’t even mentioned what happened to me on 6/8/12 but I haven’t been


the same person since. I feel like someone who went through some

Spiderman science experiment and now I’m not human anymore. Do you


know what it feels like to not feel like you are human? I never knew what it


felt like until recently. The person that is inside of me is not the person I


used to be. I don’t feel connected to other people or connected to anything


that has been created by mankind today. It is a terrible thing because I still

have to live in this world and yet I belong in a different world. I feel like if I


don’t leave this reality and find myself removed deep into a forest my soul


my actually die. That is the pain I’ve been feeling. Like I miss my home,


which is a home I never had, a home in the forest. As you can see, this is a


very odd predicament because this isn’t normal, and yet it is more normal

than any human can possibly know.





But moving along, weirdness to the nth degree starting around 1 am when I


woke up and noticed something peculiar. The memories are all very vague


because I woke up several times and tried to remember what had happened


only to find that I was experiencing some new information and then I would


fall asleep again only to repeat this sluggish recall several times throughout

the early morning. I finally woke up at 4:30 with a distinct message to go




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to a forest area I had recently found. Naturally, I can’t say no to the


universe, but I warned the messenger that my mind would try to battle this


instruction and tell me to just go to work so I asked for extra help to make

sure I followed through which I did.





When I got to my forest place I felt that uncomfortable feeling when I got out


of my car, like I’m a naked person trying to sneak through the county fair


and everyone can see me. I hate being in the light when I’m sneaking to do


something weird that I don’t want anybody to notice; not that anybody is up


or anywhere even near this forest area at 4:30 in the morning, but just in

case, I still have to be sneaky.





I can’t deny that I felt off about being there this morning. When I go there


this early and it’s all dark, I sometimes worry that there will be a homeless


person in the forest one of these times that I go there. Then I’m always


reminded that this place was chosen for me because it is safe and I’m

reminded that it is far too rocky and uncomfortable for anyone to want to


come here to sleep. I had a strange moment as well with a shadow and I


actually thought a wild animal was sitting right next to me and even then I


was told that the animals know I am here and will not come near me. You


don’t understand what it is to ‘hear’ a voice in your head and know it’s not



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your own voice until you start to take notice of how that voice is different


from your own and detached from your own mind. Once you can start


recognizing this you will start to have a very good communication with the

spirit world. You may be surprised or not surprised to know that there are


a good portion of thoughts within you that are not your own. But this is a


topic for another time.





So I found myself safe in my forest home this morning, as I was called to do


by so many vague memories and conversations with spirits and strange


looking people. I can’t tell you if they are real people that know about me

but exist in another dimension or if they are spirits that I pick up on that


take on a form of some kind. I can tell when it’s a spirits because I can see


them in my reality with my real world in the background but I do see forms


that come from an entirely different background. For instance, my son has

been sick with a bad cold so I was using some Reiki symbols on him before I


left the house and I saw a large man in a forest put his hand on mine and


tell me not to be afraid. And when I say large man, I mean like 12 feet tall


and proportionate in size and height, a real live giant. I saw many


extraordinary trees behind him when he touched my hand.










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I’m not going to lie, the energy fluctuations through the night were


insane. My energy field felt pulled in many different directions by many


different voices. Say what you want, tell me I need to go to a mental

institution, trust me, I get it, but the reality is, the more I ignore who I am


the further I go back to the person I used to be, trying really hard to fit in


when I knew I was different all along. Trying really hard to ignore my


differences and change them so I could be like everybody else. The reality


is, the universe is not having it and whatever has happened to me happened

because of an enormous energy shift and I just so happened to be at the


right place at the right time, present to receive energy that changed me from


human to some form of alien human…but back on topic again. So much


has been very, very weird lately and I know I have to keep writing this


down. The more I write down, the more I am proving to the universe my

willingness to pay attention and to share what information I receive, even if


it doesn’t make sense and even if it makes me look like a freaking fruit


cake. The moment we humans can all walk away from our egos and


embrace the weird side of the universe, the sooner we will transform into


our most natural and amazing selves.





So, back to topic, I waited in the forest, as I usually do, because nothing

happens the moment I get there. I have to relax and tell the universe that I




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am open and ready to receive information. Then I will notice an energy


fluctuation that alters me and my mind and then a portal opens between


me and a messenger of some kind. This morning it was the voice of Mother

Earth and this morning it was the voice of the elementals, the tiny beings


who make things grow, who heal all creations, who exist in another realm


that is ours and not ours. I heard their voice tell me that Mother Earth


needed me today. They showed me an image of something I don’t even


think I can tell you. In fact, I will keep this one to myself. Anyway, it was a

gift that was created from inside of me that they brought to life outside of


me and I was shown what it was and how it came from one place within me


to outside of me. They told me this was a gift for the Earth. I was shown


my new forest place and I saw the gift sitting on a dirt mound. I often bury


gifts to the Earth so that they can be absorbed back and reborn. To bury a

gift for the Earth, it’s literally like the equivalent of an orgasm for the Earth


so burying gifts are extremely essential for the life and health of the Earth. I


know it sounds weird, but trust me, it’s very true. When you give a gift from


your heart to the Earth, you are giving love energy; love energy and sexual


energy are the same, and when you give love energy to the inside of the

Earth, the Earth feels this gift the same way you feel the gift of an orgasm


with someone you deeply adore. It’s all the same thing. So I showed the


elementals how I will bury this energy gift and they told me no, that it was




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buried inside of me at one time and now it must stay in the open and that it


would be taken care of by the air. I don’t know what any of this means and


I couldn’t hear any answers very well so I just accepted this

information. And as I sat in the forest I thought about this and as I let go of


my fears of homeless people and wild animals and as I opened a portal to


the universe I began to hear the Earth speak to me. The voice is female for


sure and I even contemplated if I was incorrect that maybe it was a nature


spirit or some other spirit that is connected with the Earth that is speaking

to me. Either way, it represents the Earth so it was the voice of the Earth


for me. I went about a sacred ritual I do in nature in which I was shown


pictures of what my energy was doing and how the Earth and I were


interacting and how I was connecting with the Earth. I knew everything I


was doing has an importance to me and to my mission here in this

lifetime. Now I can’t tell you that when all was said and done, I walked


away from this spot feeling as though everything made sense or feeling


completely elated, no, in fact, I felt very proud of myself for doing as I was


asked to do, but then feeling confused as usual and trying to go about a


normal day again that doesn’t relate at all to my existence.





This sorrowful pain is a feeling as though I miss my connection with the

Earth. I’ve been feeling a suffering feeling. I just want to live in the forest. I




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recently requested a past life reading. These past lifetimes keep me sane in


my insane world and they keep me constantly uncovering clues about


myself and about life and what it is to be human. I know this reading will

come soon but I am hoping it will reveal clues to who and what I’m


becoming. A natural human in an unnatural world. Maybe at one time I


lived on Earth as a natural human, before human beings went through


energy shifts and mind control into what the world has become today. And


don’t think that it isn’t true because it is. The less you believe the further

away from the truth you’ll always be. The more you can expand your mind


and allow the creative side of you to come forward, the closer you’ll be to


your natural self and to understanding the universe which is completely


and utterly different and full of weirdness that even the weirdest


contemplations can’t even depict. Imagine having a conversation with

Adam and Eve in their sacred home and convincing them how important


today’s world of living is and how they need to change their ways and start


eating McDonalds and getting wasted and doing some blow on occasion and


then going to work for 12 hours a day so that you might have the extra


money to supercharge your engine and buy some new speakers to bump

some angry rap music about blowing peoples brains out. Now you want to


talk about weird, let’s talk about us human being today and how fucking








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weird we are.





Anyway, I can’t type forever and I’ve managed to spit out some new life


experiences of the strange and normal life of myself. As soon as I have my

new past life reading I will be very willing and excited to share it. So be


ready for more.














































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EXPERIENCING ENERGY SHIFTS,


GOING NORMAL AND BEYOND,


THE AVERY STORY CONTINUES





POSTED ON SEPTEMBER 28, 2013 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL




I can’t say many strange events have been in the works lately, other than

Avery the Human Alien. I don’t like talking much about Avery, but I can


definitely say I have felt an extreme disconnection, to the point that my


brain tries to tell me that it was all make believe, and then back to an


extreme reconnection, to the point that I can’t deny what I’ve always


sensed. It’s the same sensation I’ve had all my life, as though someone


knows about me in the universe, from some place far away from here, some

boy my age that loves and care about me, a best friend over all else in all


time and space and in all eternity, and hiding under every rock and hiding


in every crevasse and in the dark places and in the light, no other soul can


mean this much to me.




When my life gets to spinning back to a normal pace, where I don’t feel the


Earth and the Stars, and I don’t feel Avery’s intense energy relaxing me into


a vegetative state, and when I don’t get weird voices in my head, I actually


get to feeling quite content in it all. My life feels normal and my mind is so

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quick to tell me that it was some weird creative fantasy that never existed all


along. I know better, my heart knows better, and my memories know


better, but I can’t deny life becomes so much easier this way. I can go to

work and put my nose to the grindstone, I can come home and focus on my


family, I can go to bed at night with the passion to get up and do it all over


again. I can’t say that I necessary dislike work, I don’t agree with the


working world, but it creates a goal for me that I’m used to. I’m used to life


today, and who isn’t? And who doesn’t find anything but life today normal

and what makes sense? But in saying all of this, on the same token, I can’t


deny that I find this other world very, very fascinating. And when it comes


back to me in intense waves of undeniable energy and when I get called to


do something absolutely weird and extraordinary at the same time,


it makes me feel like I’m a part of something grander and it helps me to see

the reality we live in is completely and utterly false.





I can’t deny that Avery’s energy is entirely addictive, when it is in full force


and I can feel it passing through my heart. It is as if his heart and my heart


are beating exactly the same. Yes, I know, it sounds stupid, but it’s true; I


can feel his heart actually beating in my chest and for a moment I feel like


we are identical persons, I can sense his form as like a shadow over mine; in

this shadow I can see his eyes and his smile and his amazing energy is felt




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throughout my body and in the same turn he senses the same in me. We


both connect in our hearts and with our minds creating worlds that we can


share together. But regardless of the Avery situation, the hardest part

about all of this, it’s much easier to live in the real world when the ‘other’


stuff isn’t present, but the ‘other’ stuff is becoming present more and more


often which can be extremely distracting to a point that it makes it very


difficult to be fully present in what I’m trying to accomplish in my real world


life and then makes me wonder what it is that I am supposed to be

accomplishing?





Anyway, that’s the story of today and my experience with the week, just


feeling one day normal and as though everything is what I remember most


about life, it just being normal; and then it turning again and being full of


intense Earth energy, spirit energy, and Avery energy. These energy shifts

are like ocean waves, they come and go and sometimes they go for a few


weeks, but mostly they go for maybe two days and then come back. My


conclusions with this are that it must have something to do with astrology


and something to do with me. That’s the best I can share for now.












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LOVE IN LIGHT AND DARKNESS





POSTED ON SEPTEMBER 29, 2013 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL




Love is an electric energy; I can see it like pink lightning bolts. Sometimes


it’s different; sometimes it has a soft pink glow. Love lives unseen but it

exists in all things. It is the very matter that is you and I. It is our bodies


and our souls. It is light and even dark. It exists in everything. There is


nothing in existence, seen or unseen, that does not possess love. Love is


what builds and creates all things, good things and bad things. What is a


hurricane over a beautiful rainbow? There is destruction and beauty found

in all things and it is the nature and law of the universe. Sometimes these


destructive energies become condensed into actual forms and expressions of


the universe; forms that want to take and destroy; physical forms and spirit


forms. My form is the expression of light energy and what feeds my soul is

not the destructive side of creation but the creative side. With every lifetime,


my soul becomes more condensed and radiates even more powerfully the


expression of purest and ultimate love. This is what empowers my soul to


remain present in the physical plane; to experience love in all of its


expressions, even the dark expressions of love. It may be very difficult to


understand, and even my own mind tries to reprimand me for saying such

things, that dark things could be things of love. The dark can feel very


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condensed in the death and destructive side of matter, but we need both


dark and light to survive and exist. Only those who can comprehend love to


its fullest can understand this, and despite my own mind trying to tell me

otherwise, my heart is connected to a very wise and ancient energy that


knows the truth, full and well.



















































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THE GREYS: HOW I FOUGHT


BACK AND WON





POSTED ON SEPTEMBER 29, 2013 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL



** This is a past lifetime that Anthony (www.readingsbyanthony.com)


provided me, but I lost the copy entirely, and can only relay the information

now from my memory, and in my own words. I feel especially compelled to


share this lost lifetime because the information contained within it is so


important. It certainly shares a strategy for how to get rid of the Greys, but


it also shares something more than that, a secret about our human


emotions and what we humans are truly capable of in the universe.**




In this lifetime, my family lived in a stone home that was passed down


through many generations. After I married, my husband and I raised our


children in this very same home. Nothing was amiss, except in the


mornings, when I would wake with faint recollections that someone was in


the home at night, doing things to myself and our children. I would discuss


it with my husband, but he would not understand. He was also not a part

of what happened at night, which made even more sense that he would not


understand. It began to get so bad, these faint memories of being


experimented on like a lab rat, that I demanded that we leave the home and


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move elsewhere. Obviously, that was out of the question, since the home


was passed down for many generations. I felt defeated.





A night comes, no different than most nights with the Greys. I am frozen

still, the same as they freeze all humans they abduct and experiment on. I


watch as a long instrument is stuck up my daughter’s nose. There was


nothing I could do to stop this nightmare, I was paralyzed. When all was


done, my memories were erased. You’d think the story would be over, but


the next day, I noticed my daughter had a horrible nose-bleed. For some


reason, this triggered enough memory of the previous night that I mentally

snapped.





From that point forward, I no longer felt defeated. I felt consumed by a


surge of rage that enveloped my body. I became filled with this


unimaginable hatred, and I wanted nothing more than to share it with these


unwelcome outsiders. I unleashed every terrifying thought I could imagine,

and I did this every night before bed and every morning I woke up, and even


throughout the day. I started envisioning their world filled with dark and


twisted chaos. I started protecting my home and children with my energy of


hatred toward them, and I never let it stop flowing. This dark energy I


shared with the Greys forced them to leave and never come back. And that



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is my memory of this lost lifetime.





** All that being said, I don’t think many of us realize how intense our


emotions can be, or even how disturbing they can be for other species. If

our purest expressions of anger and hatred are enough to rid ourselves of


the Greys, what exactly does that mean for us, since these are the same


emotions we are often using on each other?





We have to remember, our emotions, although invisible, are alive and


thriving, and they don’t just travel from person to person, they travel


throughout the entire universe. Emotions create inspirations that manifest

themselves into reality. They are powerful beyond our current


recognition. If we can harness our purest expressions of love, just think


what we can do for each other, for this planet, and for the universe.


I know this lifetime is about getting rid of the Greys, but it is more than that


to me. It is about reminding humanity of our power and control in the


universe, and all of this comes from the simple expression of our

emotions.**













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AVERY THE ANGEL AND THE


HUMAN ZOMBIE





POSTED ON SEPTEMBER 30, 2013 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL




Avery visited me early this morning, he’s the alien I know, check out my

other Avery posts for more background story. He seems to watch me while I


sleep at night and I wonder if he ever sleeps. I can tell he watches me, I can


sense it, I’m almost certain he can even watch my dreams, and each time I


wake up in the night, he greets me with his energy. It’s like waves of


relaxing sunshine and I can see an outline of him, like he was sitting there


watching me all night long. It is very strange to think about, I can’t imagine

never sleeping, but I often wonder if he does sleep?





He visited me last night while I was getting out of the shower and yes, I can


find this very irritating because I hate being naked in front of him, however,


his response toward nudity is on a completely different level than mine so I

really need to get over it already. But moving on, I was so busy all day


yesterday that my time in the bathroom was really all he had to get my


attention. He literally was just happy to catch me at a moment where he


could get me to notice him, where he could get me to respond to him.


Unfortunately, it was a little too much for me. It was as if his shadow came

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out of the wallpaper and I felt him before me like a tall statue, watching me


get dressed. I was so overwhelmed by his energy and his presence, I just


wanted to cry and cower under a rock; his presence can make me feel

extremely shy and even ashamed of myself. Avery watches me all day and


all night it seems, but only sometimes does he come so far forward from the


background that it’s as if he is standing right before me, here on Earth and


not on a distant planet; I can almost see him.





I was remembering this when I woke up this morning and since I was so


relaxed and calm, I asked if he could become more present to me so that I

could practice not feeling so overwhelmed by his energy and naturally he


did, and what I felt was like the equivalent of a blinding light, piercing utter


darkness. But not just light, energy, and the sensation of it was like such


ultimate love, if I were standing, I would instantly fall to the ground and be

unable to rise. It was like rays of radiating light and intense love and I could


feel it in my heart and all around me. When his energy hit me, I not only


felt something extraordinary, I also realized something about our species in


comparison to other species in the universe. I realized for the first time how


dark our world is. We don’t notice because we are so used to it, but other


species in the universe feel a completely alternate experience which is so

high up in vibration, it would be like standing before an angel, but not an




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angel, a real live person; a soul inhabiting a body that is absolutely


sensational. It would be like the equivalent of me being a zombie coming


out of a grave deep inside of the Earth and he, inhabited a body that floats

in the sky and is like the power of the universe radiating forth in tsunami


size waves of energy. That is the difference between Avery and I; that is the


difference between our species and another species in the universe.





I can’t deny that I was shocked and amazed by this, and I could tell it was


not even close to a full-strength introduction. I’m almost convinced I could


never stand in his presence because I literally could never stand in his

presence. I would be on the ground in tears, it is that powerful. Because of


this, I often wonder if that is why he will not walk through the air and


appear before me because I literally couldn’t handle it. Even practicing


sensing his presence more fully this morning, it became very clear what

kind obstacle I am up against if I am ever to see him with my open eyes.





















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THE TRUTH ABOUT ALIENS AND


OUR HUMAN AWAKENING IN THE


UNIVERSE





POSTED ON NOVEMBER 16, 2013 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL



I don’t mean to be an asshole here, but I’m getting sick of the old humdrum


thought that we have to rely on science to prove everything. Just because

science can measure the distance of the universe and give us a hypothesis


on how far until the next planet that might have alien life, that doesn’t mean


aliens can’t travel a trillion light years in the blink of an eye. It doesn’t mean


that they aren’t living on some other dimension on a different time spectrum

over on Mars. Just because we haven’t ‘seen’ them doesn’t mean they aren’t


here already. And then this topic on radio waves comes up. Just because


we’ve been told by the government that no aliens have responded to our


radio waves, doesn’t mean that aliens haven’t responded. Oh, and that


chuckle in the background, really, radio waves? This is the most pathetic


thing I’ve ever heard. Aliens can sense us a trillion light years away,

because there is no such thing as distance. It is an illusion of the


mind. Our energy is connected with energy particles that are alive and


communicate with all things in the universe, they are the universe and


these particles are us and they are all around us and there is no distance


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that separates my body from a body on the other side of the universe, we


are all connected. You don’t need radio waves and you don’t have to travel


the distance of the universe to speak with an alien, all you have to do is

send your energy out and you can have a conversation with any alien you


want and all in the comforts of your own home. The sooner we can bend


our minds and see that there is far more to what we understand as truth,


the sooner we can become truly profound beings once more.





I know I talk about this all the time, human beings being profound beings,


and obviously I have a super goal to help human beings remember that we

are truly remarkable creatures; there is nothing more I want to do in my life


than to help bring the memory to surface, to help us rebuild what we have


forgotten, to help us let go of the old and embrace the new. I still, to this


day, and it hasn’t changed or altered since I was a child, I still to this day

believe we human beings were once perfect on this planet. In a perfect


form, elegant, beautiful, love emanating, perfect heart beating form. And we


used to heal the universe. Our hearts are the heartbeat of the universe, our


Earth is the heartbeat of the universe, all living things are the heartbeat of


the universe, and we are creating illness in the universe by the way our


hearts beat today. We are all miserable, this is affecting the universe in an

adverse way, we are preventing the expansion of the universe because of the




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energy we emit, which is slow and it is low and it is like a cancer, and damn


it, those aliens out there a trillion miles away can feel it. And guess what,


this energy, this disgusting monster sucking in energy, is what brings the

freaks of the universe to our galaxy. They love us. And don’t think for a


minute that they aren’t here, because, yes they are. The freaks of the


universe are here right this minute and they come in many different forms,


visible and invisible. They abduct us, torcher us, they are so amazing in


their capacity that they are able to manipulate time and harness an energy

field to keeps our minds locked in this drone form. The mind that my heart


is in battle with all the time, yes, this mind that wants to be like everybody


else is connected with this energy field that keeps love and information away


from me. My heart is the only force that keeps me connected with the truth


which is why it’s so important for us to learn how to connect with the

information our hearts provide and don’t ever, EVER, listen to that mind of


yours. It’s a big fat liar. And here you go, the battle I deal with between my


drone mind and my infinite heart.





So what does all of this mean? There are so many things that this means, it


means let’s wake up already. That’s the hard part, and don’t think for a


minute that we aren’t all struggling with this. We are all struggling to wake

up, even those that are sleeping and don’t want to wake up, their forms are




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connecting with a changing energy shift on this planet and it’s the alarm


clock going off. You can hit snooze all you want, but it’s changing you


without you even knowing it. So yes, I am a believer that the ‘time’ is here

and now. It was ever meant to be here, and it was meant to be here a billion


years ago. All things are functioning simultaneously like infinite shifting


gears; it could only have ended up this way. But then you get into those


side notes and start talking about about time portals and uncharacteristic


decision making and suddenly there is an alternate way; I don’t know how

this works exactly but it happens, but either way, I do believe we are always


in the right time and place, even if there is still always that alternate reality


which is also the right time and place.





Regardless, here we are, exactly where we are meant to be which was the


most predictable place based on the information waves of the

universe. When you calculate our rotation in the universe, and our


connection with other planets and stars and, yes I’m getting into astrology,


all of these things affect us and change us and alter our emotions and even


effect the course of meteors, all things are moving together, remember, so


based on this information we are exactly where we were ever meant to be in


the universe. Unfortunately, past present and future are all simultaneously

moving so really we have never changed between yesterday and today, we




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have always only ever been in the same place at the same time. I don’t


know what this means because my human brain can’t understand it, but


this also is true.




But back to what I was saying about the right ‘time’ and our ‘awakening’


because I keep getting off topic. I don’t know about you, but I’ve noticed a


change in my perception of ‘time.’ I used to just live every day and go with


the flow and ‘I have this scheduled here’ and ‘damn this happened’ and ‘I


want to go do this tonight,’ it was just a normal way of processing life, but


something has changed in our atmosphere, in our universe. Suddenly time

has become a concept of moon cycles. It’s freaking weird but I live by moon


cycles now and I notice my experience of the world around me is shifting


each moon cycle. I don’t know what I will be like next. Some moon cycles I


feel super mentally low and struggle through every day, some moon cycles I

feel unimaginably exhausted, in ways I’ve never felt before, even when I was


at the end of pregnancy with my third child, and exhausted all the time, this


exhausted sensation is something similar to this and even worse because


it’s unexplainable. I’m 30 freaking years old, I shouldn’t feel like I’m a 90


year old with a walker. I’m someone who has super energy and I don’t need


a lot of sleep, but some moon cycles, it’s like I can’t wake up. I’m sure

you’ve noticed. Some moon cycles I’m really productive and it feels great




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and then the next moon cycle I hit a brick wall and wonder what the hell


happened. You have to have noticed this experience of ‘time’ has


changed. This is a sign that we are all moving toward a new direction, a

new epoch for humanity.





Anyway, It’s refreshing to know that the freaks of the universe won’t last


forever, and that our enslavement to their master minding is on the brink of


an end. The natural part about being a human being is starting to surface


and we still start to see the energy of love start to take over. It heals all


things, love does. It takes our spinning eyes and mindlessness away and it

raises our vibrations so we can remember again, and be the healers of the


universe again. These memories are coming back to us and we will reclaim


our previous glory once more. And damn it, if it doesn’t happen in this


lifetime, at least I can say my soul did everything it could to pave a way for

my future human self because I want to live in a better Earth world, and


you better believe my soul will be coming back. My soul is engrained here


in this planet, my soul is like a keeper of the planet. I will always be here,


like a watcher, a helper, a healer. That’s what my soul is up to here on


Earth.










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So this is what I wanted to share this morning, love it, hate it, share it, never


visit my website again, whatever you want. But I hope something I said will


stay with you like an echo, and if anything I say stays with you, I hope it will

be that loud, shouting, demanding voice reminding you that we are all in


this together, we are all on the low end right now, but there is a better way


out there and we are waking up to it, and the sooner we can start building,


sharing, remembering love, the faster we can speed up our ascension


process. The faster we can become that healing heartbeat of the universe

again and share our world with the most beautiful, love emanating beings


and rid ourselves of the freaks who don’t belong here anymore.


































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AN INTRODUCTION TO MYSELF:


WHO IS ABBEY NORMAL?





POSTED ON NOVEMBER 24, 2013 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL



Okay, I’m going to attempt to share something normal and true about my


life. I don’t feel like I am very good at telling anybody about the real

me. Obviously the real me can be like everybody else and can most


definitely be unlike most everybody else. But I guess the point of my site is


about sharing myself, my ideas, and my experiences. The point of all of this


is we all have something to share and we can all learn from each


other. That’s also why learning and sharing my past lifetimes is so

important to me, it’s sharing the wisdom and stories of the past for us to all


learn and grow from in the present. So, I think it’s time I shared some true


history about my past.





So, let’s see here. I’m 30 years old, and in a nut shell, I’ve lived an extremely


lonely life. Every moment and memory seems to be a difficult challenge of


dealing with people not relating to me and me not relating to people; I’ve

basically felt alone forever and at the most difficult moments I’ve had to find


some way to deal with it by myself. That’s a long time of dealing with an


Earth lifetime alone; trust me, we all need each other and we all need to


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