FLIPBOOK GEEC 1052 BM 1

GEEC 1052

DR. AHMAD SABRY BIN OTHMAN



BIODATA

NAMA:AFIQ DANIEL BIN AMMAR
NO. KAD PENGENALAN: 021016031163
KUMPULAN UNIT:PPISMP SEMESTER 1
KURSUS/SEMESTER:PPISMP SEMESTER 1
ALAMAT E-MEL:[email protected]
ALAMAT RUMAH:LOT 761 LORONG DATUK,JELAWAT BACHOK 16070 KELANTAN
NO. TELEFON:013-6641780

My camping

By:Afiq Daniel Bin Ammar

A lot of my life has been changed when i started joined a camping. It’s start when my
secondary school was held a camping program on school level. On that time I was in form 1
and it’s be my first camping activities in whole my life. From that I realized that I have a big
passion with camping activities. The feeling come after I was in a camping and do many
activites that give me a lot of benefits.

First benefits I get on the activities is I was be more independent then before. It
because when I was in camping I need to make all things myself. Before this at home my
mother always do for me but at camping I can hope my mother to come and make me some
food or getting ready my clothes after I have a bath. I was make all the task on myself and
manage my own life. That was make me fell more better than before because I can make all
that thing myself and learn myself to not hopping for my mother left after the camping. It was
very amazing for me and make my life changed slowly.

Secondly, I realize that in camping I learn how to be more responsible in duty. I was
learn it on my camping I was selected to be a tent keeper on late night. I and few other
students was involved on the duty. We need to make a short schedule for divide times on
late night to make a duty. I still remember that my session is usually on 2 a.m to 4 a.m that
was a challenging time for me when I always get used to sleep early. But because the duty I
need to stay up even it hard for me for first time. I was make my duty well with few friends
who was same duty hours with me. We was make a patrol on around a male tent and
outside of the female tent because I was prohibited from entry a female area. Even the duty
very not well for me but I still happy because I can learn to be more responsible with my
duty.

Thirdly, on camping I was learn to encourange my brave. This because on the
camping I need to face very lot of adventures activities like night walk and owl activites. This
two activites was the main causes my brave increase on the camping. It because when the
activites going on i and other participal have a own role on the activites. When the night walk
activites I need to hold a egg and I cant let anything be on the egg. When we have a night
walk we was thourge a way side on a graveyard. The activites was held on 10 p.m above
and make the situation feel more scary but I need to prevent the feeling because I need to
take my role wisely. On owl activites we was woken up from sleep by the our camping coach
and we need to close our eyes with a blindfold and we was spearted out to a few group and

coach bring each group to few section. We need to walk even we cant see anything and
some coach assistant intimidating me and my group with way make a scary noise sound.
After that we was spreated one by one and then we was placed on different spot and the
coach assistant was repeat the intimidating. From the activities I was learn to be more
breave even in any situation and in any threat.

Fourthly, I was learn how to be a great leader. On the camping I get more new
knowledge concerned be a great leader. I got the leadership spirit when I was appointed to
be a groups leader for my uniform when the camp when I was 17 years old or on form 5. I
was learn when I need to manage a lot of things about my uniform started lead a pitch a tent
session to be a leader on mearching group of my uniform. When the camp held any
competition I need to pick a few member of my uniform to join the competition like
emergency bonding contest and mearching match. I was be a great leader from the
experience because I can settle my task greatly and successful. From that I was learn to be
a best leader and independent leader when I get that task.

The conclusion is I have learn a lot of thing when I joined a camping activities. I was
be more independent, brave, stronger and high of leadership. I was very love a camping
even until now I still involved myself to make a private camping or be a coach for the school
camping with my friends.



STUDENT BIODATA

NAME : DANIAL HAIKAL BIN ABDUL AZIZ
ID NO. : 040102-03-0013
EMAIL : [email protected]
PHONE NO. : 01131873249
PROGRAM : PPISMP
COURSE : BAHASA MELAYU
DATE OF BIRTH : 2 JANUARY 2004
GURDIAN’S NAME : ABDUL AZIZ BIN RAZAK
GURDIAN’S PHONE NO. : 0145487102
ADDRESS : LOT 2836 KG JENEREH TUJUH TO UBAN 17050
PASIR MAS KELANTAN

Failure: Lead You to Success

by Danial Haikal

Failure is a path that can lead to a breakthrough. We all know that failure is defined as a lack
of success or the inability to meet an expectation. But we must remember that everyone will
have a failed test in life because failure is a process in life. Failure is the inevitable decision.
So, the individual himself needs to determine whether he wants to be a person who chooses
to fail and learn from their mistakes to develop ideas, thoughts, and personality traits or be
one of those people who avoids failures to develop a fear of them and live a life of failure in
the pursuit of knowledge. Failing is giving yourself the opportunity to learn. So many people
have successfully grasped an understanding of the term and have used it to develop their
thinking. This will work for anyone who is able to overcome failures in life and rise to success.

There are different types of failure faced by an individual, regardless of age or rank. Every
person has their own failure in their life, but we can see who will be the winner between the
failure and their efforts to succeed. I like to use the term "a fighter" to refer to people who show
their fighting spirit and hard work in life. We can also see if you are a fighter or not because a
fighter will overcome their failure and learn from it to make sure they don’t fail again and again.
As a fighter, we can’t lose with a self-inflicted failure. It’s because we can control ourselves to
comeback from failure. Yes, we can’t eliminate this situation in our lives, but we can make this
become our motivation to go forward and get what we want.

As common knowledge knows, there are four types of failure, which are abject failure,
glorious failure, common failure, and predicted failure. The first type is abject failure. I can say
this is the most personally difficult one. Why? It’s because this is the type of failure that
happens when people lose something that feels essential to them. The second type is glorious
failure. This is the type of failure where you give something your all, but you fail in an epic
blaze of glory. The third type is common failure. This is our average everyday failure, and
since none of us are perfect, you will experience it, and you will experience it again. The fourth
type is predicted failure. This is the kind of failure we can count on. We can see if it works well
or if there are bugs. Based on the above types of failures, we can identify which ones are
common to us and which ones are rare to us.

Frankly, I’m also one of those who has felt failure in life. I'd like to share some stories of
failure I've experienced. The failure I experienced was a failure in the exam while I was in the
UPSR exam. As a student, failure in an exam is the biggest failure. Putting high hopes on
getting excellent results left me disappointed and discouraged. That was the terribble feeling
that I felt. I don’t know what I can do or how I can deal with the people around me. The thing
I'm most afraid to face is how I'm going to tell my parents about this unsatisfactory result.

Various questions that play in my mind, Will my parents be disappointed in me? Am I going to
make my parents feel sad? Will my parents be ashamed to face the people around me
because of the results I get? All these questions hover in my mind and head so that it makes
me worried and agitated.

However, the desire and determination that I have in me has instilled in me a dream to
rise from this failure. I am confident and know that no one is capable of changing my fate
except myself. I need to come back and give more effort to get what I want. I can't take refuge
and stay behind the failures I've experienced, but I have to get out of the cocoon of that failure
and forget about it. What I need to do now is look forward and take the time to make my
parents happy with me. As a student and son, the reason why I want to succeed is that I want
my parents to be proud of my achievements. With the impressive results during SPM, now I
have got what I wanted and managed to get into Institut Pendidikan Guru Kampus Kota Bharu.
So now I realise that failure can lead me to success if I can learn to cope with it.

In a nutshell, failure is not the end of life but rather a prelude to our becoming a stronger,
more confident person and a successful person. A great person is one who is able to rise from
the failures they experience. While for students, who strives after failing is a great student, not
just pioneering with the failures experienced.



STUDENT BIODATA

NAME : MUHAMMAD AZIM HAKIMI BIN MOHD MAZDI
ID NO. : 040704030539
EMAIL : [email protected]
PHONE NO. : 0134945816
PROGRAM : PPISMP JUNE INTAKE 2022
COURSE : BAHASA MELAYU (SK)
DATE OF BIRTH : 4TH JULY 2004
GURDIAN’S NAME : MOHD MAZDI BIN CHE AMAT
GURDIAN’S PHONE NO. : 0199391440
ADDRESS : : PT 307 LORONG HAJI RAZAK BATU 8 ¼ JALAN

KUALA KRAI 16010 KOTA BHARU KELANTAN

It’s all about IDEAS.

It’s all about ideas. I am sure the that every persons have their own story, not just a
happy story, but also the sad, meaningful and memorable moments in their life. My journey
started on February 2020. I am one of the Students Representatives Council of SM Imtiaz
YT Besut (SRC IBEST) members. I had been given a task to enliven the School Speaker’s
Corner as I am the Development and Training Bureo member and also finalist of Inspirator
Ummah Competition. I was jubilant as this was my first time in life to do this job. For your
information, a Speakers' Corner is an area where open-air public speaking, debate, and
discussion are allowed. The original and best known is in the northeast corner of Hyde
Park in London, England. This is our school inisiative to educate students to had good public
speaking skills. First, I build-up my own team. We’re consist of four members, and we will
strategise how to attract people to the Speaker’s Corner. Michael Jordan once said,"Talent
wins games, but teamwork and intelligence win championships." We were clashing with too
many ideas but we managed to make it one. We started to understand each other and
accept others opinion although we were from different background.

Our speaker’s corner day was on Wednesday. The school provide us one leisure place in
front of the IBEST Counselling Interactive Centre (ICIC). We set up the place with all the
chairs and Microphone system. The speaker was ready to give the best performance and
luckily, there were many students spend their leisure time, at the Speaker’s corner. I was
surprised as I did not expect that would happen. The next Wednesday, we made an upgrade
as we spread a poster, a day before. We were hoping that the more students would come on
that day. Suprisingly, they were just two students on that day. We were not expecting that,
so we had a meeting on that day. Many issues had been speaking up by our team. As the
results, we conclude that the students just want the prolific speakers, and the best topic to
hear.We burn the midnight oil and put on our thinking caps. We had a meeting until night,
had some arguments, and try to get the advice from our seniors.

As the result, we had conclude that we need to train more good speakers in school. This
was where all the idea started. Good public speaking skills are important in other areas of
your life, as well. You might be asked to make a speech at a friend's wedding, give a eulogy
for a loved one, or inspire a group of volunteers at a charity event. Its also important for the
sake of your career. The good news is that speaking in public is a learnable skill. As such,
you can use the following strategies to become a better speaker and presenter. We were
determined to help the other students.

2 weeks then, we came out with the paperwork and start to pitch out among the SRC
members. Suprisingly, it was rejected by the High Committee as they think this is not a
realistic idea. That was my first time in my life, being rejected like that. Every cloud has a
sliver lining, We did not give up and try to prove something. We made the concept paper
again and pitch to the principal. It was about 2 hours in his room. Fist of all, he rejected our
idea because the main factors was the high demand of budget. Then, we convinced him to
trust us that we can find our own budget. Finally, he agreed and we could proceed our
academy. It was the happiest day in my life, we celebrated in and ready to work for the
students.

We manage to make our idea become one, and the speaker’s academy will be impactful to
the nation. It was the starter of my misson. Until now, we were produced about 100 prolific
speakers at the school. It was not easy, but I learned how to be a good transformational
leader that can give something to out team. It was all about ideas, too many ideas is not
good until someone can balanced it. We will do the best for the nation, through education.
Nelson Mandela once said” Education is the most powerful weapon you can use to change
the world,”. From my story above, It is rightly said that ‘Experience is the best teacher.
Perhaps, Experience teaches a lot more things including pain. Life gives you many
experiences and certain experiences in your life can impact you a lot. Trust yourself. You
know more than you think you do.” said Dr. Benjamin Spock. That was the experience that
changed my life forever. “



STUDENT BIODATA

NAME : MUHAMMAD FARIS HAZWAN BIN RIDHAUDDIN
ID NO. : 041207-03-0559
EMAIL : [email protected]
PHONE NO. : 016-4943780
PROGRAM : PPISMP JUNE INTAKE 2022
COURSE : BAHASA MELAYU (SK)
DATE OF BIRTH : 7th DECEMBER 2004
GURDIAN’S NAME : RIDHAUDDIN BIN MOHAMED
GURDIAN’S PHONE NO. : 010-5765130
ADDRESS : LOT 1531, KG PARIT LIMBAT, 16150, KOTA BHARU,
KELANTAN

Motivation: Achievement in life

I am amazed to see the achievements and success of people, let alone friends or
even students. Everyone has different achievements. They are on their own destiny in life.
As people say, success is supported by ability and luck. When I witness the success of
others, it often makes me measure myself. Recognizing abilities, comunication skills,
calculating opportunities and predicting challenges at the same time. Until it comes to a
choice, moved to start or let the opportunity pass.

I realized, to achieve success is not easy. Success is the fruit of sincerity and
sacrifice. Therefore, whatever the form of one's success should be appreciated. God willing,
giving appreciation will not harm anyone. Light and easy to appreciate will be an inspiration
for me to step towards my achievements, I was sure in my heart. Will it be proof by myself?

Based on my experience, I realized, to achieve success is not easy. I was a less
intelligent student before since form 1 until form 5. Success in academic requires a lot of
sacrifices regardless my time, energy and money. Till spm was almost close, I used all my
strength to push myself to study hard. Thank God because with all the sacrifices I made, I
finally succeeded in excelling in the SPM exam.

With self-accomplishment can be a source of motivation for me. Pride makes me try
harder to achieve success. Achieve something will make me pride with my hardwork. Then,
self-confidence will continue to emerge in my mind. Pride will also make me practice a sense
of satisfaction with what I have achieved, whether big or small. Often small achievements
make a little less heartless. In fact, a little progress in achievement, I should still be grateful
and proud. For example, I have to be proud when my weakest subject, which is history, has
improved from grade E in mid year exam to grade C in trial SPM.

Dear reader, every successful things in your life starts from something small and
actually the small things are high value for your progress. As the saying goes, 'a little bit
becomes a hill'. The higher the skill and achievement, the higher the level of pride. In life
failure has a negative connotation, but what most people don't know, is that defeats are
actually the steppingstones that lead us to success. Many of us try to evade failure but in
fact, "we learn from failure, not from success." Day by day in life, many lessons have been
learnt through failure.

Nobody succeeds on the first try, we take our mistakes and we learn from them.
Mistakes are the things that help us strive for greatness, which is why our failure should not
be viewed as something negative, but more as something we can use to attain we want in
life. Failure is something that reaches all horizons. Weather you're an athlete, an innovator
or just a normal person. All of us at one point or another have been faced with difficulties.
Today I think we all learned a very valuable lesson. That fact is nobody likes failing but there
are things that can be learned through failure. Sometimes the only way to succeed is
through failure. Which is why we can't just give up after we fail the first attempt, we have to

take what we learned and use them to achieve our goals. Success is great but it would be
impossible without failure, which is why we learn from failure, not from success.

Time and experience have proved to be the best teachers they can be. Every wrong
or bad decision we take has a life lesson that we learn. Time is a way of telling how far you
have come. Experience is a way of telling how strong you have become. We need to learn
from the mistakes that we make. In this wake we make a stronger version of ourselves that
later becomes indestructible. Only from a proper experience phase of your life you learn how
to judge anything and everything in an unbiased manner. A fraction of us have to fall a
couple of times on the same stone before they learn that particular lesson. Knowledge is
wisdom. Knowledge is everything. The knowledge you have helps you to make a good or a
bad judgement of the current situations.

Lastly, with every new fall, you learn something new. If you are not ready to let
yourself fall, then you cannot teach yourself anything new. If you do not do that, you will
continue to have bad experiences and it becomes a loop from which you can never get out.
This leads to denial, losing self confidence and blaming others for your experiences. You
enter into that stage of your life where you focus only on the negative impacts happening to
you. Learning from your mistakes is not easy. Nobody said it was simple. But once you do,
you can trust yourself. You believe that you have the power to do anything.



STUDENT BIODATA

NAME : MUHAMMD FIRDAUS BIN MOHD FAUZI
ID NO. : 040923030623
EMAIL : [email protected]
PHONE NO. : 01112921593
PROGRAM : PPISMP JUNE INTAKE 2022
COURSE : BAHASA MELAYU (SK)
DATE OF BIRTH : 13th September 2004
GURDIAN’S NAME : MOHD FAUZI BIN MAT DAUD
GURDIAN’S PHONE NO. : 01110101759
ADDRESS : LOT 1759, KAMPUNG BADAK MATI, 16030, KOTA
BHARU, KELANTAN

Light in My Shadow

In life, challenges are inevitable. Doesn’t matter which race you came from, nor
how wealthy you are, there’ll be times where the world decides to turn its back over
you. However, miracles do exist. How, when and where it will occur can only be
determined as times pass through. I too, had the pleasure of experiencing such
blessing. Till this day, I’m glad that the chance was presented to me during my
desperate attempt to end it all, as cowardly way to escape from my problems.

The heavy rain pours down the city of Estan. Small droplets drop to the floor,
combines with other fallen droplets until it eventually forms a small puddle. The sound
of the footsteps of the citizen making contact with the wet tiles enters my eardrums as
I walked through the sidewalk. I let out a heavy sigh. The atmosphere worsens my
already joke of a day. My company forced a ton of workload ever since I’ve been
working there for four years.

“This is pointless,” I said as I slapped my cheeks with both of my cold hands to
keep myself together. “Let’s just go to a restaurant, get some food and sleep,” Manager
Harpy is not going to be happy if I got to work late tomorrow. Just as I managed to
arrive at the said restaurant, a low whimper caught my attention.

“Seems like it came from here,” curious, I took a deep breath, abandoning my
previous objective and walked inside the dark alleyway. The thought of flashlight
passed my mind but with limited information of the current situation, it would be the
best course of action to depend on my heightened sights. My silenced footsteps
eventually lead me to a horrific sight.

In front of me, a boy, not more than the age of 10 was laying on the ground with
his hand wrapped around his legs, curling up into a ball while three nasty-looking
teenagers kept throwing punches and kicks here and there to their heart’s content.
With anger filling up my body, I dashed forward to the group with my teeth gritting and
my clenched fist as I swift blow landed on one of the members.

The sudden ambushed trampled over their act of bravado. With their tails
tucked behind they fled the scene, leaving me and the injured boy alone. I examined
his injuries and decided it would be the best to bring him home. The long distance of

the hospital will only worsen his condition, might as well treat his injuries back home.
I wrapped my jacket over his shuddering body and dashed my way to my apartment
located not that far from my current destination.

Back home, I treated his injuries as much as I could. With a decent amount of
supply, he would only need to rest for a while before he could be active again.
However, it didn’t take long before the kid woke up from his sleep. As soon as he saw
me, he scurried away with his broken leg, inevitably led to him falling down the couch
while grunting in pain.

“You’re injured,” I said as I placed him back on the couch. “I’m not going to hurt
you,” he was reluctant to trust me at first, but eventually he caved in after I gave him
a warm meal that I ordered moments before. Shortly after, the kid, known as Ariel, told
me his story. From how he was abandoned by his parents, leading him to be homeless
since he was eight years old. Unbeknownst to me, this was the turning point of my
whole life.

Since then, he started living with me. Being a diligent kid he is, he started doing
the chores around the house while I was at the office working. I told him to let me do
all the work, but he insisted as way to return the favor for all the things that I’d done
for him. However, he suffered severe anxiety and panic attacks especially at night and
whenever I got late at home to which I decided it would be the best to change job. At
that time, it was a bit strange of me to go out of my way just for one kid. Not that I’m a
good guy nor have someone ever praised me for anything. With Ariel, he gives
somewhat a kind aura that soothes those around him. Now, it has been four years
since he’s been living with me.

Before this, I lost motivation to work efficiently but now, I knew someone was
waiting for my arrival at home. Thus, my efficiency had increased. After Ariel arrived
in my life, everything changed. He really was, indeed, a blessing in disguise. The kid
brought colors and meaning to my life as I finally have a reason to keep going and I
swore on my life, to protect him till my last breath. Meeting him was not just a fated
encounter, but that was the experience that changed my life forever.



UNTOLD STORY: FROM RAG TO SUPERSTAR

BY NIK SYAMSUDDIN BIN NIK MOHAMAD

Do you ever listen to a story about a successful person in their life? Your answer is yes,
right? But do you know how they can succeed? Do you know how many obstacles they face
in being a wonderful person? Let me tell you a story about a successful singer in our era. She
is stronger than iron, hotter than fire and more powerful than Captain America. She begins her
life in a slum and ends up in a religious house.She started her life as a poor person, but now
she is a superstar. Let’s read about her story in more detail.

Mariah is my name.I'm a homeless person. My birth in a poor family makes my life more
independent. I’m the first child of four sons. My father worked as a restaurant assistant and
my mother was a housewife. Life with many siblings in a rag family was not easy. Every day
we need to eat alternately because our parents can’t support the feeding cost because my
father's salary is just 400 dollars a month. Sometimes at the end of the month, we go hungry
until my father gets his salary.

One day, my father got involved in an accident. He was hit by a truck and, unfortunately,
he died immediately. My family was so sad, especially my mom. She lost half of her life. One
day, my mom told me, "Mariah, I don’t think I can survive myself taking care of everything. So,
I want to leave your brother and sister at the welfare center. "I think this is the best way for
their future and for mine, even if it appears that I hate them," mom said through tears.I can
also suppress my emotions.I hugged my mom and cried like a newborn baby. I was told by
my mom that I did not agree with her decision. "Even though we are poor, we can’t leave them
like that. I will help you. Don’t worry. I need to sacrifice and I think I want to stop studying
because I want to help our family, "I said that to my mom. My mom just agreed with my opinion
and hugged me tightly. "Thank you, darling," she whispered to me.

After a day looking for a job, I got a job at a restaurant as a dish washer in the morning.
A wage of 10 dollars a day is not enough. So, I do multiple jobs, like being a grasscutter in the
evening and becoming a housekeeper from home to home in the night but I still can’t support
my family because I have a house payment to make and a school fees for my brother and
sister. Every night before I sleep, I always think about how to increase my income.

One day, I saw a group of buskers on the side of the road. I have gone and asked them
to sing. They gave me permission and said that I would pay eight dollars for one song. I was

like on cloud nine. When I started singing, many people gathered in front of me. They were
stunned, their jaws dropping. So many people were recorded when I sang. After I finished
performing a song, they gave me a big clap. They were flattered and fascinated by my voice.
I was touched by their cheers. Suddenly, one of the audience came to me. He wanted to recruit
me to be a singer at his company. I was surprised. Apparently, he was the CEO of a famous
music company in this country. He said that he was amazed by my voice. "Your voice is like
an angel",he said. Without thinking too much, I accepted his offer.

After signing an agreement, I am officially a singer at Big Hug Entertainment. The person
who offered me was Mr. James, and he was so kind. I also got a quiet deposit as a new star.
Suddenly, his assistant came to himself. She said my busking performance on the side road
got the number one trending on social media. The video spread very fast and I was shocked.
Mr. James was so happy.

After my video got trending, I got so many interviews. My name is rising and people are
talking about me everywhere. A month later, I recorded a song called "Life". This song was
about my journey in life, and I collaborated with other song-writers to write the lyrics. The lyrics
were so meaningful. Honestly, I cried when I wrote these lyrics because they are about my
father, who passed away, and my wretched life.

After my song was released, it started booming. I get 10 million viewers a day on
YouTube and 4 million listeners on Spotify and Joox. I was shocked because it was beyond
my expectations! I got so much feedback from listeners. They said that my story is almost the
same as theirs, which is losing their father. They also called me an iron woman. After that, I
got so many invitations to sing. I always give my best when I deliver that song. The audience
also cried when they listened because they said that they could feel the soul in my singing.

Even if I become a popular singer, I will never forget about my family. I bought them a
new penthouse in the middle of the city and sent my brother and sister to a private school to
get a better education. I also take them to travel abroad, such as Italy, France, and Asia. They
were very proud and happy with my achievement. I don’t want my brother and sister to
experience hardship like I did and want them to live happily ever after.

After 5 years of becoming a singer and releasing so many songs, I received the greatest
recognition in singing and it was a dream for all singers in this world. I won a Grammy Award
in the Best New Artist and Song of the Year categories ! I was so happy and excited to create
more "killer songs" for my fans and world.

I am still active in singing and have done many tour concerts around the world. I also
opened a welfare centre to help homeless people. I want to create a great world and a new
life for them because I have felt the suffering of being poor and it hurts, but right now, I’m
smiling while looking at my trophies in some glass cabinets. That was the experience that
changed my life forever.



STUDENT PROFILE
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NAME : ADDINA NUHA BINTI KHAIRUL ANUAR
ID NO. : 041004-13-1122
EMAIL : [email protected]
PHONE NO. : 011-11915065
PROGRAM : PPISMP JUNE 2022
COURSE : BM 1
DATE OF BIRTH : 4TH OF OCTOBER 2022
GURDIAN’S NAME : KHAIRUL ANUAR BIN MOHD SAMAN @ SAMAN
GURDIAN’S PHONE NO. : 019-3504078
ADDRESS : LOT 2018, KAMPUNG GONG KEDONDONG, TOK HAS,
22000, JERTEH, BESUT, TERENGGANU

I LOST A FRIEND
By : Addina Nuha binti Khairul Anuar

If I would be ask to describe my high school year, I would say a life-changing phase. In high
school, I rarely make and keep friends. Even one can’t stand with me for a long time, I might say
one month is the longest time I kept a friend. I think it’s me who can’t carry the friendship well as
I’ve been known as an introvert freak. It is very hard for me to elaborate the conversation as I have
nothing to say. I rarely share my hobbies, my interest and even my birthday to other because I
have a thought that they couldn’t care less. I guess I just afraid to try finding friends, and knowing
myself. If my life could be put in words, it’s like watching paint dry. My life just like deflated
balloons, look lifeless; like how they would see me.

Sometimes, I feel like want to have friends too. I want to talk to someone about my days, I
want someone to come along with me to the canteen and I want human to hang around with, not
my books. If I ever had problems, I can complain to no one, I mean yes I have parents and family,
but they aren’t like friends. Alternatively, I keep a journal through my high school years to convey
my feelings, what and what not hurts me. Well, at least it helps me go through my old days. High
school just feel like yesterday, yesterday when I think I finally found a courage to make a first move
in finding friends.

There’s a group of friend that I really want to get close to but I was too shy to go and ask
them. Besides, they’re all very neat and pretty, and what differs me with them was my weird
appearance. Right before I canceled my plan, this one girl came to me and asked if I want to be
friend with her. I mean, I want but I am not cool as everyone, so I ran. I ran to the school loo and
entered a cubicle. Sweat literally dripped and tears flowed down my cheeks. My social anxiety hit
me right in my head and heart.

Day by day, her offer keep hovering in my head. It’s like my mind was telling me to seize
the chance and perhaps she can help me overcome my dilemma. So I decided to find her back at
school. As usual, it turns out she’s not at school the next day. While to be exact, she might be
absent. But why did I think I’m on the fence? Should I try find her tomorrow? Or I just need to
continue ‘romanticise’ my dull life? Maybe I should give her a chance.

The next day would be my second attempt to find her. My plan was I’ll wait for her in front of
her house and ask her if she want to go to school with me. I guess that is what introverts do, well I
still don’t know how to act at the time. And yes, she’s going to school with me. Happiness sparks in
my heart that time when I finally have the courage to talk to her. Now and for once, I have friends
to talk to about my days and everything much. Nevertheless, we get along for good two weeks
before the final starts, and she disappeared but she left me with a note that she passed me after
the last paper. I waited for two months during school break to meet her in front of her house again
but little did I know that was the last time I could see her face.

She’s now gone to a better place. She’s frequently absent for a reason. She fought with
depression for two years. No, she did not end her own life, but she’s passed away in sleep. But I
wondered how did she managed to keep the smile carved on her face as she’s have nothing to
face with.

The girl that just ask me on the day I nearly make my first move on getting friend, she’s the
kindest. I know that she’s been watching me over years. I think she just want to help me get a
friend yet she want to become one. Her name is Alya. Alya seems very happy everyday. She’s
beautiful, mesmerising, inspirational or in short, she’s beyond the words. If I can meet her again, I
would say that I miss you so much Alya, I didn’t get to thanked you for all your help and I still keep
the note you gave me from the high school. ‘Do something that will not hurt you in the future and
remember, it’s not me who changed you, but the one who’. Alya literally teach me how to
appreciate myself by live your life to the fullest. Alya will forever remains in my heart. That was the
experience that changed my life forever.



Student Profile

NAME: ADIBAH KHALIJA BINTI MOHD ZAKI
INDEX NUMBER: 2022082310002
UNITS: BAHASA MELAYU 1 (SK)
SEMESTER/YEAR: PPISMP SEMESTER YEAR 1
INTAKE: JUNE 2022
EMAIL ADRESS: [email protected]
HOME ADRESS: LOT 1775A, KG BECHAH MULONG,16400 PERINGAT, KOTA BHARU,
KELANTAN
NUMBER PHONE: 0179424458

THE MYSTIC
By: ADIBAH KHALIJA BINTI MOHD ZAKI

3 years ago, my friends and I decided to go hiking up a mountain. That mountain was
famous for frightening stuff. As a teenager, we felt challenged when we heard about all those
scary stories. It’s one of the most regrettable mistakes that we made. As a precaution, we agreed
to not mention the name of the mountain. As a starter, we departed early in the morning. Also,
we already discussed our duties. Sarah and I have been tasked with setting up camps because
the mountain was quite high. We met up with our navigators at the bottom of the hill. He
explained all of the important things before we hike up the mountain. He also warned us to be
close to each other all the time. He then added that we cannot keep anything we found from this
mountain and we need to mind our language during our hike. But our first mistake was we took
lightly his advice.

We started climbing at 5 a.m early in the morning. After a few hours we walk, we wanted
to have some breakfast as we felt our stomachs starve. We chose a grassland and set our
tents. After that, we prepare some meals and set a fire near the tents. Athirah prepared a
sandwich and it was delectable. Whilst, Sarah and I had to prepare the drinks. We took some
fresh plain water from a fountain nearby. All of the sudden, we saw a black figure cowering
behind some trees. Seeing it standing there, made our blood run cold. Feeling intimidated and
reckless, I yelled at the figure, “What are you doing here, huh?”. Since we were gone for a
quite long time, Athirah called for us. Just like one's tail between one's legs, we speed out of
there and went to the camp base. Feeling nonchalant, we enjoyed the dinner until our
stomachs were full like an elephant. Burp! We didn’t clean up the mess we made, instead, we
just let it sit there for as long as we know. Athirah already told us to clean up, but we shrugged
it off ignorantly. We left our camp base and moved on to the next destination.

On the way there, we enjoyed our journey. We took a whole bunch of photographs. Some
are birds, dew, and even insects. I saw a stunning white wood aster. I snap some pictures. I
wanted to pick it up but I remembered the navigator’s words not to pluck flowers out. But I
brushed it off and plucked it anyway. We continued to walk. We arrived at the meeting point
at 7.30 a.m. We even got to watch the sunrise. We savored the moments deeply.

Then it’s time for us to go. We started to down the hill. Out of the blue, Sarah fell. Bam!
She sprained her ankle after a rock. Athirah and I aided Sarah all the way down the hill. After
walking for a while, we noticed that all the paths we had taken were noticeably similar. Oh no,
we were lost! Starting to panic, we rested at some tree. And then, an old woman popped out
of nowhere. With a shaky and slow-paced voice, she said, “Dear children, why are you sitting

here? Why don’t all of you come with me to my house? It can protect you from the wilderness.”
She persuaded us with a creepy half-smile. Athirah was convinced to follow us but Sarah was
more witted and told us not to quietly. We recited some ayahs from surah Al-Baqarah. With
God will, we heard a distant voice, calling out for our names. “Sarah! Athirah! Abby!” shouted
the voices. Turns out, it was one of the rangers who guided us through the camp. Mr. Malik.
They revealed that we were lost for almost 2 days! Thud! All of us sedimented as if we got
weak knees. It was shocking knowing that we’d been in the forest for that long!

After that, help arrived. Sarah was taken to the hospital. Mr. Malik and our parents
consoled us. As well as scolding us because we didn’t mind our etiquette with the forest. It
was very a traumatic experience for the three of us. If were given other chance to go into the
woods, we will never go again. That was the experience that changed my life forever.



STUDENT BIODATA

NAME : HAMIE NAILY BINTI MUSTAPAR

INDEX NUMBER : 202208231005

EMAIL ADRESS : [email protected]

PHONE NUMBER : 01137183684

PROGRAM : PPISMP SEMESTER YEAR 1

COURSE : BAHASA MELAYU 1 (SK)

DATE OF BIRTH : 15 MAC 2004

GUARDIAN’S NAME : MUSTAPAR BIN ALI

GUARDIAN’S PHONE NO. : 0129861

HOME ADRESS : 15 B KAMPUNG NIBONG BAWAH, 23000 DUNGUN,

TERENGGANU

LOST MY BEST FRIEND

In the evening, I plan to go to the beach to get some fresh air in very sunny weather.
Hearing the sound of waves breaking on the beach, seeing the natural beauty of the blue sea,
and hearing the faint sound of the wind blowing the fronds of coconut leaves seems to have
cleared my mind of all problems. When I was sitting resting on a rotting tree trunk while
enjoying a fried chicken with a very moist inside and a very crispy coating, my purse fell out of
my pants pocket without me noticing. After sitting there for a few minutes, I rushed to go home
after receiving a call from my mother because we had to go to Kuala Lumpur. But there was
a man who was quite tall with tanned skin and dressed all in white, he saw my purse and
chased towards me to hand it to me as fast as a horse. Suddenly, I heard the faint sound of
people calling me from behind, but I ignored it because it was quite noisy. I got into a white
car that had just arrived from the front. He approached me and breathlessly held out his arm
full of veins as he handed it to me and accepted it without having time to thank him.

A few days later, I was scrolling through Instagram and suddenly came across his
Instagram account. As a thank you for honestly giving my purse, I messaged him directly and
invited him out to dinner. He agreed, and we started meeting for the second time at this famous
restaurant in Kelantan. When we arrived, I was stunned to see the restaurant with a minimalist
wall decoration and motivational words that gave the restaurant a luxurious atmosphere. While
hearing music playing in the background, I happily proceeded to thank him for giving me my
purse for that day, even though it was a little awkward since it was the first time we had talked.
We talked and got to know him more deeply, but the conversation did not stop there. We
continued our conversation on Whatsapp.

I was surprised when he told me that he was also the same age as me, which is 18
years old. From there, we always review lessons together even though we are from different
schools. Since then, we are considered best friends. If there is a question that is difficult for
me to understand, especially a math question, I must consult him on how to solve the question
because he is more proficient in math subjects. Almost every day we will have a discussion
group for each subject, and we promise to get excellent results together on the day of the
exam results. I already assumed he was my brother because I had to confide with him about
my problems. After several months of hard work, we both succeeded in the SPM. We are
excited to continue studying at the same university together but unfortunately, we were not
placed on the same campus. I was stationed in Kelantan while he was stationed in Pahang.
After registering at campus, we rarely chat on social media. From here, we started to lose

contact and our relationship got shaky. We are far from going out together because we are
busy with our own worlds and I don't know his condition at that time.

One day, I came across a man with his face half covered in a hoodie at a bookstore.
But I could feel that the man was my old best friend. I tried to approach him because I wanted
to identify if it was him or someone else. His face looked very pale, and he had a very thin
body with clearly visible bones. I thought it was weird and tried to scold him, but he quickly ran
away from me. I tried to chase him until the parking lot, but I couldn't see his shadow after he
ran to see me. I'm trying to think positively that the person I met earlier is someone else. After
a few months, I received a message from an unknown number informing me that my old best
friend had died because of colon cancer which he had been diagnosed with two years earlier.
I am very disappointed with myself because I have not taken care of my old best friend all this
time. I have been very upset that my old best friend is willing to hide his illness and pretend to
be healthy in front of me despite the fact that he has stage 4 colon cancer. On that day, I
always blamed myself and that was the experience that changed my life forever.



STUDENT BIODATA

NAME : NOR AINA SYAHIRAH BINTI SUHAIMI
ID NUMBER : 030205-11-0068
EMAIL : [email protected]
PHONE NUMBER : 013-5998867
PROGRAM : PPISMP
COURSE : BAHASA MELAYU 1 (SK)
DATE OF BIRTH : 05 FEBRUARI 2003
FATHER’S NAME : SUHAIMI BIN NAWI
MOTHER’S NAME : ZABIDAH BINTI ALI
ADDRESS : 1307-C KAMPUNG PENGKALAN SETAR, GELUGOR
KEDAI, 20050 KUALA TERENGGANU, TERENGGANU

CHALLENGES OVERCOME WEAKNESSES

Having a happy and wonderful life is the desire of everyone in this world. However, not
everyone will have a perfect life as expected. Alternate challenges and conjectures need to be
met without despair because happiness is not something that has been made, it comes from
our own actions. Therefore, there is no happiness without action. Just like the story of my life
full of thorns that I had to go through in order to achieve happiness in life.

My name is Nor Aina Syahirah binti Suhaimi and I am 19 years old. I was born on 05
February 2003 and I am a native of Terengganu. My specialty is that I can handle the children
with tantrum issues and I am also reliable in controlling children's situations in adapting
themselves when they are with me. Telling about my strengths does not mean I do not have
weaknesses. I have a weakness that I cannot overcome until it slowly drops me. Lack of
selfconfidence is one of my weaknesses. This situation affects my life to some extent that it
becomes difficult for me to get along with people, do assignments, and the most difficult thing
is to trust anyone. That is where the story of my life begins in overcoming all the obstacles that
stem from my own weaknesses.

When I was 17 years old, the whole world was in chaos with the spread of the
Coronavirus disease (Covid-19). Due to the increasing number of deaths due to Covid-19, the
government had to close all educational institutions to reduce the number of infectious cases
among students. Then, the students have to study at home which are involves teaching and
learning methods beyond online learning platforms. The students start to feel free and enjoy
learning online because they are no longer supervised by teachers like they are in school.
Unlike me, I am a target student at school who has a big dream of achieving all A's in SPM.
The world of Covid-19 has changed me 100% into a person who is not confident in my own
abilities. For me, teaching and learning sessions become increasingly difficult especially when
taking place online.

It cannot be denied that I really like the online learning process, but I try my best to
understand every topic that is taught without thinking about being tired. This situation puts
pressure on me until I feel like giving up because every learning session goes on, none of the
topics I fully understand. I try to ask my teacher about any topic and questions that I do not
understand but teacher's answer through message does not help me to understand the topic
unlike face to face at school. I started to have no confidence in myself and felt really bad at
that time. Due to one of my weaknesses which is not confident in my own abilities, I became
stressed and finally despaired. I started not paying attention to the learning session and worst

of all, I just entered the platform which was an online learning session and I slept until the
learning session ended.

Then, the online SPM trial exam session begins. I can only answer questions on topics
taught before Covid-19. I did not manage to answer the rest of the questions because of my
lack of understanding of the topics taught online. I feel very sad, angry, and disappointed in
myself. The results of the SPM trial exam not only disappointed me, but my teachers and my
parents were also disappointed in me. This situation taught me a lot that not being confident
in myself was a key to the downfall and destruction of my life. Stress and hopelessness is one
of the causes because I am not confident in my own abilities. After that incident, I started to be
determined and promised myself to continue studying to achieve all A's in SPM. Although it is
difficult for me, seeing the happiness of both my parents and teachers is enough to give me a
strong reason for me to work harder in achieving excellence in SPM.

Every 3 o'clock in the morning, I will wake up to study and re-understand what I have
learned because I believe that morning atmosphere like that can further improve my
understanding to study. Although that time is a good time to sleep but not for me. I am willing
to sacrifice my sleep time to re-understand every topic I wasted before. Not only that, every
time I do not understand the topic taught that day, I will keep calling my teacher to ask about
any subtopic I do not understand. This situation strengthens my understanding in learning day
by day. Whenever I feel stressed, I will continue to relax and take a nap to prevent myself from
feeling insecure about myself. Finally, every drop of sweat and effort I put into studying has
paid off. I managed to get an excellent result in SPM which is 7A 2B. Although I did not manage
to get all A's in SPM, but this result has satisfied me and also the people around me and is
worth my efforts all this time.

I can conclude through my life story that everyone has weaknesses but weaknesses
are not reasons that we can use as obstacles for us to succeed. Self-weakness is not
something that can destroy us but can improve us for the better if we are good at controlling
and overcoming it. Similarly with the rose, the thorns on the rose are not intended to injure the
flower but make the rose stronger against external threats. Thus, we must be wise to control
and overcome our weaknesses to continue to be successful in life. If we give in and let our
weaknesses rule our lives, our lives will be destroyed and we will not be happy forever. To
succeed, we must first believe that we can and never give up because the beginning is the
hardest. If you can dream it, you can do it. That was the experience that changed my life
forever.



STUDENT BIODATA

NAME : NUR AFIFAH BINTI ANUA-IZANI
ID NO. : 040219-03-0332
EMAIL : [email protected]
PHONE NO. : 017-3126077
PROGRAM : PPISMP
COURSE : BAHASA MELAYU
DATE OF BIRTH : 19 FEBRUARI 2004
GUARDIAN’S NAME : ANUA-IZANI BIN JUSOH
GUARDIAN’S PHONE NO : 016-3863364
ADDRESS : LOT 1364, KAMPUNG CHAP, BEKELAM,
16070,BACHOK, KELANTAN

Untold Story

The shiny black metal was terrifying. I stared at the fence door of the school, Aurora
School to be exact, a universally accredited prestigious school in London. The credentials for
it were suffocatingly strict, and I was the last of what they could possibly ever want roaming
their grounds. My fingers trembled as I tried to reach for the machine in the wall, but for the
fifth time now, I failed.

“You can.” My brother, Ali said in order to reassure myself. I knew he could only hope
I would eventually conquer the beast that drove me here. I turned around and looked at him,
my eyes showing pure fear that made him very uncomfortable. “I won’t be able to.” He put his
hands on my shoulders and pursed his lips. “That will not happen. I promise.” I stared at him
for a minute more. I was sensible enough to know that I can trust what he said and always
did.

When I set foot in this school, I was amazed by its building structure and environment.
I walked around the school like a lost puppy to find where the office was. No matter how much
I tried to follow the directions on the school’s route app, I still could not tell where anything
was. A lady came out from the back and did not notice me at first, so I cleared my throat to
pay some attention. I smiled and stood up “Hi, I am Nur Afifah that enrolled recently.” The lady
looked up and fixed her glasses in the bridge of her nose. “Oh, hi. I am the office manager.
Please have a seat.” She opened the computer screen and started clicking and typing to check
my personal information. After a long irritable silence, she handed me a schedule and took
me to my class.

For the first time, I felt like I was a deer being stared down by a bunch of hungry beasts
when I entered the class. The teacher made me introduced myself and told me to sit down.
When I turned around, I almost thrown back into my chair at the sight of him. I did not know
who he actually was, but his appearance made me remember the thing that I wanted to bury
forever. My eyes quickly dropped to the ground as I attempted to avoid his gaze. I felt like the
insides of my body twisted and turned while my fingers, as embarrassing as it was,
automatically began to shake with fear.

Day by day, everyone had accepted and treated me so well, except for one person,
Lim. I felt like there was something that was unsettling between us. He always finds a way to
make me uncomfortable and traumatized by my own self. The memory that I have kept neatly
over time will unravel as the time goes by. My class held the end of year party to celebrate the
time that everyone got hyped up over. Azyan was trying to put some of the last decorations
on the wall but continued to fall immensely due to her height. Rey, the class monitor, was
trying hard to hang a big disco ball on the dangling hooks off the class ceiling. Unfortunately,

the disco ball slipped from Rey’s hand and fell to the floor. The glass ball shattered, breaking
into a million pieces just like me right now.

“NO! NO! NO! I DIDN’T DO IT!” I screamed so violently that maybe they would think I
was being skinned alive. I was immersed in my thoughts, so gravely deep in my memories. “I
SAID I DIDN’T DO IT, IDIOT!” I exclaimed. My face turned red and veins were visible on my
forehead. My screaming resumed as I clutched my head and shook it around, becoming
completely crazed. Tears fell down as my screaming became louder, tarnished by the memory
that was becoming clearer and closer to its climax.

Lim began moving for the first time since the disco ball fell. He had been watching the
scene unfold in front of his eyes. Step by step, he made his way to me, but his eyes never left
me. He stopped in front of me and leaned in until our faces were inches apart. He opened his
lips and said the first thing he knew that would destroy me. “But you did it. My sister died
because of you.” I gasped and my body shook in one set of petrified waves. I shut my eyes as
the memory began to replay from the start.

My young blood was eager to drive a car after I got my driving license. So, I took my
brother’s car to officiate my license and drove around my house area. It started when I noticed
that the road was clear. So, I hit the gas pedal and was driving over the speed limit, but
everything was not as beautiful as I expected. Out of the blue, a girl crossed the road and
made me lose control while turning and hit her. BUM! I was utterly shaken by the sound of it.
Everything was hazy and blurry, like a feather passing. I could not feel anything and lost
consciousness.

“So, she is your sister? I’m sorry.” The tears of regret shed from my eyes. Lim breathed.
“Why did you hit her?” No answer. My eyes were still shut, rewatching the horror experience
in my head. As I opened my eyes, I saw his hand was going to slap me, but I was wrong. He
stroked my hair and comforted me from the trauma. “I know everyone has their own
indiscretions in the past, and I don’t hold any grudges against you anymore. You've already
received a legal castigation, but I only need one thing from you. Please don’t ever show up in
front of me again.” Lim said while looking into my eyes. With a nod, I let out a long sigh. “Okay.
I will grant your wish.” From Lim, I learnt that forgiving someone was easy, but being able to
forget what they did was a totally different story, and that was the experience that changed my
life forever.



STUDENT BIODATA

NAME : NUR AIN HAKIMAH BINTI NORAZALI
ID NO. : 041212-03-0094
EMAIL : [email protected]
PHONE NO. : 01111138270
PROGRAM : PPISMP AMBILAN JUN 2022
COURSE : BAHASA MELAYU (SK)
DATE OF BIRTH : 12 DISEMBER 2004
GURDIAN’S NAME : NORAZALI BIN ABDULLAH
GURDIAN’S PHONE NO. : 0102354577
ADDRESS : 343-C JALAN SULTAN YAHYA PETRA 15200
KOTA BHARU KELANTAN

The Written Destiny

This story started when I was in university for about 2 months. As usual,all students
adore to go to library because some of them consider the library was a place to release
stress,a place to peruse,and to find happiness and satisfaction.There are also some students
who think the library is a place to do a bad deed.This accident has happened to myself where
it involves a case of thief in the library.

The story initiate when my friend and I determine to finish some procrastinate
assignment that given by lecturer.As a students,before entering in library we demand to
register at the counter.After registering,my friend and I decided to set foot in library but I just
planned to bring books and some stationery with me and left my purse outside of library in my
bag pack on the shelf.After that,we entered into library together.My friend and I was immerse
and hardwork to finish some assignment in the library while laughing and enjoy with that.

After finish off my assignment, we decided to call it a day our assignment and lift some
books.Out of blue, I was brought to mind about my purse that I put in my bag pack on the
shelf.After knowing it,I rushed to check my purse in my bagpack and suddenly everything
happened in blink of an eye my purse was invisible in front of my eyes because it was stolen
by a heartless human.My friend and I tried to find it but luck wasn’t on my side my purse wasn’t
found. Later,we decided to explain this accident to librarian. The librarians also give a hand to
find my lost purse but again it wans’t found.One of the librarian ask me “What’s in your wallet”?.
I said “There is identity card,card bank,and also some money”. A while later,the librarian said
you come again tomorrow to find look for you purse while they will investigation this case.The
librarian also said they will examine cctv and they will give all the update about this case haste
to me.”Right now I want you to find your purse in your hostel and don’t worry we will helping a
hand to make sure you get your purse back”. A women librarian said it to me.

My feelings at that time was very sorrowful and somber because I thought to myself
why there must be a heartless people who are willing to steal others stuff. My friends try to
persuade me but their persuade not work at all because my patience has run out as saying
goes that’s the last straw. I go back to hostel with the unhappy face and not in mood at all. I
wish the librarians will find my purse as soon as possible.On that night,I called my parents
while I cry and told this accident to them.“You need to do a report and there’s no function if
you cry without do anything because rice become porridge.”I hope you found you purse
back”.My parents said it to me.

The next day in the early morning ,my friend and I intend to link up with the librarians
to obtain the current information about my lost purse. The librarian said “We had checked the
cctv,we found that your purse was stolen by an unknown person,but we doubt she was learn
here”.When I listened this news I was very surprised because I didn’t imagine this accident
will happen to me but I trust every cloud has a silver lining.The librarians once said ‘ I want
you to report this accident to superiors for further action and I also hope that you will be
patience on what happened to you’. This case will be definitely be resolved but it take time.
After that, I am on my way to look after the disciplinary department to tell them about this
accident.They said “ We will try to help you to find the student who stole your purse and we
will impose appropriate her action on what she did”. The disciplinary department also write
down all the details of what had been missing in my purse.He also said the offender must be
responbility on what her had done to you. The disciplinary also advice me to do the new identity
card and card bank.”All the bills I will pay it for you and don’t worry all of us will help you to
settle this case”.After I heard that, I was very thankful because they want to help me.

The next day,I was struggled to do a new identity card and debit card.My journey to
settle this case was very clear and it took within a day. At first,I feel so somber and can’t accept
this but how time flies,everything was settled in the blink of an eye.I was very grateful to all
people that lend their hand to settle this case.I also trust the patience one always win as saying
goes patience is a virtue. I hope this case won’t happened to other people in the future and
that’s was experience that changed my life forever.