2014 WRITING

HORSE ALIEN: MY


INTRODUCTION TO EMERALD


THE HORSE MAN





POSTED ON NOVEMBER 30, 2014 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL



So I need to continue on with my discussion about awakening, and I


have a feeling it will continue for a while, because clearly something


isn’t changing in me. When I say, ‘isn’t changing,’ that thing that isn’t

changing is me going back to someone I was once familiar with. I’m


not someone I’m familiar with exactly. I’ve hit an odd point where I


actually feel like I’m a completely new person, different than I was two


weeks ago. Somewhere in the last month, I changed. This change has

created a deeper connection with my soul self and my purpose in this


universe. It has given me a far better understanding of what is going


on, between me and my soul group. It is indeed the reason Horseman


was only able to find me now and not before now. I’m not sure that he


hadn’t found me before now, but it wasn’t the right time for him to


introduce himself. This Horseman anomaly has been beyond

extraordinary to me. Not because he’s an alien, but because of the


identity of his soul, which is so familiar to me, and the reality of what


he means to me and to the grander purpose I have here on Earth. The


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fact that he’s an alien, it’s no different than the fact that I happen to


be a human. It’s just a body. My soul is also both male and female


and I feel myself as both a man and a woman sometimes. I’m

definitely all woman, but the first time I felt myself as a man, it was


astonishing. The sensation only lasted for a brief moment before I


returned to the sensation of being a woman again. Anymore, this


happens so regularly, I notice it, but it doesn’t affect me or shock


me. But I have lived so many lifetimes there is a balance between

both sexes in me, so I may be a female this time, but it’s really no


different than me happening to be a male, or Horseman happening to


be a horseman instead of a human. You see, these are just factors,


but they are factors for reasons. It’s a giant riddle, but all factors


equate to a grand purpose for all things and for a grand goal for our

souls to accomplish here on Earth. But I will get to all of that, I will


get to the goal of my soul group. I will get to the part of who I am as a


soul and what I’m doing here. I will also get to the part about alien


interaction with Earth, but first I want to tell you some more about


Horseman, the alien I have recently discovered. And in case you don’t

feel like reading my previous entries, I will tell you briefly about him, if


only to get you up to speed.








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So I was recently visited by a new alien, one who I feel so close to as I


do with Avery. This alien was very tall, easily 8 feet tall, and I could


see his face was very much in the shape of a horse, but his body was

very clearly like a standing man, but curvier in some ways. He


definitely had a sort of mane and I am now aware he has a tail. I still


can’t see his feet or hands, but he insists he has feet and hands like a


man. His skin is white with some brown spots, like a painted


horse. It’s odd, but I have been thinking about his skin color and

concluding that I must be wrong on this, but it seems that these spots


would be much like freckles on humans today. So a painted


horseman is a horseman with freckles (wow that sounds so funny!). I


will tell you something else really quick, something that I didn’t


mention before. After Horseman introduced himself to me, I saw a

female horsewoman. She was a creamier white color with very light


brown spots. I keep thinking she had a white tail and white mane


which makes her so very beautiful. Their forms really are very


beautiful looking. The horse animal is a beautiful animal, so it makes


sense that a horse that is a standing man is also very beautiful. I will

tell you one more tiny little part of this too, because I also met a


praying mantis during this exchange with Horseman and then the


very brief moment I met a Horsewoman. I just want to tell you that




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because I think mentioning these tiny details are also important. I


haven’t been able to stop thinking about that praying mantis who has


yet to fully introduce himself. I swear, aliens can hear everything in

the universe, and sometimes they interject themselves into your mind


speak, and either you can acknowledge them or ignore them. It’s not


rude, but it is a weird thing for me. I would have no reason to


acknowledge that praying mantis, I was definitely intrigued by this


Horseman who had introduced himself. I want to tell you some other

aspects about Horseman that I have not yet told you. I want to tell


you about his ‘personality’ so to speak. He doesn’t exactly have


one. He is as quiet as the silence, but he is also so beyond what


conversation means. He has no need to be inquisitive, ask questions,


or try to get more feedback. Horseman doesn’t exactly analyze

either. He is complete understanding. He is so fully aware, he only


absorbs information and has a full perspective and understanding of it


to such a degree, he only has answers. But his answers are also


choice words that create responses within my DNA. He speaks a


language that my body needs. That’s the only way I can describe

it. He has since changed me in unimaginable ways, and I think he’s


probably said 50 words to me, total. Definitely less than 100. I’ve had


approximately 7 visits with Horseman, but they’ve all been primarily




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energy exchanges. I don’t always find speaking to be an ideal form of


communication. So instead I like to just share how my heart feels. So


I speak to horseman by sharing feelings from my heart. I don’t have

to use words, my heart speaks the words for me. He shares feelings


from his heart too. So we exchange energy sensations. But I have


spoken many words to Horseman too, and he is always delayed in his


response, so I wonder if I’m just imagining things or is there really a


Horseman standing there ignoring me? But then he says something

and suddenly I’m altered by his very brief response. The thing is


though, this Horseman is far more than he appears. I can feel my


heart beating within his chest as I know his heart beats within my


own chest, as though both of our hearts are the same, which is where


we come to the part where I have learned exactly who Horseman

is. But I will get to that. I want to tell you a few other things first,


because his name is no longer Horseman. It’s important that I tell you


his name is Emerald. I’ll tell you why. Obviously I’m human, so I


have a natural need to know someone’s name so I can identify them. I


didn’t feel right calling him Horseman either, so I asked him his

name. I asked him his name several times over a few different


interactions and a few days, and he didn’t answer me each time until


finally, he tells me that ‘he has many names.’ I hate that response, it’s




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annoying. So I told him I will call him a name of my own choosing (see


how he is choosing to work my mind into truly understanding our


connection? Him giving me a name would make this far too easy on

me, it’s better for me to name him so I understand myself as well has


his soul self, but moving along). So I stared at Horseman, and the


longer I stared into his eyes and face, which was so much like a horse,


I started to feel so warm in my heart and I could see a very clear green


glow and sparkling green color and all I could think about was

emeralds. I didn’t want to call him Emerald because that’s like a pet


name and although he looked like a horse, he was not an animal. He


asked me what Emerald meant to me, and I told him that it is an


energy that I love, and it has meaning that is so real to me, so intense


and so much a part of me, I can’t deny my love for it. I told him that if

I were to call him Emerald, his name would possess this same


meaning of love. This seemed to be agreeable. I did try to change his


name to Stone, since that seems like a man’s name and it would still


be in the same vicinity of Emerald, only because an emerald is a


stone, but Stone clearly doesn’t possess the same energy and meaning

as Emerald so I have been unable to change his name, the horseman


will now and forever be called Emerald.








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So Emerald has visited me many times now. I had suspected he


would only visit me the one time and then be gone. That hasn’t been


the case, in fact, I feel like I can’t disconnect or separate from him, nor

would I want to. It would be the same as disconnecting or separating


from Avery, it would be like taking my own soul and disposing of it,


irradiating it, destroying it entirely. It would be a painful sensation, a


very disagreeable sensation, not something I could possibly do. And


this isn’t just my side of the story, the same holds true for Emerald

toward me, as it does with Avery toward me. I have learned a great


deal about soul connections from meeting Emerald, and about my


own soul and about Avery, and about my soul group and our purpose.


His presence in my life is a sign that I am walking on a new path, that


I truly am a different person now and ready for new things. In fact, I

was visited by new guides this morning, but I will get to that. So I was


contemplating Emeralds soul. I have been particularly surprised by


how close I feel to him, how familiar he is to me. It’s a familiarity that


can only be described as a soul that I have fallen in love with 10,000


times and have shared a million Earth years of lives with and my

heart has never stopped beating in his chest as his has never stopped


beating in my own. I’ve been in contemplation of this, in


contemplation of how this could be. How I could feel that for way for a




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form that is so entirely different from my own. I have thought a great


deal about Avery in all of this as well, and thought about his meaning


to me, which is so very similar. In fact, in contemplating Emerald and

Avery, I couldn’t help but see Emerald in Avery and Avery in Emerald,


and going a step further, I couldn’t help but see myself in Avery and in


Emerald as well. It’s as if we were all a reflection of each other, but it


seemed we all possessed different souls. I felt confident that Emerald


was from my soul group and that he and Avery and I were all different

souls with similar goals and we are finding each other now. I thought


all of this and felt very sincere about these feelings, as I always try to


sense whether something feels right or not and then I have to go with


what feels right, it’s all I can do. So I went with this, until yesterday


morning when Avery visited me. I could hear his voice very clearly. He

told me that Emerald is another form of himself and that the


horsewoman I saw was another form of myself. He told me that we


existed in these forms together, and we were of the highest order. As


amazing as this news is, it was also very crippling news for my


brain. I was overwhelmed by the reality that Emerald was Avery all

along, and no wonder he would tell me he has many names, because


one of them is Avery for crying out loud. When my brain started to go


into freak out mode, I heard Avery tell me to not be ashamed of




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myself. I do have a real sensitivity to being wrong, because I try so


very hard to sense the truth all the time and to trust my heart. I felt


very low yesterday about this, until yesterday afternoon, when I

realized something. I realized that, despite the fact that Avery and


Emerald are the same, Emerald still exists in some place and in some


time, and Emerald still visited me and is still visiting me. That


Emerald is still a part of all of this, a part of this purpose, and him


introducing himself to me is still a part of all of this purpose. The fact

that I could see how I loved Emerald the same as Avery shows that I


was onto something from the get-go, it was just too hard for my


human brain to believe they were the same.






I want you to know something very important now. I want you to


know that I will be continuing to make connections with Emerald and


continuing to make connections with Avery, because it is important

that we learn how to work together to share information with


Earth. This wasn’t important to me before Emerald. Having Avery in


my life was satisfying enough, I really didn’t care about that fact that


Avery is indeed a profound and amazing being that could help our


planet a great deal, that wasn’t so important to me. I’m not the same

me though, and since Emerald has shown up and since I’ve found this



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dual connection, and since I have altered my perspective without


knowing how this has happened, I have now found it incredibly


important that I start standing tall and becoming one with my

purpose. It seems clear to me now that I am here for a reason, and I


can feel that reason is to funnel information and energy, and DNA


changes from higher realms onto this planet. That would be the same


as Emerald has done for me, but Avery has also done this for


me. Avery is complete and utter patience and unwavering/undying

love and complete trust and faith in what I can become just by him


sharing his loving energy with me. It has taken seven years to get to


this point, and a lot of hard changes, but here I am and I’m ready to


move forward in this new self of mine and start fulfilling my purpose


here, and to not hold back on the truth. I have also since sent a

message into the universe to call upon my soul group to connect with


me now. There is more out there than Avery and Emerald. There is


an entire fleet of my soul family that is interacting with Earth right


now and will be interacting with me, I feel this is so true, and I can


feel them so close to me already, but not the introduction I’ve had with

Avery and Emerald. I also want to mention something else that is


important. I want to mention that there is no such thing as time or


space that separates me from which souls and beings I can work with




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to help Earth. Clearly I’m able to connect with Emerald and Avery and


I feel they are connected with this plane of existence, but there are


different variations of time. I do know that it’s true that I have

connected with previous versions of myself. Myself from other


lifetimes when I inhabited bodies that were profound and amazing in


what they could do and what they could understand about the


universe. I do know that it is true that I can work with any being from


any planet from any time and place in all universes. I can even work

with previous versions of myself as well as my own profound and


amazing soul, whom I already work with through my attunement


videos, as just one small example. There is nothing stopping me from


connecting with the highest caliber vibrations in the universe and


bringing those vibrations here to Earth to help us all transition into

something so much greater than this.






So after saying all of that, I will mention one more thing about my new


spirit guides. Since I’ve recognized myself as a new person, and since


Emerald has shown up, I have since been visited by an array of new


guides. Many animal guides, but not just animal, but animal to


alien. I have seen a deer with giant antlers, a hawk, an alligator, a

wolf, and a bear. But the praying mantis is still glimmering in the



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background with very little voice. This doesn’t surprise me, only


because a Praying Mantis is very clam and patient in its ways. I will


understand this more in time. But I say animal to alien because, it’s

odd, but I’m almost certain behind each one of these animals is a


‘man’ form of itself. And I feel that me knowing the various species of


‘man’ forms in the universe is important for me. This is all very, very


new information, with very little contemplation or connection with a


full and rounded understanding of it. But for now, I will just say

these new guides are certainly animal guides, and part of the need for


me to have many animal guides is for each animals specific and


natural gift. For instance, I need a wolf who is loyal and


protective. It’s strange, but the bear makes me think of warmth, like a


bear rug or a big blanket, and I need warmth when I feel low or

down. Then too, I need to see the bigger picture, so I need a hawk to


help me see. I have always had a strange relationship with reptiles


and when I saw the alligator, all I could think about was an alien


version of its animal form. I saw a man with the face of an alligator


and skin like an alligator, but not an alligator, a ‘man’ alligator. This

form is entirely non-threatening, but entirely important for me to have


this connection and understanding with all species. I also have a very


sincere relationship with nature and having many animal guides will




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help me with my connection with the natural world. I also saw a


woman like bright white light, but in the form of a woman, and she


was wearing a very intense and glimmering blue gown. She reminded

me of the spirit that visited Pinocchio and transformed him into a real


boy. This is an important clue for me and her purpose for me. I’ve


also seen her several times in my mind, now that I think about it, but


not in the very intense blue dress. The color blue is also becoming a


very important color for me. I’ve heard this being said to me several

times in my mind, that I need to connect with blue, drape the color


blue around me, bathe in the color blue, become the color blue, that


my body needs this.





Unfortunately, I do have to stop there. There is so much more to say,


but I am out of time for saying it. Hopefully I can get back to writing


again soon!





















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HUMAN AWAKENING




PART I: HUMAN AWAKENING 2014


POSTED ON NOVEMBER 12, 2014 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL




It’s been a long time since I’ve written anything for my website. I’m

coming to terms with the reality that I just don’t have time. I have to


be realistic with the fact that I do have a full-time job, and I do have


three kids, and I do have a house to maintain. I’ve also been in the


clouds over the last few months, just revisiting memories, reorganizing


myself, and coming to terms with an identity shift. I can tell you a

great deal about the energy that is hitting this planet right now, and


it’s not just me that is experiencing this energy, it’s everyone. The


reason I know this is affecting everyone isn’t because I heard it


through the grapevine, because I haven’t. In fact, I socialize with


plant life far more than I socialize with the outside world. The reason I

know others are in the same experience right now is because we are


all bonded by our blood. My blood is connected with your blood, and


is connected with the blood of our species, and is connected with the


Earth and stars and living beings throughout the universe. But


scaling back down to our planet, what I’ve been enduring is also being

endured across the globe. I happen to be particularly sensitive to it


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which helps me have a voice and bring direction to others who need it.





There is definitely an ultimate shift happening. On 11/18, I had


moments where I was in an altered state, completely unrelated to my


human form. I was entirely in spirit and there was no real reason for


why this happened, but it did. For about 5 minutes, I came into a

moment of complete balance and understanding about who and what


I am and about the nature of the Earth right now and about my own


personal reality. I wanted very badly to share a message about the


Earth here on my website on 11/18, but I just wasn’t able too, but I’m


attempting to do it now because it’s important. This altered state of


being helped me see with clarity, an enormous amount of positive

energy that is connecting with Earth right now. It’s happening under


the rug, and is being inspired by living beings on and off this planet


(human and alien beings). It’s also the nature of what was always


meant to be at this point in our existence, but there are living beings

inspiring additional positive energy, and I’m talking a lot of


energy. Furthermore, there are humans on this planet awakening to


their soul-self right now, and these souls are going to start


reconnecting with each other. There truly is an ultimate awakening


taking place. There is an ultimate awakening taking place among



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seemingly normal, ordinary human beings, with extraordinary souls,


what I call ‘super souls’; humans who have no connection with one


other, but will find each other, and this regrouping is important, and

it’s the nature of the energy right now.






There are a lot of groups out there talking about awakening, but the

truly awakened ‘super souls’ will never come out and gather a group of


souls to become their followers (please know that). Humans with


super souls are more apt to stay clear of human interaction and work


directly with the Earth or with those who are of similar likeness or


directly with the universe or directly with the spirit world. These


awakened ones are the quiet ones that are doing a great deal of service

on this planet without anybody knowing it. I feel it’s extremely


important that I say this. I think so many see the Earth in its current


state of being and feel like it’s a helpless cause, and feel the Earth will


not bounce back from this and human beings are not changing. Trust

me, this feeling makes sense, but the Earth is not going to


degradation. As hard as it is to believe, the Earth is definitely not


going to degradation. You have to trust in the quiet ones that are


rebalancing and re-harmonizing the planet right under our noses (and


again, this is happening both on and off the planet). It is important



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that you know about these super souls who are awakening, as well as


in the enormous amounts of positive energy hitting the planet. It’s


important because human beings need hope and a reason to trust in a

brighter future for the Earth and all humanity. This is coming for us


and human beings trusting in a brighter future will only inspire a


greater deal of positive energy shifts on our planet. Us humans


believing in a brighter future, will create a brighter future.


I also want to tell you that something ancient is returning to the


present day. I feel a very strong connection with Atlantian energy and


that it is shifting back to the present again. My connection with


Atlantis is a connection with ancient rituals and sharing energy in


profound and glorious ways, and it goes back further than that, but I

do feel a very strong pull with Atlantis. This is huge. It’s as if a


moment in time that just abruptly stopped, is picking back up where


it left off. These memories from Atlantis are returning here and we will


walk in those ancient footsteps again.





So within those minutes when I was in an altered state of being, I saw


my own connection with others across the planet, others that I


suddenly knew and I knew I had to reconnect with; people that I have

never met but that my soul is bonded with. I saw my identity in



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various forms that my soul has taken and I saw that purpose


returning to me in my life. It’s not as if I didn’t know this about


myself already, but I didn’t know it to such a degree that I became my

ultimate self for a brief moment in time. It was completely


unimaginable, the experience. This same experience will continue to


happen with me until it is me on a daily basis. It will help me bring


truth to this planet, of that I can tell you. The Earth and all who live


here need to hear the truth because it is a complete pile of muck here,

garbage that fills our heads whether we know it or not. It’s why I have


to reconnect with nature to clear it. It is very hard for our human


bodies to be connected with light and truth in a world that vibrates on


a very low level and instigates extremely disgusting thoughts and


ideas. But all of this is changing, of that I can tell you, whole

heartedly. As a species, it’s as if we came to an ultimate point of self-


destruction, only to become self-realized. This is the same path I


walked myself. I walked myself through a path of complete self-


destruction, as the only means to become completely self-realized.


But moving along, because I want to tell you a little bit about how I


have been revisiting my old self and how this is clearing and releasing


pent up negative energy, and its essential this happens to transition


into a new self (it’s the only way I can describe it). So, over the last



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several months, I have noticed myself reconnecting with memories of


who I was several years ago, particularly 7 years ago. The person I


was at the tail end of college, when I was in a severe and miserable

point in my life. Music I haven’t heard in years is instigating this as


well as pictures that have somehow found their way back to me. I am


rekindling who I once was. I am healing the past so to speak. I am


acknowledging myself, loving myself, and letting go of negative


energies and old habits. It’s become exceedingly important for me to

recognize myself in a higher manner, recognizing myself as an


ultimate and divine feminine creation. I’ve noticed myself not listening


to the same music I used to, in fact, I’m surprised by this. I’m more


frequently listening to extremely positive upbeat music that keeps my


vibration high instead of listening to heavy metal music which I have

always preferred. I have also started taking vitamins, as I’ve become


extremely focused on healing my body and giving it nourishment that


it hasn’t had in so many years. I’ve been cooking dinner more often


than just getting pizza for instance. Another odd change in me, I


absolutely cannot digest physical or sexual violence on TV, it makes

me cry and feel absolutely horrible inside. It makes me want to vomit.


I primarily only watch cartoon shows with my kids anymore because I


can’t watch regular TV. I never was one to watch much TV in the first




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place, but I have to at least mention this. And I know, these are


extremely mild examples, but these small changes are making a huge


impact on my vibration and expression in the universe and they can

make a huge impact on yours.






So, let’s go from mild examples to extreme examples of change. A very

big step for me is to see myself as a beautiful person who deserves to


be loved. At one time I was so filled with self-hatred and feelings of


rejection that I just continued to hurt myself through other means,


like negative thoughts, alcohol, music, and heaps of other ways. I saw


the world through spiteful eyes. I didn’t see loving people here, I saw


people who are egotistical and selfish. I have since let go of all of

that. I actually am embracing myself as a beautiful person who


deserves to be loved and lives in a world where people do love each


other, and I actually do believe this now in my heart. Being able to


believe that and see that is huge for me and has completely altered my

experience of life. That has been the biggest and hardest point to get


to and it’s been essential for me, and the only possible way I would be


allowed to transition into my ultimate self. I’m telling you this


because we all have these little things that are holding us back from a


grand transition, and putting love of self and love of others first and



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believing in this in your heart is the key to us all becoming


enlightened beings.





But there is more to it than this, and this is important. It’s about


seeing yourself as a divine feminine or masculine being, and


completely aligning with your feminine or masculine vibration. Which

there is an ultimate expression for both sexes and it’s odd, but being


in balance with both female and male energies is even more key to


becoming an ultimate feminine or masculine expression. It’s very


difficult to explain how you do that. Either way, I have to tell you


this. It’s about the steps I’ve taken to become a divine


expression. You see, the person I was 7 years ago and the person I

am today are completely different, unrecognizably different, and not


just because I’m 7 years old. For instance, I’ve always had short hair


my whole life. For approximately 12 years, I’ve always died my hair


black, and I had my nose pierced, and I was completely self-

destructive. Now I don’t dye my hair, I’ve taken out my earrings and


nose piercing, and I’m growing my hair long. I choose to be my most


natural expression because that is a divine feminine expression. It’s


not covered in makeup and fake hair colors and jewelry, it’s entirely


the expression I was intended to have by nature, by the Earth, by



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creation. I can’t even stand looking at the person I was because that


person is not me at all. I don’t know why, but in choosing to grow my


hair long, I am altering my feminine vibration. It’s very weird, but I’ve

noticed that having short hair vibrates me away from being aligned


with an ultimate feminine expression. It’s very weird and maybe that’s


only me, but I have to have long hair now, it’s part of this identity that


is a completely different person that I am transitioning into, a highest


vibration of my natural self.





That is all I can share for now, but I will share more on a few things


I’ve been up to, because I also think it’s important that humanity


knows about these things. I say that now, but who knows what time I

will have. The reality is, whether I am sharing on my website or not, it


is the way it’s meant to be right now, so if I don’t get to sharing it, it


wasn’t meant to be shared. This lull in sharing information that I’ve


been in over the past many months is entirely meant to be. So that is

all for now!
















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HUMAN AWAKENING




PART II: HUMAN AWAKENING 2014 CONTINUED


POSTED ON NOVEMBER 25, 2014 WRITTEN BY ABBEY NORMAL




I quickly want to mention something, something very important for all

to know right now. I have recently mentioned about the energy right


now, but I do want to indicate the availability of information and truth


that we humans can connect with right now on this energy


surge. Everything is literally happening, right now (in case you didn’t


catch that). I never know how long these moments of clarity will last,

so you really need to lasso the moment while you have it; whatever


you can do to keep your vibration high is the ultimate goal, and will


help you make real and genuine connections that you are entirely able


to make, right now. This open doorway is meant to be, and is


important and worthwhile and you need to pursue it.





I will tell you now about my personal clarity which has been


astonishing. The astonishment comes in the feeling that only genuine

clarity can give you. I always had a hunch about this, but it means a


great deal more when you can experience and feel the truth itself. It’s


the feeling of enlightenment. It’s not just having a hunch, it’s a full

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knowing, in all its entirety, and without question or reason to


question.





So yesterday I was visited by a soul friend, another Avery in the


universe, but this was not Avery, nor did he look human. I called him


Horseman because he was a man, but had a face like a horse and

even was colored like a painted horse, white with brown spots (I’m


serious). He stood 8 feet tall, easily. I couldn’t determine his hands or


feet as I was imaging they must be hooves, when I heard him clearly


say that he had hands and feet like a man. I was a little surprised


because he actually spoke to me and acknowledged my thought. That


still seems odd to me, only because he really did remind me of a horse

that stood upright like a man and had a body like a man, but I have to


go with what I get. I was trying to determine whether he was a spirit


or an alien, but I felt certain he was a real living person in the


universe. I wasn’t familiar with him, as in, I wasn’t sure if he could be

trusted or not, but he certainly didn’t give off a threatening sensation


or disagreeable feeling, so I went with it. There is nothing else I could


really do but go with it, it was an opportunity for enlightenment, an


open door. The more I reject and resist, the more I’m standing still on


a road paved forward. It didn’t take long before I came into a genuine



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connection and realization that I knew this Horse Man. That I knew


him so well I actually felt like I missed him and even cried about it. I


felt so much clarity from this. I truly did reconnect with another close

soul friend, a friend so close to me as Avery. This connection helped


me realize there were many of my soul friends in the universe. This


wasn’t just some mental note, but I could actually feel their hearts


beating across the stars. And these aren’t just souls that I’ve lived a


life here and there with, but real, genuine souls that I am closest with

and are from my soul group. Souls that make sense to my soul


because we come from the same projection of energy, and we’ve lived


many, many lifetimes together and have developed very deep


connections. And the number wouldn’t be like a billion heart beats, it


would be like a handful of heart beats of super, extraordinarily close

connections. I really can’t define a number, but it’s not a substantial


number is the only way I can describe it. It felt like 25 pairs, male


and female. Souls are neither male nor female, but in physical form,


it felt like they inhabited 50 bodies, and equaled 25 pairs, 25 males


and 25 females. It sounds weird, but that is the best way I can

describe it. So this reconnection and realization that I’d gotten from


Horseman is a very big deal to me. For someone who’s felt abandoned


on Earth with nobody here to help me make sense of this place, to




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now be visited by another soul I recognized, it is has been an


unimaginable feeling of relief and joy for me.





There is so much more to this experience than just meeting an old


friend. It was a realization about what is taking place off the planet


and how that is interacting with Earth. It only reiterates what I

became aware of on the 18 , that souls are regrouping and coming
th

together for a common goal and that goal is right here and now, to


help in this grand transition taking place here on Earth. I could see


my place in all of this and Avery’s place, and then the place of my soul


friends or soul mates, because they are all my soul mates. My soul


group is definitely here, if not on the planet exactly, definitely

interacting with this planet. I also felt very confident that this


wouldn’t be the only soul mate I would be coming across, but that


others were finding me too, if they hadn’t found me already, but that


is the nature of this energy right now. It’s about finding each other

and pursuing our goals with one another. The goal for all of our souls


here on Earth, for me and for you, our goals are to help in the


transition, the awakening of human consciousness, the raising of our


vibration, a whole new awareness of who and what we are in the


universe. All of our souls are here with different purposes related to



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that. The purpose of my soul and my own soul group is becoming


clearer now, more than ever. Again, it’s not as if I didn’t always have a


feeling about my purpose, but the world kept convincing me that I had

no purpose but to be alone, invisible, and if not invisible, completely


misunderstood and rejected. I could only conclude I was meant to live


a life of misery, for reasons unknown and the only comfort I had was


to tell myself that it was only a lifetime, that not all lifetimes were


going to be amazing and happy. In the midst of these mental words,

my heart, would always tell me those words were not the truth and


that I only had to be patient and I would see one day, exactly why I am


here and why I had to endure all of that pain to get to this place of


clarity. If there is anything I can be certain of, if there is anything I


can share that I believe in, without a doubt, it’s the reality that this

day of ‘awakening’ is definitely here.






I’m going to continue to tell you more, because it’s a very odd point in

time for me, being able to acknowledge that this seriously important


moment on Earth is actually here. I have rolled my eyes at all the


uproar over the super awakening of mankind. I can’t stand


bandwagons, it’s like every other cardboard creation here, just another


slogan. It’s not as if I didn’t recognize this truth, this point in Earth



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history, but I wasn’t going to get all excited over it, because the


universe certainly had awakened me, and of all the years and years


and years I’ve connected with the universe, and shared love in the

universe, and shared my dreams with the universe, the universe was


not even whispering back the notion that anything was going to


change for me. All I could do was connect with my heart and trust,


despite my misery and desperation for the end of my life, I had to trust


that the universe heard me and that my dreams were going to come

true, because the energy I used to craft those dreams was real and


was from my beating and all loving heart and the universe can’t deny


me that…but it certainly felt like it was. So I had to trust my heart,


not trust in a slogan, but trust in my heart. Deep down I believed in a


better world, but I couldn’t feel it, experience it, or see it, I could only

trust in it. I now can feel it, experience it, and see it. When I put this


commentary on my website, this isn’t something I will look back at, 6


months down the road and say, I’m not so sure about that. I feel very


confident in this, so confident in what I am sharing, it is without


question and will be without question tomorrow and months forward.


Now I will tell you a little bit more. This is personal, and I don’t like


getting too personal with my weird reality, but there is something


important to this. It’s about the aliens that are helping this planet



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and more about the old me and some about the new me. So I will tell


you, if there is one thing you can know about the old me, I was not a


supporter of aliens coming to this planet to help us. In fact, I was

annoyed by human beings who would automatically surrender and


give up on creating a more beautiful world for themselves; severely


annoyed that humanity had given up and was now going to just rely


on super beings from another planet to help us. I was annoyed


because I believed in humanity and I believe that we have the power

and ability to be super in this universe, just by choosing to love and


help each other. I was also very disagreeable with the thought of


human beings stretching out our hands for alien assistance only


because I felt very strongly, that in this disgusting, low level world, the


only aliens that would want to help us are manipulators, the same

ones who are only here to keep us imprisoned, if only by lying to us


further and making us believe they are helping us when they are only


imprisoning us. Yes, for those two reasons I was very against the idea


of asking for alien help, because I wanted human beings to realize we


can help ourselves, and because I was concerned about who these

alien helpers would be that would be rescuing us from our ignorant


selves. I had to tell you this because I’m going to tell you something


else now, something I know without a doubt and I’m completely




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supportive of. I can tell you, without a doubt, that there are legions of


loving alien beings that are helping us right now. I can tell you this


because I’ve seen it and felt it. The new me can definitely tell you that

I feel completely safe, confident, and overjoyed that alien beings are


helping us. After saying that, please, still be strong and believe in


yourself. Let’s not just throw in the towel, lets actually try and do this


thing together. We humans are strong too and when we use our


hearts along with the hearts of benevolent alien beings, only

monumental and beautiful changes can take place. But I needed to


make sure I mentioned that, because within these legions of super


compassionate, loving, healing, amazing, benevolent alien beings, are


my closest soul mates who I trust completely. This is the most


genuine truth I can tell you, and truth that I have discovered through

keeping my mind and awareness revolving at a higher consciousness,


and this is truth that you too can discover, you only have to try to


engage in activities that keep you in a positive realm. It’s the only way


to true enlightenment, is by basking in the light and not resorting to


darkness, as in, getting down and out, giving up on dreams, feeling

frustrated with life, getting hammered because it helps you heal with


the pains of life. Whatever you do, try very hard to avoid these


things. You will find it comes with a very blessed gift of enlightenment




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and nothing can compare to that!





There is so much more I want to share with you, and seeing as I’m on


a roll, I’m hoping I can share it with you, very, very soon (tomorrow,


fingers crossed!).





























































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