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About Midnight Muse:
Midnight Muse is a nonprofit independent electronic literary journal that features an array of artists, in
all principles of two dimensional art. This magazine was founded by an artist for artists with the hope of
illuminating darker and more graphic pieces of work that are generally not represented widely within
the artistic world. It is with greatest hope that this literary journal will inspire artists to reach full
creative expression and break free of limitations.
Creator & Editor:
Danya Taylor
Please Send Submissions To:
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Cortege
Will Schmitz
Coast of the only tranquil night
You are a wild bird stalking its prey through the lilies
And soon you will have it speared
So that the maneuver it takes to swallow the catfish
Will be a magnificent gesture of virtuosity
Will make you more astounding than Heifitz or Liszt.
Everyone's pleasant but no one's in love.
My Diana, my pepperhaired huntress in your ancient sulk
How you command us men for the promise of pleasing
Your groaning wants. I go away lighting my
Multicolored shadow among the stars.
The ordered eyes of many confined passions
The ordered smiles of love and disgust with love
I deny that I have ever wanted to be touched by your frosty
palms
And I lie.
Coast of the only tranquil night
Stalking where the world never ends
Shining as you rise from the water
Shining, breaking the silence of the air
With the rush of your wings
Your intensity is unsteady
One day a coaxing voice perishing fire
The next, ashes stuffed into the orifices of our regret.
Gratefully have I been freed from both objects and space
I have severed my relationship with the senses
Look how everything gives itself away and needs
To hide to protect its wealthy dearth
Trained in the language of mistrust
What we do now is hardly material
Those whose trunks are marred with lacerations
Have become a thousand footed
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We leave them to laugh at otherness.
I nominate into being a noknock procedure
In which our heads can be legally dead
Without the present fuss.
Can't you touch me
Won't you
Try to
Swim across the night.
Photograph By: Aaron Hayman
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Amusement in a World of Terror and Excitement
Will Schmitz
When Eisenstein was in Mexico
He shot
Over 400 hours of clouds.
Breaking across the border &
tired
From the thirteen hour drive
we
Dump ourselves into a Tijuana hotel.
In the morning our addiction
to Superior Beer &
Commenetertivo Tequila begins
Since the water is no better than snake venom.
Touristly
We search for the mythical donkey show
But encounter instead
only mangy street dogs
debilitated beggars with
missing noses and chins
as well as the expected ones
with missing fingers and limbs.
By noon we've retreated into a sidestreet bar
Where cadaverous whores lisp their toothless litanies to us
promising excitement and delight
"Fuckeesuckee
Up my ass
Dogstyle
Suck your balls, cowboy..."
Over my beer
And out of the corner of my eye
I can see an adroit puta
Who's snared a pair of marines
giving head 2 one &
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handjobbing the other.
Her lips are making the slurping noises
That attracted my attention. It's decided that
Tijuana may not be for us
Donkeys or no.
Getting out of town
isn't easy.
Every street is a calamity
Limed with sand &
Littered with inanimate and human
Debris. The Federales have taken
To imitating the Giardia of Seville
Submachine guns strapped across their chests.
They seem to enjoy blowing their whistles
at cripples who've become confused
and trapped in the unpatterned traffic.
Ensenada
Became our destination & after passing the line of peasants
Bringing their cottage industry wares into Tijuana
The road bared itself
to look down on an inkblue sea
and sweep an arm up to the inland mountain ranges
while the dust rose insolently behind the car.
Ensenada
Was quiet by day and clean.
An American couple from Georgia
On a mission to free an inlaw from a Mexican jail
Told us about seeing an Ohio family shot by rebels
A day ago in Oaxaca.
Ensenada
Has the best seafood this side of Paris and New Orleans.
the shrimps in garlic
octopus ranchero
abalone, bass &
sea turtle stew
Are redeemingly blissful. We ate
Five meals a day &
nibbled constantly
Off the carts that roam the streets.
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On the Saturday night
Before the drive back
We went to the usual kind of stripper bar
For a drop of farewell refreshment.
The dancers were their usual, shitty
Unattractive selves, the bouncers
eagle tattoos
on the forearms
jaguars on the chest
peering through unbuttoned shirt fronts.
Five flubbed numbers paraded by
Before the band's butchered notes stopped
And the main attraction came on
to throw off the furnished costume
And reveal the most beautiful body ever seen.
we jabbered like
airport controllers
fearing a crash.
My compadre stared at her until she knew
It was time to do her chores
And drink watered rum cokes with the guests.
For being privileged to run her fingers
Through the, as yet uncommon, golden
Ringlets of his hair, my friend received
One timorous kiss.
She was 18, full Indian
Maybe of the Seri,
A tribe that wanders the Baja
Blowing on conch shells. We stared
For about an hour while
she threw back drinks and chattered like a
monkey in an unintelligible Spanish/Indian dialect. We agreed
to make an offer &
called over her padron.
We offered
All that we had left
An ample and generous sum, but her padron
had the pleasure of slapping the table
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and informing us that
she had already
been bought
"For more pesos than you two gringos will ever see in
your entire lives."
We left to imagine her being smuggled over the border
In the trunk of a Ferrari and then
Being bolted behind the door of
A Brentwood cage.
Back to out jobs
And the dull snacks in our brains.
Well thenso long, Amigos! &
May we not meet again,
Even outside the dangers of time.
Photograph By: Aaron Hayman
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Temptation
Cassie Landt
You can tempt a dreamer
With words,
But you cannot
Tempt a writer
The same way.
You can only tempt them
With images,
Places,
The sun setting over a hill;
Something solid.
Dreamers need words
To make their dreams solid,
But writers already have them.
They need something
To base their words on.
The world inspires writers
And the writers inspire
The dreamers.
About The Artist: Cassie Landt hails from Melbourne, Australia. Her favorite
poets are E.E. Cummings and Charles Bukowski, she has been writing for as long
as she can remember, quickly it became a comforting escape for Cassie. Cassie
draws inspiration from the world around her and plans to continue pursuing
writing for a very long time.
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Gavin Knox
About The Artist: Gavin Knox is a proud Portland native and Oregonian. Among
such things as photography he holds interests in theater performance, film
making, music, and creative writing. He is a proud graduate of the Sojourner
School in Milwaukie, Oregon founded on Howard Gardner's multiple intelligence
theory and dreams every day of being a major player in the future of creative
arts and culture. He also enjoys birdwatching, bicycles, and the Star Wars
Expanded Universe.
Photography By: Gavin Knox
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Treasure of the Lake
Benjamin Newgard
With your brother and his wife, on the way to the rental
cottage. They ask you questions, to catch up. They say: How's it
going? How is work? Are you seeing anybody? And to these things
you say Fine, Fine, and No, because, as you see it, there's
little worth saying about data entry and living alone. The drive
to the lake is long and they spend it chatting about the
neighbors, or your nephew.
You spend it looking out the window, or tapping fingers to your
knee. Always feeling the backpack heavy on your lap. The package
inside. When you arrive your brother says, Not bad! His wife
says, Not bad at all! And with the backpack you walk toward the
water. What you know that your brother and his wife do not is
that they will return home without you. At the lakefront, coifed
by misted spindly trees, you feel this with renewed certainty.
In the cottage you have your own room. There are two twin sized
beds; you place the backpack on the left one and yourself on the
right. Down the hall the sound of sliding doors, the
refrigerator. Your brother: Yes, dear, very nice. You step to
the backpack, open it, check that the package has not somehow
disappeared. It has not. You thumb stiff brush hairs, the prick
of a single sequins. Though they've not left your sight for
days, it's a comfort to touch them now. Your brother calls for
you, Happy Hour!, and you zip the bag, move like a whisper from
the room. Close the door behind you.
A beer with twistoff cap; you've never had much tolerance. Your
brother mixes Makersit's a special occasion, he says with
the ginger ale bought on the way. For the wife, soda water. She
tells you she is on a diet. Your brother rolls his eyes, clinks
your beer in cheers.
He makes sure you still like steak, with an elbow, half kidding,
and invites you outside by the grill. You take distant sips and
watch the meat turn, slowly, from red to brown. Gnats spool
under the porch light in feverish tumbles. Your brother speaks
again about his son, your nephew.
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He says, He's all into acting, into painting his face and nails.
A good kid. But I'm worried, if you know what I mean. You look
at him as if you do not. He says, About girls. Oh, you say. You
recall some coworkers, not long ago, sniggering from another
lunch table. You recall leaving your sandwich uneaten and
walking to your car, where, pinned beneath the wiper blade, you
found the body of a feralprint butterfly.
Trying to free it you ripped a wing clean off, and then you went
home early. You showered and thought hard of quitting. The next
morning you called in sick and spent the day watching park
swans, and later, in bed, you dreamed of men in orangebilled
masks, men with whiteplumed backs.
Behind them, as always, the pale wax boy with gold tipped
fingers.
Sudden sweaty wakefulness.
Shuddering.
Stiff.
You say to your brother, He's young. Your brother nods. The
grill hisses and flicks hot lashes as he flips the steaks, a
sound as thin and taut as tripwire. You eat at a round table and
decline a second beer. Your brother eats an entire steak; his
wife pokes at a speckling of summer squash. Your own modest
portion you do not finish.
There's talk of your mother, how, as your brother puts it, she's
so glad you're spending time together, that you're both able to
get away. For you these last words hum with wonder. After dinner
there's a tray of chocolates, of which you eat four or five.
You've always had a sweet tooth, worsened with your slow,
lonesome aging.
Your brother falls asleep in a love seat, drink balanced on his
belly. His wife stitches at what might be a scarf while the TV
shows a war movie, shows men in green bursting red and white. At
a commercial the wife looks up at you, at her sleeping husband.
She says, This really does mean a lot to him.
You look at your hands. She says, He gets tired of hanging
around his drinking buddies. And of course it's always nice
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seeing family.To this you nod. Behind your eyes there are your
brother's friends, who you knew in childhood, who once walked
into your room as you played with mother's lipstick. There is
the ensuing routine of slapping and howling laughter, the sound
like crow frenzy as they forced lipstick to your lips. There is
your brother, waking you another night, bruised and blackeyed,
offering silence for silence: from mom, from everyone.
And there is the boy, one of the friends, who while the others
slept would come to your room, to your bed, where you'd sit
across each other in a blade of moonlight, where he'd ask to
touch faces with your secret golden paints. You think, There's
much, so much, you do not know. You say, You don't need to diet.
Your brother's wife quits stitching, smiles at you. She says,
That's between me and my double chin. You say, I don't see it.
She resumes her work. Curious smile on her lips, as if strained
by the compliment. She says, You can see it from the side. She
says, I can't take my picture in profile. You say nothing, and
the movie returns from commercial. Soldiers bust into a bleak
farmhouse. Rifles swing, interrogating the dark, while
bedraggled civilians cluster and cower.
A bearded man finds a trapdoor: lifts it, sinks himself into
shadowed secrecy. Your brother's wife puts down her work, swipes
a chocolate from the tray. She says, Orange Liqueur, and she
winks at you. Behind her the bearded man stands alone in dark
shelter. His eyes search upward, aware of the loud calamity he's
escaped.
A gunshot wakes your brother. Weirdest dream, he says. His wife
says, What happened? His eyes close, threatening sleep, but he
says, My son had no face. She says, We've all had that one. No,
your brother says. No. His wife takes him by the hand, leads him
away like a sleepy horse. She says goodnight to you with a
sweetness, and you murmur goodnight back, wait for the door. Pan
the TV volume down until it's barely there. The bearded man
emerges from the secret door, finds the farmhouse empty. And you
click the TV off.
What you've been waiting for. You sit in your room for an hour,
giving them time to fall asleep. Satisfied with the quiet you
pick the backpack up, check its weight in your hands. Exit
through a sliding door. Again to the lakefront. The water's
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black against clouded night. You set the backpack down on the
sand and open it. Then the package.
First you undress. Then you take the gold paint and the sequins
and the brush and you coat and bespeckle your entire body. As
you finish the moon peeks through a part in the clouds and you
glitter.
You think, He's spying on you. Smile at your distant glowing
onlooker. And, of course, you imagine the boy. Peeping through
the shades. Asking, Can I come in?
Next you take the belt of lead, which you have already covered
with paint and sequins. For now you hang it over your shoulder,
like game freshly killed. And you fish from the pack the pill
bottle. Give it a shake, as if it were a habit, and hear the
rattling sound.
With this you are ready. Across the lake an owl flutes soft
language. You dip a foot in cold water, followed by the other
foot. Walk until you must swim.
With one quivering hand you hold the belt and the pills above
your head. With the other you paddle. Soon you can no longer
feel the bottom, which is the aim. As you tread with your
legsdifficult with the cold, with the extra weightyou see
the cottage not far away, sleeping on the shore. Through the
windows a meek light flutters. By the sliding door sits the
grill.
You must work hard to stay afloat now and so you decide it's
time. Uncapping the bottle you pour the pills down your throat,
you raise your chin so you do not choke on the lake. The bottle
floats away from you, towards the cottage, bobbing, catching the
porch light in blinks of traffic orange. You watch it go, but
beyond it, you see the sliding door open. Your brother emerges,
stumbling to the porch rail. He holds a beer. Your last thought,
the thought ending all thought, as you put on the belt, as you
sink and blacken beneath poison and water, is this: I am the
deep and secret treasure, waiting to be found.
About The Artist: Benjamin Newgard grew up in Chapel Hill, North Carolina and
received his BA in English and American Literature from New York University in
2014, where he later returned to study with novelists Helen Schulman and Elissa
Schappell. Currently he resides in Portland, Oregon.
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Photograph By: Aaron Hayman
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Top Photograph: Aaron Hayman
Bottom Photograph: Gavin Knox
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Pieces
Michael Black
some women
smelt.
other
wrought.
nonetheless,
time
cools us both.
and i reconfigure
with my newest
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Floors
Michael Black
but how many
heart fools
have found me
lying on bathroom floors
too thin to breathe.
the thorn stem
of a black rose
clutched
between my teeth.
caution tattoos.
sirens aflash.
ice in my veins.
white in my eyes.
and just
stayed.
bundled me up
nevertheless
and brought me home.
fed me.
bathed me.
combed my hair.
studied my scars
and sucked my smoke.
and loved me
only to wake
one clear
still green morning
to a draft.
an open window.
and no one there.
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Reign
Antony Giese
If I could be God I would ask for your lighter, and pocket it
If I could be God I would open the fridge, and drink your last
beer
If I could be God I could know all your thoughts, and tell them
to everybody
If God were here he would probably break your heart, because he
knows all these cool tricks
Good Lord rain your glory on me
Good Lord rain your glory on me
Good Lord reign your glory on me
Since Satan won't pay attention to me
If I could be Satan I would tell you how to live, and then take
your life
If I could be Satan I would bring you some beer, that is non
alcoholic
If I could be Satan I might be good in bed, but I'm gonna beat
you
If Satan were here he would ignore us, because we are just not
that cool
Sweet Satan rain your spite on me
Sweet Satan rain your spite on me
Sweet Satan reign your spite on me
because what God offers isn't free
About The Artist: Antony Giese grew up in a small town in Northern Michigan.
The constant boredom and the doldrums of day to day life in a town of two
thousand people eventually led him to experiment with chemicals to escape the
realities of his life that was the later eighties and nineties brands of
evangelical Christianity. Eventually he discovered that writing while he was
high was a great way to express himself and dispel some of those anxieties he
had. He now lives in Portland Oregon and is drug free (except for those damn
cigarettes) and is hoping to share his experiences and thoughts with the rest
of you out there.
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Featured Artist Interview: Antoine Tiggart
Explain your relationship with your art: how did you first start
making art? Why do you continue to make art?
“I started taking photos at an early age I got my first camera at
the age of seven I’m thirtythree now but I loved to shoot everything
and everyone. My family would call my little paparazzi. I grew up in
Detroit MI so the art deco buildings were a pretty huge deal they were
everywhere. I just wanted to show people my take on the city and the
people in it.”
What inspires you the most?
“Shock and awe inspires me the most I like to create photos that
will make people wonder “how did he do that” and if I’m not taking a
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photo that is created from my imagination I like to take RAW photos
like a photojournalist because those create shock and awe as well.”
Is there an element of photography you enjoy working
with the most?
“It would be a toss up between depth of field and the lines in a
photo. Depth of field can drastically impact the composition of a
photo. Then lines have the power to draw the eye to key focal points
in a shot and it can impact the feel of a photo greatly.”
How do you know when a work is finished?
“That’s a tough question when it’s something from my imagination I
just get this feeling that I can’t explain but I know it’s done. If
it’s a photo for an agency most times they will have stuff laid out
for you and they know exactly what they want so once you do that you
know you’re done.”
Whose work do you relate to most? Who inspires you?
“I like to think that I relate to a lot of different people’s
work but someone that inspires me would have to be Brooke Shaden she
does a lot of selfportraits but it’s something different every time.
I love how much control she has over (each) shot.”
Where do you see your work taking you?
“I see my work taking me to places all over the world because
people would love to be apart of something that’s shocking and
awesome. I dream big because I want to do big things.”
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What do you think your work stands for?
In art, you don’t get to learn something you get to feel
something. I want people that see my work to feel what I feel in that
moment so in short my work stands for feelings.
Photograph By: Antoine Tiggart
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Carnival Of Wakefulness
Brandon R. Burdette
Jackals, wolves, hyenas — debauched cherubs, reprobate
magicians, conductors of umbrage — keepers of dungeons,
psychopaths of witching hours, brute freaks cruising alabaster
entrance halls — vile energies, unnumbered. Altered waltzes
evolve; vampireballets in ebony befall.
Superstructures give way, eruptions ensue, relatives alienate.
Roaming through a treasured volume …
At a forlorn intersection, she rocks as a portrait unhooked,
heartsick.
Aged avenues, homesick Operas, afterthoughts of archaic
appearances. Subjective retention is regrettable! The memory:
Grim campus! Ominous premises!
Smugness is doomed. Shaky that the ambition will not be
welcoming. Terrified that goodness will not be counterbalanced.
In an alcove of insomnia without parole. Hymns skate over stages
tailored in diamond. Chants bathe in seven seas of psyche,
subliminally. Iconoclastic undertakings of subconsciousness draw
nearer to vaults of Heaven.
Humanity depleted, imagination unappeasable …
Treadmills of silver, thawing alchemy, starless sorcery —
movements of magma advance on high — mesas dry heave.
Riot grrrls swell and stomp in stampedes, leaving
smoothtongued, selfrighteous sirs and cavaliers squashed,
flattened. Men that now mirror their brains. Situated justly,
smeared into streets.
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Freeways of figments are chauffeured by crackbrained wheelmen of
wakefulness. Arctic spasms greet and collar.
Comeliness, systematization — idiomatic bedrocks of radiancy;
boiling undercurrents — unsophisticated profundities.
Denounced by the invidious — I cogitate my soulmate and her
appraisal.
Bodies transpose in cadence to faraway cunningness. One eventful
ring of souring. I was entombed and disfavored; a seedbed of
fuss; zilch; nothing but a shipment; malnourished in
conciliation.
I puff my chest at the Sun as it balloons upward, enkindling the
void; as birds tweet around regenerated trees. The town yawns
and stretches, bracing for the dealings of the day. All
bloodsuckers and parasites scurry to rayless nooks. The vampires
back away, juggling substitute angels for midnight. Candlelight,
not daylight …
Massive fractions of skyline are slashed by astronomical steel
blades. Celestial flesh dangles, suspended and swinging …
Lawns of lilies launch, lost, loved, enraptured. Longlived,
graceless basements host moonless masterpieces on
phantomclavichords. Here, Beethoven is virginal. The closeness
of Calvary penetrates night and day against pains of sought
pocketing.
Though polluted, souls eschew the mire. Though contaminated,
spirits impersonate untaintedness.
Unrivaled Riot grrrl shares a diary and daybooks — she bawls. I
perch at the desk as my visitants circumvent overhead.
Wakefulness has me flinching at my own reflection.
I do not stew over anything or anyone that regards me
softheartedly. They that have my trust have my faith, my stock,
my heart, my goodwill, and my unsuspecting investiture.
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Goodbye
Brandon R. Burdette
I know a man who fashioned a palace, just to set fire to it.
Everything he needed — everything he desired — he already had.
Flowers cry out for sweettempered splashes — to be tenderly
watered.
The gardener, aggressive, is no gardener at all; he cultivates
nothing; he ends the life of his greenery by his hostile hand.
He cannot maintain control — he squanders carefulness,
safekeeping, mindfulness …
I shall see you in all places, in all things — in every breeze
I’ll feel you — in every space I’ll find you.
In splintered sleep, I’ll wrestle with your reflection.
On every tenspeed, I’ll catch sight of you soaring by,
unchained and free, as you were intended to be.
In every woman, in every volume, in every film, in every
significant instant, there you’ll be …
I led you within reach, and then close, through wholehearted
acceptance, unquestioning. I’ve hurled you off into a blackout,
through dismissal of your spirit; your nature, matchless … I
rejected who you are; refused you.
No one loves you as I do, and no one shall. No one wounds you as
I do, and no one shall.
My angel, slain by the blade of my own phobias.
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The regrets will be infinite …
My soulmate, morning, noon, and night …
My grrrl, forever; notwithstanding the stillness that lies in
wait for me … notwithstanding the limitless hush that
anticipates me …
Neither shall the hours, nor the years, put out the flame that
is my fondness for you — I see no other, despite my every
oversight.
I slipped, miscalculated, tuned you out.
My God, what have I done?
Always, you’ll remain my best friend; your value to me shall see
no end.
As I scribble these lines, I cry my eyes out; I whimper and
weep, different from the dog you know — unlike the mongrel who
has chewed and bitten you.
Tears which could never repay …
I know a man who fashioned a palace, just to set fire to it.
Everything he needed — everything he desired — he already had.
About The Artist: Brandon R. Burdette is a writer of prose and free verse
poetry. He currently resides in Los Angeles, CA. You can view more of Brandon’s
work at brb2015.wordpress.com
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Photograph By: Antoine Tiggart
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Like So Many Fonzis
RJ Wasser
There’s too much static
The insignificant speck cried
When faced with an endless question
That came in the shape of an autumn sky.
I haven’t a clue;
I don’t know why
Seemed to be the only responses he could find.
Stammering and Stuttering;
One of his notsoliteral feet has found its way to the gutter
While the other one happily resides
Within his ass.
It’s only in the figurative,
But like so many Fonzis;
A simple “Aaay” will suffice in lieu of reason
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Ode To The Worlds Little Noises
RJ Wasser
The madness relents
As the remorse swells
Into a raucous whisper
...after all…
The silence is deafening;
That void you always filled
With fairweathered friends
And senseless brickabrak
Can only serve to stifle
The remaining pieces of you,
Those with any worth that is,
In exchange for another FB like
Or some false peace of mind.
About The Artist: RJ Wasser is the author of an anthology of poetry titled
“WithoutHeadlights: Living Life Like You Had a Deathwish” and another
anthology of short stories and poetry titled “The Cover Up”. He’s an English
major at Cedar Crest College, specializing in Creative Writing. Ryan
previously served in the United States Air Force as an Inspection Technician
and the United States Army as a Forward Observer. You can read samples of his
work at his personal website www.withoutheadlights.com or his blog, Regimented
Rebellion, at https://wasserrj.wordpress.com/
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