I RISE

Janice Davis

of who I was. I was just doing what everyone wanted
me to do. Whatever my husband asked me to do I did
it. Whatever my children wanted me to do I tried to
do it. But I never ever did what I wanted to do. I went
to the movies they wanted to see. I dined at the
restaurants they preferred. I simply followed along.
That’s what you do when you don’t know your
identity. You just follow along. You want to satisfy
everyone. Remember I told you that when you are
plagued with the spirit of rejection it causes you to try
to please everyone.

My life revolved around cleaning, cooking,
cheering my children on at different grade-school
games and some college games, band concerts, award
ceremonies, and church functions. When I wasn’t
doing that, I was preaching, praying for the saints
and ministering to their spiritual and even natural
needs, counseling people (while in need of a
counselor). I did this non-stop – all the while not
knowing or even realizing my identity. I tried to be
everything to everybody, except myself. Don’t say I
am too hard on myself. I am only sharing with you
my truth. Some people would occasionally tell me I
was being too hard on myself. But no one ever told
me I needed help. No one would come flat out and

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simply say, ‘Janice, sit down and get healed.’ They
just made jokes at my unknowingly bad attitudes.

I wore many hats and bore many titles but at
the end of each day I was only to those people who
they needed me to be and what they thought I ought
to have been to them.

Recovering My Identity
After my divorce, I went through an intense

two years of healing. It was the beginning of
removing many layers of pain, hurt, rejection,
betrayal, disrespect, abuse, loneliness, mental and
emotional fatigue, and more. After going through
those years of healing God began to show me where I
was (“Adam, where art thou?”), and what I really
looked like. It was hurtful. I was ashamed and
embarrassed. I felt like a failure. But I know God
was only revealing those things for three reasons: (1)
because He loved me; (2) so I could see what had
happened in my life, (3) to be able to help others. It
was now time for me to really step up to the plate and
be who God called me to be. I didn’t have anything to
cover my issues any more. I had to pray daily, “Lord,
help me to resist going back to that old Janice.” Daily I
asked Him to help me. I failed many, many times but

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I never gave up. I kept getting back up after every fall
and failure. I saw God gradually take certain attitudes
and behaviors out of my life. It took time but it was
worth it all.

Never hurry or rush God to fix anything that He
shows you is needed. However long it may seem to
take, a thorough process of change will propel you
into a new adventure in life and a new place in God. I
felt whole. I felt a joy I had not experienced in 33
years. I had a true and real peace - one that I cried to
have but now I finally have it. My entire life changed
before my very eyes. So amazing! I now see people
differently. My spirit is quiet. I am not so quick to
get upset. I have learned to love people for who they
are not who I want them to be. My mind is healed,
my emotions are healed, my attitude is changed, my
love is now genuine. It is so sad to be blind to who you
are because of these issues. Once whole you have sight
and insight, your internal environment changes; your
external environment positively responds.

When we do not know our identity, we have no
idea of our self-worth. We don’t know who we are or
who we can even become. We exist but we are not
living. I am talking about that life of abundance that

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Jesus gave to us. Jesus said, “I am come that they
might have life, and that they might have it more
abundantly.” (John 10:10b).

Living In Fullness Everyday (LIFE)
We hear all the time about self-worth and

valuing ourselves. But if we don’t get rid of those
issues that we have been speaking about, we will hear
about those issues, but not know how to be released
from them. We must see ourselves, accept personal
responsibility and say, ‘that’s me’. Get serious about
it. Commit to the process of change. Refuse to go
back into that place, shut out all negative words and
speak positive words to yourself daily!!!

Genesis 1:27 “So God created man in His own image, in the
image of God created He him; male and female created He
them.”

God created us so that He could be seen in us. God
lives in us. He moves in us and we have our being in Him.

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Others are to know God through our character and
authority which is His ‘Image’. We are spiritual beings -
not only body but soul and spirit. (see 1 Thessalonians 5:23)
We should never be pleased to dwell on a level of existence
lower than that on which God has made it possible for us to
dwell. We should strive to be the best we can be and to
reach the highest levels we can reach.

Everyday make declarations over yourself: Say who
you really want to be. Call those things that be not as
though they already are. (see Romans 4:17). Speak into
existence who you want to become. Stop saying I am tired
and start opening your mouth and decree to yourself.
Speak into the atmosphere and change your environment.
SPEAK!!! Death and life is in the power, (influence) of your
tongue. (see Proverbs 18:21). To sit and never do anything
about your situation when you have been divinely given all
rights, all power to change is lifeless. It is worthless. It is to
give up and give in to defeat. We win, we have already
won! Stand your ground, state your claim, sign your name
and walk into your wealthy place!!!

Never forget who God has called you to be.
Remember, regardless where you have fallen short, know
that God loves you in spite of. Forgive yourself and forgive
others. Then GOD will forgive you.

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Epilogue

A Choice

I had to make a choice – a choice to be happy or stay sad. I
didn’t know how to be happy or if I needed to be happy. I
had been in that place so long that any happiness I thought
I had was not real. I did not know what real joy or
happiness was like. I had remained in a life of misery so
long because that’s all I knew how to do. This made
everyone around me miserable and unhappy. I had to
make a choice when I heard God’s voice telling me to come
out: “Enough is enough,” He said. He told me that I must
come out and live - that if I continued to stay in the
marriage, I would die because I was on the verge of a
nervous break-down; that I had to make a choice now! This
choice was one of the most difficult choices I have had to
make in my entire life.

I needed to be happy for once in my life. I was sad all the
time. I didn’t know how to have real joy and happiness. I
was very unhappy. People thought I was happy because of
the humorous facade that I would falsely present. But it
wasn’t real to me. It was only real to the people that were
in my circle at that moment, and it was only them that
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walked away the same way I came before them. They
enjoyed the humor that was being offered to them, but I
remained in the same miserable state of mind.

Happiness must be cultivated just like our character. It is
not a thing that can be left alone. I basically had everything
a wife or mother could want. He gave me whatever I
wanted but he didn’t know how to make me happy.
Sometimes we think “things” are what’s most important.
If I had this or that I would be happy. I had top-of-the-line
furniture, I wore some of the most expensive clothes but
none of those things made me happy. They could not heal
my broken heart, my bleeding heart, my low self-esteem.
Those things could not stop my aches and pains.

My ex gave me those things to pacify me. He did not
understand that, in my mind, my marriage was not based
on material things. When we got married all we had was
a transitional radio. We did not have a car, a house nor
apartment. We got married and I went back to my father’s
house. He left and went back to Fort Benning, Georgia
where he was stationed. My mindset was, if I married you
without those material things, why do you feel the need to
think that if you give me everything I ask for I will be
alright with you sleeping around with any- and everybody
and physically beating me?

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I had to find happiness within myself and I could only do
that when I made a choice to live free from hurt,
embarrassment, disrespect, harm and hurt. Our lives are
what we make it. We must take charge of it. No one will do
it for you. Even after the Lord spoke to me and told me to
come out of the marriage I still had to make a choice, take
charge and come out!

We must start affirming what and who God says we are. We
must embrace a positive perception of our beauty, our
intelligence, our self-worth, and our value and believe
these affirmations. Jesus was a prime example of this. He
called Himself the Lily of the Valley, the Rose of Sharon,
The Prince of Peace and the Lord of Lords; He said ‘I Am
that I Am’.

There is only one way to be Happy and that is to stop
worrying about things which are beyond our ability to
change. Therefore, we have to look to Jesus to help us enter
that state of ‘happiness’. Our mind and body have the
power to self-heal when we move out of the way. We have
a physical side and a spiritual side. We must work on the
physical while God works on the spiritual. We must submit
to the Way and the Will of God.

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You won’t need to go around telling people that God has
changed you and how you are ‘just so blessed and highly
favored of God’. They will see the glow in your skin, the
brightness in your eyes. It will be evident in your speech.
Your whole demeanor will be different. Others will see the
transformation. It will speak for itself: This is a person who
made the right choice, a person who made the choice to be
happy.
Now that you have tried it your way, done all you think you
know to do, try it this way. Make the choice to live.
Choosing is as much about what you refuse as what you
choose. Refuse to remain unhappy. Refuse to settle for
being mistreated or ignored and rejected. Stand up for
yourself and

LIVE!

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From the Ashes of Life

I Rise from those places of failure.
I Rise from the dark places of insecurities.
I Rise from those areas of hurt and rejections.
I Rise from those places of loneliness.
I Rise from those feelings of being ashamed of being
divorced.

I Rise from that place of heartache and heart-break.
I Rise from being judged by people who did not know me;
who did not understand me.

I Rise from physical and mental abuse.
I Rise from feeling unloved by
someone I truly loved.

I Rise from the pain of the sting of death.
I Rise from those moments of lack

From the Ashes of Life
I rise up, I rise up

I RISE!!!!!

Apostle Janice Davis Cammon

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Janice Davis is an apostle Deliverance Ministry that has
whose time has come. She is ministered healing and liberty
the founder and pastor of to countless women
World Renowned Internat’l throughout the Central Texas
Ministries located in Leander, region.
Texas. A native of Clanton,
Alabama, Apostle Davis has The I Rise Community
lived in a myriad of cities from Women’s Outreach meets the
America to Europe and now first Monday of the month at
resides in Harker Heights, TX. 7pm throughout the year at
the Shiloh Inn Hotel and
At the leading of the Holy Conference Center located at
Spirit, Apostle Davis founded 3701 South W S Young
“I Rise”, a community-based Drive, Killeen, TX 76542.
Women’s Outreach and

To request Apostle Davis for ministry engagements or to purchase CDs,
please submit an email request to: [email protected].

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