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Published by kierra, 2021-04-09 00:32:50

Emotional Black Guy

Emotional Black

EMOTIONAL

BLACK GUY

COLLECTION OF POETRY + JOURNAL

ERIC THOMPSON, JR.

Et quunt anistrum ium is siti repeliqui

Published By Eternal Royalty Publications Copyright 2021 by Eric Thompson,
Jr.

All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted
in any form by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying,
recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system, without permis-
sion in writing from the publisher.

ISBN:
WWW.ERICTHOMPSONJR.COM
FACEBOOK: ERIC THOMPSON JR
INSTAGRAM: ERIC_THOMPSONJR
EMAIL: [email protected]

Dedication

INTRODUCTION

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to look at life for what it really was. The loss of a parent is
something that paralyzes you, it’s as if your heart is literally
being ripped out of your chest.

For years I’ve been trying to recover my sanity that left me
when my mother died. I have lived the past nineteen years
from a fear driven and trauma based mindset. With every
accomplishment I have acquired I’ve also been sadly reminded
that something’s missing. Not just something, someone, the
woman whose womb I was cultivated in. I often wonder
what our relationship would be like and how my life would
have turned out had she still been here. I sporadically see her
in my dreams and it feels so real that waking up becomes a
literal nightmare. That saying that time heals all wounds is
false. I won’t act like I’m ok now that life has kept on for me.
What I will say is that I’ve been forced to be ok, what’s the
alternative?

When I lost my mama I also lost my mind and I’m on a
mission to recover it.

Welcome to my search for sanity!

These following poems all represent phases I’ve been through
at some point along my journey. I hope that everyone
reading this work is changed for the better. My goal is to
plant seeds of love, hope, laughter, fulfillment, redemption,
joy and satisfaction. I included questions with each poem in
order to provoke my readers’thoughts and to make this work
a conversation piece.

Eric Thompson, Jr.

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I’m Sane

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Mommy Issues

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What’s fear??

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Thinking, dear God why did this happen to me
Over the years I’ve learned to deal with the trauma
Pops held us down, but we still miss our Mama
Now I Blame It On The Music
It provided me a sense of therapy and eased my heartache
I learned what strength really was and that I possess an infinite
amount
If you like anything I’ve said feel free to check my first book out
WWW.ERICTHOMPSONJR.COM
I appreciate you all for allowing me to conquer one of my fears
And helping me release things I’ve kept bottled up for years
Thank You!!

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I’m Sorry, kanneka

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Im sorry Kenneka!
Everybody involved deserves to die
Let their parents grieve as her mother cries
Im sorry Kenneka!
We’ve gotta take a stand, today’s the perfect time
She was taken advantage of, no more blind eyes
Im sorry Kenneka!
I didn’t realize until I became a fully grown man
That all these young girls are dealt this horrible hand
Im sorry Kenneka!
How the hell isn’t this national news all over the world
A bunch of cowards taking the innocence of these young girls
Im sorry Kenneka!
Rape culture is kept alive by worthless guys
Too many mothers hold it under disguise
Im sorry Kenneka!
I stand here today in pain, I’m sick of the slaughter
I’ll put my life on the line to protect our daughters
I’m sorry Sha’Meka, Rae’Nesha, Aliyah, Ty’Maiya
And to any girl or woman who has had to deal with these evil
fools that feel entitled to your body
Im sorry!
Rape or molestation will not be tolerated. We have to take a
stand to eradicate this sickness. I stand here today while you
witness
We’re not tolerating it anymore!

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The person is snatched right away

Have you ever said goodbye to your mom, not knowing it would
be the final one?

Have you ever dreamed about your friend randomly one night
and get the call he

was murdered the next night?

Have you ever sat in the car while your dad got the call that his
mother has passed

away? Or another car ride where your pops pulls over and started
to cry?

Have you ever been stripped of your innocence and forced to
grow up

prematurely?

I have and I wouldn’t wish any of that on my worse enemy!

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The strength I’ve had to display makes me seek somone who’s unsel-
fish and understanding
It’s tough because as a man we’re taught that the woman is the prize
and I agree
they really are a gift from God. I just feel like I want someone to be
eagerly excited to get to know the real me as well.
I want to tell my innermost thoughts and feelings and not be judged
for them.
I want someone to listen to my silence and understand every word.
I know for a fact that there’s a woman out there for me who will be
everything I need and want.
Now I just have to have to exercise patience and keep getting better
as an individual.

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I just wonder where the bullets go
Wait officer there’s no need to draw your gun
We’re just on our way out to have some fun
I just wonder where the bullets go
He let off a warning shot, then two, then three
I think that gun was aimed at me
Hey that’s not where the bullets go
Where’s all that blood coming from and what’s with the cuffs?
Vision is getting blurry, am I hit or what?
Hey that’s not where the bullets go
My body is a temple, created and assembled to be treated like royal-
ty. My identity was formed before I got here. There’s no room for
bullets in my armor and I won’t accept them.
Youre going to find somewhere else for the bullets to go

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Dear Hip Hop

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Born sinning, tired of the restrictions.
Quit attending church and being a slave to religion
Nobody understands, so a million questions I have pending
Not inspired to pick up the Bible
While we’re on the subject, isn’t jesus an idol?
Rappers aren’t to be worshipped or praised
I Blame It On The Music, it helped me on those rough days
Don’t ever shame something you can’t understand
We are more than just fans, shout out to Hip-Hop man!

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