Thoughts

THOUGHTS

The Each Otherness

Nobody in this world is perfect. That is why humans need
each other so that they can complete each other.
The each otherness is to perfect the imperfections, to
remove flaws within each individual and to prove that love
is fundamental in having a healthy long-lasting
companionship. Love is described as an intense feeling
and deep affection between humans, hence humans need
each other.

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White Lies

Have you told anyone white lies? Or have you been told white
lies by anyone? A white lie is often considered as a harmless or
trivial lie, especially to avoid hurting someone's feeling. But a
white lie can cost someone a fortune. It can lead to an endless
mess and can cause someone to lose their loved ones once the
lies they told unsealed, ruptured.
Wise men said ‘truth is stranger than fiction’.
My take is that truth sometimes tastes bitter that one had to
tell a lie to hold back someone else’s tears. This is when a white
lie finally turns into a dark reality.

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Letting Go

Emotions are something unique. You cannot see them
yet you can feel them. There are good emotions and bad
emotions. It is good to keep the feeling of the good
emotions and it is undoubtedly bad to hang onto the bad
emotions. Do not dwell into your past too much. For you
to be able to diminish the bad emotions, you need,
however, firstly to feel them, recognise them and attach
them to your mind and soul.
Keep in your mind that,
‘This is pain. This is what it feels like when the heart has
broken. I need to keep this feeling recognisable by my
mind and soul so that when I get the same feeling, I
wouldn’t be completely shocked from thinking and
trying to recognize the feeling. I need to learn how to
handle myself when I get this kind of feeling’.
When you have gone through all the phases, then and
only then you could detach all the feelings of the bad
emotions completely.

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Forgive and Forget

Forgive and forget are two distinct elements which are equally
important in decorating a beautiful positive attitude in life. It
might be easy to forgive than to forget.
Why it is so hard to forget?
Well, that is probably because you have learnt. You have learnt
from your mistake of putting your extra faith in particular
somebody that they then betrayed you – and the betrayal
somehow left a rigid mark in you.
You have learnt from it that you would be extra cautious from
making the same mistake ever again. But when you make the
same mistake, it does not mean that you have never learnt. It
just that you’ve slipped a bit from the track you are crawling on.
The important thing is rather to move on with positivity so that
you could lead a peaceful life despite the slip.

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Three Phases

Yesterday
Your heart shattered into pieces
You were heartbroken
You cried
Today
You wake up to swollen eyes
Just how much tears streamed down your face
No one knows
Tomorrow
You promise yourself to move forward
You decide to bury your grief and sorrow permanently
You have come to realize
For every time rain is pouring
Rainbow and sunshine are waiting.

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It Is Okay

It is okay to feel not okay.

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Happiness

Happiness is a mental or emotional state of well-being defined by
positive or pleasant emotions ranging from contentment to intense
joy. Happy mental states may also reflect judgements by a person
about their overall well-being.
Source: Wikipedia

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Happiness Is…

• Happiness is feeling content with whatever you have.
• Happiness is seeing your loved ones smiling, and knowing

that you are the reason behind their smiles.
• Happiness is getting good grades in your examinations.
• Happiness is making your parents proud of you.
• Happiness is falling in love.
• Happiness is knowing that your efforts and hard works paid

off.
• Happiness is knowing the fact that somebody out there love

you despite your imperfections.
• Happiness is realizing that you could mean so much to

someone.
• Happiness is knowing that people would spare their time just

for you.
• Happiness is when you get butterflies in your stomach.
• Happiness is when your stress is relieved.
• Happiness is knowing the fact that you could lift up

someone’s burden and making them happy by your actions
and affections.

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Smile

When you wake up every morning, do
not forget to always wear a smile on
your face because you’ll never know
how your smile could change one’s
mood.

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Time Bomb

Happiness earned by deceit is nothing but a time bomb.
It will never last long, and is dangerous too.

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Past, Present and Future

Do not dwell in the past.
The past is to be cherished,
The present is to be lived within,
For a better future we are directing to.

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Of Success

Success does not come in handy. It requires
patience, sacrifices and lots of hard work, should
one to strive for it.

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Believe

To achieve something, it is important for you to first
believe in yourself.

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The Best Out of You

Nobody knows and understands the best out of you.
Only you do.

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The Importance of Knowing

It is important to know as well as understand whatever you are
doing at the moment for you to be able to bottle up your guts
and finish what you have started.

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‘A’ Game

Always bring in your ‘A’ Game.

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Enjoy

Enjoy your defeat as much as you do with your victory.

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Fall

It is okay to fall.
Turn it as an excuse for you to wake up and fight again.

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Future

Whatever you have become today,
It does not define your future entirely.

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Difficulties

When you think you had everything figured out but it
turns out to be as not what you have expected, keep in
mind that even roads have bumps and holes.

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Giving Up

Feel like giving up?
Think about the fruits of success you will be having soon.

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South

When things go south,
Reroute your direction.

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Hardships

All the hardships you are encountering today will be one
of the best memories you will cherish tomorrow while
celebrating your life accomplishments.

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Silence and Noise

Work in silence.
Let your victory make some noises.

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Of Poetries and Thoughts

When thoughts are given souls.

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Thoughts

thought1
THôt
Noun
1. An idea or opinion produced by thinking or occurring suddenly
in the mind.
2. The action or process of thinking.
3. The formation of opinions, especially as a philosophy or
system of ideas, or the opinions so formed.

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Birthday Boy

Of round-shaped chocolate cake,
Of unlit candles of which the numbers has increased by one since
the last time
Of empty chairs
Of balloons hanging on the wall
Of colourful hats neatly arranged on the table cloth
Of empty porcelain saucers
Like many years before
The boy sits there in silence
On an old wooden chair adjacent to the round table
No surprise nor gift
Nor people nor appetite
Like many years before
He acts like the cool Han Solo
Minus his 200 years old Chewbacca
‘Cause he only has his little antic toy car
No matter how luxurious it may seem
The cake, candles, confetti, balloons and all
The missing essence of people
And happiness and serenity
Could not make it up for him
He is a birthday boy who is not cherished or cheered
He is a birthday boy with no joy
Like many years before
He finger crosses for the next year to be better

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Like We Have Never Loved At All

Remember all those days
When you and I become a ‘we’
When whatever yours were mine and mine were yours
When we walked hand in hand
When our faces flushed every time we called out each other’s names,
Every time we looked at each other at the square dining table,
When the three magical words of ‘I love you’ was our mantra,
When we soothed each other just by a simple chitchat that we had,
My laugh was your lullaby and yours was my symphony
My smile is your therapy and yours was my remedy.
Notice these days
When everything has turned upside down
No more sweet talks or the chit and the chat
We are still in each other’s arms
But only the physiques not the minds
Mine on the ceiling and yours on the TV
It is never a break that we need
Because at the end of the day
We still lock our fingers while sleeping
Reading our magical mantra instead of goodnight kisses
We surely live on different dimensions
Where all the talking is done by simply a gesture
We know we need each other
That must the reason why
We live like we have never loved at all.

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Stay

We thought we would make it through
We thought we would never be separable
We thought we would grow old together
We thought we have given each other enough attention,
Enough affection,
We thought our love is chock-full of passions
One thing we did it wrong
We never understand each other
One thing we did it wrong
We always avoid from communicating
One thing we did it wrong
We had never realized that
We had always right away jumped into conclusions
We decided to give it a break
We decided to put a kibosh on us
Though we never want it to end that way
Though we always want each of us to stay
Though none of us ever voice it out
So that the other person is notified
Not an ending that we need.

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Perhaps

Perhaps they are not meant to be together
Perhaps it is written in the stars that they don’t belong together
Perhaps loving someone means to take every lesson from each
other
Perhaps they have to take a long route to reach the final point
Perhaps their wildest dream is just a nightmare
Perhaps truth is stranger than fiction
Perhaps when they wake up on the next day
These countless melancholies will all be long gone.

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Sorry

When sorry is a mere word
Uttered only to fill the void
Uttered only as an act of pleasing
Uttered only to rubbish the awkwardness
Between the two people or more
When sorry is out of sincere
The feeling is transparent
On the face of the doer
The one at another end is only given two options
Either to let go and forget
Or to let go and far from forgetting
Or perhaps another alternative
To never let go and never forget
Maybe the best selection is none of the first two
When you opt to go with the third.

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What Is the Point?

What is the point of loving when all I have to do is sacrificing?
What is the point of loving when all I have to endure is pain?
What is the point of loving when at the end you’d be leaving me
behind?
What is the point of loving when I’m the only one who stay loyal
and kind?

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I Thought It Is Okay

I thought it is okay to make mistakes
I thought it is okay to be hurt
I thought it is okay to be disgraced
I thought it is okay to not be loved
It thought it is okay to be left out
I thought it is okay to feel the unfairness
I thought it is okay to feel the pain
I thought it is okay to pretend to be something that I’m not
I thought it is okay to be okay

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You Took A Chance

You took a chance to love someone
By opening your heart
By giving them some space inside your fragile heart
By holding them really dear in your soul
Hoping that they could do the same in return
Hoping that you will be appreciated
Too bad they grassed you
Too bad they did not love you back
Too bad they only thought of you
Only when they were struggling through hardships
You took a chance to forgive someone
By forgetting their mistakes
By erasing your sorrow and grief
Out of your mind and soul
Yet they never get back to you
To return all the loves you gave them
Yet they never apologize
After all the worst they made you into
You took a chance
You know you have learnt some valuable lessons
That life is not just about giving and taking
But more than that
That you could and should have seen.

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Selfish

Oh how selfish they are
Asking for some rain when there is enough sunshine
Cursing the little rain when the sun goes hiding
Wanting their expectations to be true right at the moment
Pissing the realities that are not adapted to their personalities
Desire for some more when they have more than enough
Desire for just a little when that more is granted
Oh how selfish they are.

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Careful

Be careful with your words,
They could snap someone’s heart and feelings.
Be careful with your actions,
They could turn into something that climb against you.
Be careful with someone’s heart,
They are not yours to poke and play with.

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Never Enough

You give all the love you posses
But it would never enough
You give all the time you have
But it would never enough
You give all of your attention
But it would never enough
It is never sufficient
When you want to suffice ones’ contemplation
Because we live in a world where
Everything seems imperfect until you lose it.

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Little Was Enough

When you get little, you want more.
When you get more, you desire even more.
But when you lose everything,
You realize that little was enough.

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Goodbye

We have never been great at goodbyes.

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Moving On

When you had grown accustomed to certain feelings –pain,
heartache, jealousy, at some point, you are no longer can feel them.
It is the time where you had moved on, which is one the many
hardest things to do in your life.

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Memories Made

Grieves and regrets,
They are memories made.

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Darkest Light

Few steps taken
As he strolls down the street
He stops momentarily
He looks up to the sky
In many lights showering upon him
He could only see the darkest star
He transitions his head down
And up again before turning his head
To the left and right
He stares at the lamp poles emptily
And at the newspaper stands
There are too many lights in the city
But he is trying to look for a polar opposite
He closes his eyes
Imagining the many lights are gone
And in the darkness he breathe in
For a brief serenity he is attaining

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So That

So that I’d grow accustomed to the darkness
I’d turn off the lights and lampstands
So that I’d grow accustomed to the coldness
I’d turn on every fan and throw away my cashmere blanket
So that I’d grow accustomed to silence
I’d plug some earpieces into my ears
So that I’d grow accustomed to being alone
I’d lock myself in a room and stare at the ceiling
So that I’d grow accustomed to lessening the talking
I’d listen to some random sad songs
Rhyme the melody and scream the lyrics within my empty soul
So that I’d grow accustomed to vision beautiful things
I’d photograph everything I see and jog my memories
So that I’d grow accustomed to wild imagination
I’d let my feelings take control my mind and likewise
And let them sometimes be out of sync
So that I’d grow accustomed to being left behind
I’d hold my tears and pain in every sense possible
So that I’d grow accustomed to not letting people down
I’d rather keep my rant within myself
When I know someday all of them will eventually burst
So that I’d grow accustomed to whatever I perceive
I’d never live my life to somebody’s liking
Because what’s the point of living your life
When you are not matter at all.

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Fallen

I have fallen in love once
And I’m done with it.
I was not in my right mind for letting the emotion
To take control of my whole life.
Now that I get my life back,
I have decided to get married to pizza.

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Colours

Blood is red,
Sky is blue,
Remember that,
There is someone who will always love you.

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Be Your Everything

He says
Be the queen of my heart
And I will be your everything
Together we rule the world
Of our love is the kingdom
Our passion is the weapon
Made of bricks of trust
Walled by desire not lust
He says
Be the queen of my soul
And I will be your everything.

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On Top of the World

He is someone on top of the world
Not only is he never done with trying
He gains success in a matter of time
He is someone on top of the world
Not only is he a giver
He values whatever he gets in return
He is someone on top of the world
Not only is he sincere
He has a heart that as pure
He is someone on top of the world
Not only has he claimed his crown as a king
He thrones his lady as the queen

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When Love Is in the Air

When love is in the air
Joy
Happiness
Everything seems perfect
Sorrow
Lonely
Troubles are long gone.

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When We Old and Grey

When we old and grey
If I lost direction
Would you be my navigation?
When we old and grey
If I go insane
Would you still love me the same?
When we old and grey
If everybody goes against me
Would you still walk with me?
When we old and grey
The promise we made
Would you still be keeping it?
When we old and grey
If anything ever happened to me
Would you stay with me
And tell me our stories endlessly?

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Same Old Love

Under the shady tree
Near the paddy field
Sharing the same old blanket
Breeze whispering
Hands cold
Freezing slices of pizza
Hot chocolate in a mug
Two hearts
Same old love
They keep it youthful

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