Letters to my Love

To My Eternal Soulmate and Love of My Life
“Lets make a special vow to never leave each other’s side, no matter what.” BDB
March 22, 2015 - January 18, 2016


Honey,
Honey, I love you more than anything in the universe. I am sending you this because I know you can feel me. I gave your crystals to your brother. One is still here with me and I'm channeling all my strength to you. You are my entire world honey and I know you will make it through and we will live a beautiful life. This happened to bring all of us together finally. Your family is wonderful. I wish I could be closer to them now.
March 22, 2015


Darling,
Darling there's not a second that goes by that I don't pray for your return. I am nothing without you and I would trade my life for yours if I could. Please come back to us and let me hold u again. I couldn't imagine a closer thing then to heaven if I could just hold you again. You are everything to me and I'm dying without you. There are prayers in churches and temples going on daily around the world for your return. Please tune in to them, prepare to re enter this Saturday, as that seems to be a good safe time. I am here by your side forever. I love you eternally.
March 25, 2015


My Love,
My love im dying without you and they sent me home today. I wanted to stay to be with you when u awaken. They have not allowed me to see you for even a minute. My heart is broken and I need you to come back to us. I'm lying in our bed with tigee looking at the picture of the dock at moorings. I can still remember every frame. I know our destiny is to be together so I know you will re enter. I don't know anything anymore other than you are my heartbeat and I am yours. I hope you can hear the code of my signals to you. I'm forever grateful for our love and I will go to the deepest parts of the universe to find you. All the cards you wrote me are on our bed. You are the most beautiful being I've ever encountered and I know once we are reunited things will be better than ever. I love you infinitely for all eternity. Nothing can break us nor separate us. We are one soul. I know you will pass over soon and you will be in your spot soon. I'm here for you every single second.
March 28, 2015


Love of my life,
Good morning love of my life. I just want you to know that in every breath I take I think of you. I know deep in my heart that we will reunite soon. I'm as certain as Robin Williams in What Dreams May Come. Nothing can separate us ever I promise. Every gifted person, Rabbi or teacher I know can see you and I know you are in a safe place right now. I am certain that God has the best plan for all of us. I'm also certain he wants us to really be together without any obstacles. I'm certain he wants you to reunite with your family too. I love you and I will wait for you till the end of time if I needed to. I love you with every particle in me.
He can feel you too.
March 28, 2015


My Love,
My love I wanted to tell you that I played the gong for you earlier today and told you how much I loved you. All of a sudden I felt this warm chilling feeling throughout my body similar to my dad's energy on Passover last year. It just felt like your spirit touched me today. I can feel you gently reawakening soon and I want you to know there's not a second that goes by without me thinking of you. You have my heart forever. I love you, please talk to me tonight in my dreams. Just speak to me and I will hear you.
March 28, 2015


My Love,
Tigee and I have been cuddled for days just tuning in to you. I love you soo much and can't wait to hold you again soon.
My love we are all asking God to bring you back soon. He told us he would so I know you will. Just keep resting and healing darling and when you are ready we will be here waiting for you. I trust in God's plan for all that happened and I know deep in my heart that our souls will not be separated in this lifetime. We have come this far and we just began our journey. I love you infinitely and will never let you down.
March 30, 2015


"Here comes the sun, here comes the sun and I say it's alright." I love you sending you all my strength darling. I love you, I love you.
March 31, 2015


Audio 1
April 01, 2015


My Love,
My love, my beauty, my everything. I'm sitting here on the beach alone without you. It's been exactly two weeks since we were having the most beautiful morning swim off of our favorite sandbar. We were navigating back towards the beach and all of a sudden I was woken up by Coast Guards and you were laying next to me unconscious. We were placed in separate ambulances and I have never been able to see you since although I begged and tried with everything in me. I know you can feel me because I can feel you. All I want is you to awaken soon when you feel you have the strength. I must of blacked out for some reason and then our boat headed straight for a sea wall. There had never been more than 8 hours that we had not spoken since we met. This has been the hardest 2 weeks in my life. You are my entire world and I know you will wake up soon. I believe enough in our fate and I have been sending you all my love and strength continually. When you awaken please insist to your family that I can come see you. They will need to hear it from you. They know about our relationship now just be truthful. I am dying without you and my world has stopped till you return and I can put my heart on your heart again and charge. Do not be scared darling as God always has a divine and more complex plan than we can sometimes see. I love you infinitely and will always be by your side I promise. I love you, I love you, I love you.
never abandon you and I will always love you love was born prior to this lifetime and its are forever imbedded in the universe. I love
April 03, 2015
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My Lovee,
My lovee its almost my bday now and tomorrow is Easter. Tigee and I miss you soo much it's unexplainable. I hope you can try and use this energy to come back to us. My mom and I spent 7 hours in temple and church today. I got to hold the Torah again and they put your name on the list for healing. I've asked everyone I know literally to pray and send God messages to send you back to me. I know you can hear me because today you touched me and held me as I was holding the Torah. I just want you to know that I love you more than I ever even knew was possible. You are my life, my sword, my keeper and my soulmate. Our journey just started again in this lifetime and I know we will complete it this time. I promise you I will be the best person I can ever be to you and there's nothing I won't do for you. All I want to do is marry you in chamonix and give you the most beautiful gift of love forever. I love you so incredibly much I cannot exist without you. Please come back so our souls can hold each other again. I can't bare this pain and I'm being so strong.
April 04, 2015


Audio 2
April 05, 2015


My darling,
My darling I'm dying here without you. I'm trying to be so strong but it's so hard. I know you can feel me talking to you and I want you to know how much I love you. Please come back to us soon lovee. Please talk to me in my dreams tonight. Please communicate with me. I love you with every fiber in me. Please wake up baby.
April 07, 2015


Audio 3
April 8, 2015


My Love,
My love, essence, my spirit and my force, I'm now sitting on our beach again and it's been exactly 3 weeks since our beautiful morning swim. I heard you're now responding to commands and smiling so nothing makes me more happy than to hear this. I know it's been a long journey my love and I know your almost here now. I'm reading our texts from the first couple weeks again. I've had them on my bed since I got home. You sent me this from Maya Angelou " I've learned that making a living is not the same as making a " life" I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart I usually make the right decision." I know we have all these qualities and that our intentions with each other have always been for the better good of everything. That is why I know God will reunite us and has spared our lives. I love you with every single atom in me, you are the essence of my composition and I cry and await patiently for you to return. I look at all the sand on our beach and realize you are my enter beach, my refuge, my captain, my true soulmate. I wish I was by your bedside all this time holding your hand but I wasn't allowed. I tried with with every fibre in me to reach out to you every minute and send you all that I behold in me to give you the strength to return. Thank you for always loving me and I will never ever let you down. I am here by your side, visible or not visible always with you. I love you, I love you, I love you throughout infinity and its trillions of endless cycles. Born as one and will always be as one.
April 10,2015


My love I'm here sitting on our beach again waiting for you and waiting for the sun. I'm in so much pain not being able to come see you. I know if I could hold your hand you would of felt me a long time ago. It's breaking me inside that I can't be there but I'm staying strong and I know you know this. I'm by your side in every step metaphysically. I've never cried so much but I'm staying strong. Last night I dreamt that you had passed and in my dream I was so destroyed I was like Robin William's wife in What Dreams May Come. The universe is such a strange mechanism, the tricks it plays to teach us things. I reread our texts and we spoke early on about the trickery of life in The Great Beauty. I was in so much pain and misery in my dream that I couldn't bare life without you. When I woke I again realized I was tricked to be shown to stay strong and always have faith. I know instinctively without doubt that you are getting stronger every day and healing. Despite of interruption and the universes ways to teach, I know we were meant to be together in this life. We already lost each other in another life and we are meant to be united in this one. You are my wings, you are my oxygen, you are in every sense everything to me and I know God is on our side. Perhaps this lesson is the event that bonded us in our infinite journey to come. I will protect you till the end of time and raise an army of angels to protect you and guide us. I love you for all eternity.
April 11, 2015


Baby,
Baby today there were 200 Kundalini teachers that gathered for a 12 hour meditation. Sadhu and some friends put our picture from Venice in the prayer circle. There was a beautiful chant to heal you darling. It's recorded on the attachment below. I love you and think of you with every single breath I take.
April 11, 2015


Lovee,
Lovee I'm here again sitting in our spot on the beach. I come here every day and speak to you and God. It's been 24 days now since that beautiful morning we spent together. I'm told you are slowly waking back into consciousness. I know if I was by your side this whole time you would of felt me even more. This has been the darkest moments of my life without you and without being able to be by your side during these times. Despite all of the pain, I have not questioned my faith nor our love and I trust that God has a big plan for us throughout all of this. This morning I stumbled upon a quote by Joseph Campbell that I sent you while you were on the train back to city after Rob's graduation. "The black moment is the moment when the real message of transformation is going to come. At the darkest moment comes the light." Today I hold on to our love and to these words. I know that God has revealed his light to us and I know we are protected. This has taught me what true love really means. To never take any moments we will ever share again lightly, as I dream of just holding you in my arms again and touching our hearts against each other. I am forever on my knees to God and you, thankful for our bond. There is nothing more important than you in my universe. I love you with all that I possess in me. I am here by your side forever bonded to your spirit. I love you, I love you
April 13, 2015


Lovee,
Day 25, listening to "Cause" by Rodriquez as I continue to re-read all our earlier texts. I feel so close to you when I read them as it brings me back to that time with you. It reaffirms how we had an instantaneous magical bond from the moment we connected. I tried sending nice texts and emails to your family but they won't respond. This has hurt me beyond all my broken bones and physical pain. I want to hold your hand and pull you back to consciousness but they won't even talk to me or allow me near you. The love of my life is in a coma for more than 3 weeks and I can't even see you. I tried to explain to your mom how special our love was and she seemed to cherish that at first. Then days after they all cut me off. Perhaps they will only want to hear it from you when you wake up. I just want you to know that although I couldn't be by your hospital bed I've been next to you in every other way in every moment. I am shattered in pain to be away from you but I also just know that no matter how difficult the journey, our love cannot and will never be broken. I am here on our seashore waiting anxiously for my captain to sail back home. I love you so incredibly much. I know you are closer now, I can see the ship in the horizon.
April 14, 2015


My Love,
My Love, I'm reading your quote again " In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer"
I'm trying for it to give me strength and hope. This is my darkest winter and darkest hour. I look back at just our simple moments together and realized we really were in heaven together. I'm so grateful to God for bringing us to each other and I trust that in all that happens. I am holding in me our invincible summer to come. I love you so much I cry just typing to you. You are my Dakini, my true messenger of wisdom. I'm so grateful for everything you taught me and showed me through your beautiful mind. Please wake up when your ready baby. I'm forever side by side with you in every way that I can be. I love you.
April 15, 2015


My Love,
I had to order the same ring as mine was not on my finger at hospital. We have yours to Rob I hope they will give it back to you. I love you
April 15, 2015


My Love,
My love, this morning marks 1 month since our beautiful morning swim together on our sandbar. I came here from the beach to try and remember how happy we were that morning and feel closer to you. I made a little alter with a candle and our picture in Paris together. I feel you here as I'm picturing us pulling up and jumping in the water. I love you so much I just want you to be ok.
I'm hurting so much, not because my injuries but because you're my soulmate and I can't be by your side at the hospital. I always told you I'd be happier to be with you in a jail cell together, than being free without you. I know you need me right now and I hope you know there hasn't been a second that's gone by that I don't think of you or cry. I promise you I will always be there for you and love you and take care of you. I love you for eternity
April 17, 2015


Lovee,
Now I'm walking out beautiful trail back home thinking of you every second. I remember you and I riding our bikes here saying how we were going to do this a lot. Well here I am in spirit for us.
April 17, 2015


My Love,
My love the picture below is Gideon and Leigha's daughter Valentina. She's already wearing the dress we bought her together in Charleston.
April 17, 2015


My Love,
This morning seems so peaceful, Tiger and I are here in bed sending you all the love we can. I know how much you loved the mornings here so I try to share it with you in spirit. I'm forever in tears and prayer awaiting for you.
April 18, 2015


Lovee,
I love you, I love you, I love you
I'm watching The Great Beauty now and remembering how we were texting throughout it all. I just want to feel close to you my love. I miss you soo incredibly much and I pray to God continually to heal you. I love you forever.
April 18, 2015


Love of my life,
Love of my life, that's how you are in my phone now. It's been 4 weeks and 2 days now since we last woke up together cuddling in our spot. Every hour that goes by gets harder for me. Today I was in an ashram and a great swami made a beautiful blessing for you and I. This universe is so magical and so mysterious to us still. We just never know what the universe has in store for us no matter how noble our actions can be. Perhaps this is the event that will truly bond us infinitely. I know now to cherish every moment with you like its our last. I know now that you mean more to me than anything in the world and I would do absolutely anything to have you in my arms again. I love you with every fiber in me and I trust that God will reunite us soon. I love you
April 19, 2015


My Love,
Hi my love, today I wrote a long letter to Rob but he didn't even reply. They have all shut me out and do not even communicate with me. They have restricted me from seeing you in every way possible. This has left me in complete despair because I feel they have hijacked you away from me. Regardless of whatever attempts they try, I know deep in my heart they can't separate us. I just love you to much and this type of love has roots that are eons old. Starting tonight I will play a specific song called Ghandarva by Tom Kenyon. I will meditate on this song every night as I imagine a golden cable that connects our minds together. I will send you all my love and special messages. I know you are in a blissful place right now surrounded by colorful light. I know when it's time you will come back to this realm. I want you to know that I am with you at your side in eternal and infinite love. There's nothing else that matters to me right now than our love for each other and my love for God. You are the keeper of my soul and I of yours.
April 20, 2015


My Soulmate,
My beautiful incredible soulmate. I love you so much I can't sleep much and only think of you. I just want you to tell me you're ok? Talk to me please honey. Your family has hurt me so much by keeping me away from you. I just want to to put my heart next to yours and I know you would be better and feel me. Every morning I'm in tears thinking about you. I love you with all that I behold. Please tell me you can hear me? I know you can love.
April 21, 2015


Love of my life,
Love of my life, today was so hard. I tried to really give great reason to your brother and mom for them to communicate with me. I tried to explain how I know that you need me right now and if you felt my hand or heart close to you it may spark something in you to awaken. They were very harsh and so closed off to their ways. Sadhu told me to forgive them because they just can't comprehend our connection and won't till you explain it. This is the hardest journey of my life now as I just have to have faith in God that you will hear all my messages to you and you know in your heart how much I love you. I will never give up on our love and I'm starting to understand there is a really big story here. I remember how you told me about your recollection of our past life relationship together. How I left you and how I hurt you were when we were kids. I want you to know how sorry I am and that and I assume full responsibility for my actions. Perhaps the universe had granted me my soulmate but only to know what true love was really like for a moment. Perhaps I still needed to earn you and I know I will. I will show you and God how much you mean to me now. I will forever repent and everyday send you all my love and life in me. I know for a fact that you are everything to me. I will just suffer and await for you as long as God says. This is the biggest lesson in my life now. It's the dark long road to truly earning your soulmate. There will never be any other than you and I await for you every moment of my life. Every night now I will connect us with our wire and send
April 21, 2015


Continued...
you my thoughts, the things I learn and I will tell you again and again that I love you, I love you, I love you infinitely. I'm so sorry for everything. I hope your only surrounded by angels right now. I'm actually typing this listening to our song, angel. I am forever in tears, you have my heart for eternity and I will go to the deepest parts of the universe to reunite with you.


Baby,
Hi baby, I've been up since 5 am again crying and praying. This is so hard I can't bare it. I’m sitting by the beach again reading our book of texts. It's incredible we both had the intuition and notion to print them all out. As I read what we wrote to each other in our first days, it’s really helping to keep me strong right now.
" A soul mate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks, No matter what else goes wrong around us, with that one person we’re safe in our own paradise."
I guess the key words are "no matter what goes wrong around us" As tormented, as I am right now the only comfort I have is knowing that our souls are one and my paradise is to be shared with you. We will get through this difficult passage. Tolle writes, "Life will give you whatever is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness."
I guess there's a lot of work deep inside me that I will work on now to make myself the best person I can be.
This is my deepest, darkest moment of reflection and realization of how sacred you are to me. I love you with all that I possess. I love you to the moon and back, I love you throughout infinity.
April 22, 2015


My Love,
My love, I sit here on our beach again praying, crying and sending you all of what my soul comprises of. This morning will mark 5 weeks now since our last beautiful morning swim together. I heard you laughed yesterday at a funny joke and I know you can hear things. I heard you sipped on a drink. I wish I could be there to bring you fresh juices and all the things you need. I wish I could play our playlist for you right now but perhaps the music plays in your dreams as I play them from our home. I'm playing Beethoven's 5 now, I know you can hear it too. Tiger has not moved from my side in a month and he feels all my pain. I wonder if you can sense him trying to protect us. I know you can hear my messages to you from afar as I know we always communicated through our golden wire. Tomorrow night I'm doing a special ceremony to connect to you. I read your texts to me from the last one almost every day. They remind me of our telepathic connection that only you and I can understand. Since I cannot be by you physically right now, I know that our connection is inseparable through the cosmos. This is the most I have ever suffered and cried and I thought I knew what suffering was. They say that soul mates are single unified souls that are first divided in half before entering this dimension. As the two souls undergo transformation through suffering and ordeal they progressively draw closer to one another. When the time is ripe
April 24, 2015


Continued...
it is inevitable that they reunite. This is the process that makes them inseparable throughout infinity. I know this is correct, I know there was still work for me to do to correct my tikkun. I want you to know that as you heal my love, I am in total and absolute repentance now. All I can do is try and become the best person I could ever be. When you are better then I can really honor you and cherish you as you will need my full attention on you. I love you till the end of time, I really know this now. I could be reincarnated a trillion times and would never want to journey or live any moments without you by my side. I love you, I love you


My Love,
My love tonight I'm connecting to you in a really sacred way. Kind of like the night you stayed home and lit a candle on the balcony. I know you will hear me. I love you infinitely
We also just finished this beautiful prayer with Rabbi Marc in his home. I felt you and God embrace me.
April 25, 2015


My Darling,
My darling I've been crying, processing and trying to find a way to touch the hearts of your family so they understand I need to be by your side right now. Not being able to hold you right now and give you my energy has been the most painful times of my life. I know you will have a long road ahead my love and I'm so sorry. All I want is to be able to be there for you and give you my unconditional love. I have been putting together our scrapbook that we always talked about. I'm going to put in a suitcase of yours that your mom and dad continue and forcefully ask for. I hope they will have the heart to understand our love, how we need each other most especially now and to give you the book. Your mom told me there will be no consideration for me to see you. I'm sending her the most love I can so that hopefully she will see the light in this. I want you to know that I am forever thinking and crying for you. Everywhere I look or go reminds me of us. There's nowhere we didn't go together since we met.
This is
forever
another
I love you, I love you.
so haunting but in the same time it has inscribed you into me. There will never be and I await patiently in tears to see you.
April 28, 2015


Baby,
Baby last night I dreamt that you were awake and came home. I was so happy but then I awoke and was so sad. I went to Jugo Fresh today and got you El Green Go and probiotics. I had my mom give it to your nurse. I hope they let you sip it. I also gave your mom another suitcase with some things for you as she was demanding all your things. I know you know that I am with you in spirit every second. I was told you reacted well to tests this week and you started talking. Perhaps you heard me Sunday morning through ceremony. Hopefully you will be able to ask for me soon so they can't keep preventing me from seeing you. I gave your mom a letter today with pictures of some of our great moments. I hoped this would soften her a bit so she would realize how much we love each other and how much you need me right now. I am so hurt that she did everything possible to make sure I could never see you. They went as far as instructing the doctors not to tell me they were moving you today. I had to find out you are now in Boston and they never granted me one visit to see you. This has destroyed me and I've never been more sad in my life. I just know that you know I love you eternally. I am here praying and doing everything I can to send you all my love.
April 29, 2015


My Love,
My love today now marks a month and a half since our last swim together. I'm here on our beach crying endlessly. I would of never imagined your family to be so cruel to me. I have repeatedly tried to explain how much I love you. I can obviously understand their anger but I can't understand why they are so cruel. They have ordered hospital staff to keep me in the dark. There's nothing more painful to me than to not now how your doing etc. All my contacts that we're keeping me informed have gone dark. Baby I know you need me right now, I know you need our battery pack, I know you are cold without me and I'm cold without you. Just know that no matter what physical obstacles they try and create our souls are one. We share the same soul and I know you hear me. Deborah from Mt Shasta is also communicating to you for me. My friends and Rabbi's are having dreams about us and relaying messages to me that you love me. It's all I have right now and I know it's you. Please demand that I come to see you it's not your parents choice it's yours. Tell your doctors this is what you want. I'm here awaiting any messages from you or anyone. I know they are trying to do their best with you on the physical plain. I love you so much I can't bare to not see you or hear how you’re doing. I love you darling.
May 1, 2015


May 1, 2015


My Darling,
My darling, sitting here on this breezy morning on our beach. I can barely sleep as all I do is think of you and try to reach you through dreams or prayer. Ive been reading almost everyday the beautiful poem you gave me " I love you in oceans and galaxies and the air in-between. There are no questions or answers or right or wrongs, there is only love and and words and silence and the explosion they all create together when your breath is on my chest, your lips on my neck, (your little spot) all that is you into all that is me."
It's so magical how you gave me this on our third week. It really says it all lovee. It's exactly how I feel about you. I understood the words at one level at first but now it's inscribed in me and this represents our connection. I will never let you down darling. I love you for eternity. I am here by your side every moment just praying and loving you forever. Please get strong now as I'm trying to also do this. You are everything to me.
I love you, I love you
May 2, 2015


My Darling,
My darling I just finished watching What Dreams May Come again. It makes sense to me now when you broke down at the end of the movie and had an attack baby. Just like I happened to post on IG that morning " one lesson is finished and another is about to begin"
It's like our souls both inherently knew there was going to be a very similar event than this movie about to unravel. I understand better each day as I really try and put all the pieces of the puzzle
together.
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marina
the look out tower as our boat cruised by the station. She said she saw us in the boat one second and a second later she couldn't see us anymore. It's like we both fainted simultaneously or I fainted and you were trying to help me on the floor. I must of fell on the steering wheel which aimed the boat directly at the coast guard station. God redirected us right into hands of the best possible people, the coast guards. 8 seconds later
May 02, 2015
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Continued...
we hit the wall. When I was in the ambulance I thought I was seeing my death from above as I had no recollection of any crash. One day we will make sense of all this. I just want you to know that I am working everyday to be the best person I can ever be to you. I know we had a lot of stress and tensions around us. I will now always shelter us from these things and I have now realized to what extent our connection is. You really are my twin flame, love. You are my oceans and galaxies. I love you eternally.


My Love,
I don't think I can go a minute nor see or think of anything without thinking of you lovee. I'm so sad I'm dying here without being able to be by your side.
May 03, 2015


My Love,
Been on the beach tonight with Rabbi Sam singing to you and God. Tonight is the second Passover and a really special full moon. They say it's the day that gives people second chances so that was our prayer tonight. I love you eternally darling and want you to know that you are the most beautiful being in the universe. You are all that I think about and I patiently await the moment when I can hold you again. I love you with every fiber in me.
May 03, 2015


Darling,
Darling I'm here praying and trying so hard to send you signals. I had Danoushka give your nurse at Jackson your favorite juices and goodies from Jugo Fresh. I gave them your pillow too. My mom reaches out to your mom to get simple updates on you and she won't reply. They have completely blocked us from receiving any information on you. In all my life I never imagined them to do such cruel things to try and keep me away from you. Im so sorry this is happening but I know deep inside we can't be separated and God has this all under a master plan. Know how much I love you and I don't take a breath without thinking of you. I love you so incredibly much.
May 05, 2015


My Love,
My love, my angel, my sanctuary, I'm here at this beautiful monastery praying for you to heal. I sent you this pic s it reminds me of the pic you took of me under similar arches at Princeton. I love you infinitely and I'm here just begging God to help you heal reunite us.
May 05, 2015


My dearest angel,
My dearest angel, love of my life, my everything. I'm here on our beach watching our sunrise and praying to God to heal you and reunite us. I've never suffered like this in my life, I didn't even know this kind of pain exists. They say when this happens to soulmates it's like a person looses the other half of themselves. I think it's so much worse actually because I love you so incredibly much the pain is not fathomable. I would be ok loosing half of my self but not loosing your half. Every thought just puts me in such tears, the taught of you being hurt, the thought of you being confused, the taught of you not having me hold you and keep you warm during this time, the thought of you having to learn everything all over again after studying so hard with so much pressure for so many years. I can't bare the the thought of not knowing exactly how your doing and being forcefully separated from you like this by your family. I pray to God and ask him to reunite us soon and for us to at least be able to communicate in any way possible. Please be strong baby and just get better as soon as you can so I can come and be by your side and give you our battery pack of energy. I love you beyond what any words or language could ever express. I'm reading your anniversary card to me " I nothing anymore without you, I owe you my smiles, my direction and my calm" I feel exactly the same love. Everything you ever wrote me is mirrored back to you and felt as if it was inscribed into my soul. I know you know this. I am telling this to God and all the angels every day and every hour that I can. I love you infinitely.
May 7, 2015


Baby,
From our bedroom, I await it every day as it reminds me of you being next to me as we watch it.
May 07, 2015
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My little soulmate,
Last night around 10 pm I held you so strong in our bed and felt you heard me. I feel you're getting better. I know our wire is our wire but just like in What Dreams May Come, sometimes being in different dimensions can cut most frequency temporarily. We will find each other soon and no human nor family member will be able to separate true soul mates.
Of course I'm on our beach again now connecting to you through our sunrise and God. It's now been 7 weeks since we've been separated and each day is harder and harder for me. The picture above that we love from Alex Grey reminds me of our last swim. It almost portrays it exactly.
The water was a bit cold so we kept our arms up and just held each other like that. Its almost like we went in the water just to connect. It's the last time our hearts were physically against each other and our battery back was turned on. Perhaps it gave us the strength to survive the accident as we were in such a beautiful place with each other that morning. You felt so close to me that you were sitting behind me while I was driving. It was such a beautiful morning together.
Perhaps God has tested our faith and our love. I hope it was a test as my faith will never change and it's only made my love for you multiply by eons
May 08, 2015


of infinity. Just like I said yesterday " everything you ever wrote me gets mirrored back to you and back to me again now" Everything was on point and almost surreal because of its precision. You are all of me and I of you. I am forever on my knees to God in gratitude for our love and gratitude for your recovery.
I know one day this will be the source of your greatest strength. I know that you will inspire millions and gift the world with all that your essence beholds. God always has a master plan and you and I are very special and unique souls that have gone through God's advanced classrooms. Just like you aced Princeton my love and I overcame all my addictions, drugs etc. The hardest classrooms of life are assigned to the greatest souls. Most of the "Greats" lives were never easy, but what they overcame became the essence of what inscribed them into the hearts of humanity forever. It's not by chance that your an english major and you manifested a best thesis in the worlds greatest college. It's not by chance we met and this difficult trial occurred. This is part of our destiny and I'm certain of it. I know it will be a lot at first when you finally get to read these letters but one day it will all make sense. I never want you to think that your life has been ruined but rather that one day all this will shed more light onto all of us. I just know God and his angels love us so much and would of never allowed this to occur if it hadn't been in our destiny. This most painful experience in our lives will one day be the source of so much good. I love you infinitely lovee. You and God are my haven and this event bounds my love infinitely to you. It's not a coincidence we exchanged infinity symbols on our second encounter. Our souls knew everything long before our physical minds could comprehend it.