sixteen days ago with (spoiler: namiss ka nang sobra sobra sobra)
hello wabi, i dont want you to miss out so im writing these entries everyday if i get consistent with it. if you're seeing this then that means na i was consistent with it yey. i have no idea yet if this will be a great idea, but we’ll see! today was nice, had fun with the ates and i didnt do acads. i laughed a lot and made them laugh today. we called our mom, it was fun. she got awa sa bed ko because my mattress is thin and we have cardboard layers para di ko feel yung bakal. she decided to order a new mattress for me and i cant wait for it to come so i can sleep more comfortably. it would sound like i had an awesome day, and i did naman, i just think it would've been the perfect day if we were talking. i miss you a lot, my sweetheart. i can't wait until we can talk again. i love and miss you. happy valentine's day. February 14, 2025 the mattress ^^ very nice to eep now
MACHO BUBBLES hello mahal, how are you? i had a long sleep last night so i woke up late. we're dogsitting two dogs, my tito's dogs kasi they're going sa mindoro for a few days. hindi ko na 'to na-mention sayo because it was said sakin nung nasa bus ako and i forgot about it din plus it was day na we stopped talking na and hindi na rin tayo nakapag kwento. supposedly sunday tapos suddenly they're here eh saturday palang hahahah, theyre cute and silly and fluffy. they’re quiet too! di pa sila nagbbark. i'll try to post them, i bet you'll find them silly. im always thinking about you, and i wonder if i get on your mind too. i saw na you lost 7kgs, that's a big achievement! we can't talk rn so im saying it here, im so proud of you, mahal. i'll be here again tomorrow mahal, at araw-araw pa rin kitang mahal! i love you and MISSSSS YOU SO MUCH!!!!! February 15, 2025
hi sweetheart, i miss you again today, i always do whenever we're away and not talking. kumusta mahal, i hope you're starting to feel better. me naman, i haven't properly thought about what happened to us. i dont know if it's because i keep being bombarded of other things to do like acads and chores, or na im just scared to face and think about it. the only thing i know is that i don't wanna give us up. and na i want to keep loving you. but i can't just hope for that when im not even worthy of your love. i spent my day playing with the dogs and doing acads. i managed naman but di ko natapos lahat. i only had one proper meal today, had no gana to cook so i just ate what i can eat, like pancakes and cake from my ate's birthday. now it's 3:25am, i should've slept hours ago but here i am, doomscrolling alone. ive been fighting the urge to view your stories, naisip ko kasi na since my presence made you uncomfortable sa twitter, my presence sa insta might make you uncomfy too if in case makita mo akong viewer. bahala na, i feel like i'll view it pa rin either way because i wanna see what you're up to. i saw naman a bit of it, you went to the gym today so good job love. i miss everything about you. i love you mahal, i'll sleep na and I'll write again here bukas. February 16, 2025
hi baby, i had a long day. about my previous day's entry, i viewed your story pa rin because i miss you so much hahahah, i hope hindi mo napansin, winoworry ko kasi baka di ka na mag post pag nakikita mo akong viewer eh :( i mean, it’s not like my presence is a big deal, im hoping lang na you dont feel uncomfy. anyway, i had a long day. the dogs ngatngat an expensive curler na twice pa lang nagagamit ng sisters ko, tito will get it repaired daw, i hope mag bayad nalang sya for it hahaha. i had a recitation and an exam today na quickly ko lang natapos. went agad sa byahe kasi my ates went sa mall. we walked around a lot and tried on puffer jackets, they look awesome. this sunday night sila pupunta ng HK eh, we have a whole week sana to call, hay, i miss you mahal ko. it's currently 1:21am, im sitting in front of my desk, taking a break because i just finished my paper. after writing this, i'll read na for a graded recitation kay scary prof. okay na pala si renmin at yung jowa nya hahaha tayo naman yung hindi ;-; but there's no point to compare, im sure iba yung problems natin sa problems nila. im just hoping na we'll be fine after this. im constantly thinking about you, and araw-araw kitang namimiss at hinahanap. see you tomorrow mahal ko, i love you. February 17, 2025
hello wabi, i miss you a little extra today. i had super onting sleep from last night, getting hectic kasi because of school, exams na for the next two weeks. today was tiring, been trying to read a lot for acads lang. anyway, my mattress came na today and first night ko to sleep on it, i can finally sleep well without feeling the metal rods ng bed. for tonight, i just wanna express how much i miss having you around, and how much i miss telling you na i love you so much. we used to say i love you everyday, but i know namang hindi ko sya naeexpress nang maayos. cuz if i did, we wouldn't be here right now. i had a really tough day mahal, ikaw lang ang pahinga ko nung andito ka. your presence makes a big difference sa day ko, i wish mas dinalasan ko yung pag sabi na ang sayasaya ko pag youre here for me. i dont want to bore you out with these entries so ill come back here tomorrow ha, i love you so much baby. sana ichat mo ako hehe kasi miss ko na ikaw. id love to chat you asap but i dont want to disturb the space na you asked for :(( i want to talk to you asap but i wake up everyday na may fear habang lumalapit yung mga araw na yun, kasi baka pagbalik mo, baka mag decide ka na ayaw mo na. i have three weeks left pa naman, ill keep thinking about us, mahal. i love you again, wabi, i'll be back. February 18, 2025 me:
hi baby, i just went to bed now. it's 4:12am, i did acads lang since i went home kanina. day was chill, had a good time with my friends naman, we ate rin after class, feels like a reward because we finally have a topic na for research after so many revisions. i stayed up late because i had to finish my reviewers for a hard test bukas. the doggos were with me again tonight and theyre so goofy but they got eepy na after i played with them. my back is so sakit now wabi but im glad im sleeping on a nice bed hehe, i miss the days na you tell me i did i great job, which is literally every day. no one's telling me na im doing great, hay, i miss you so bad mahal. i miss everything about you. i stalk you nalang sa tiktok tapos hindi ka na nagsstory, all i can access from you is your location which i just checked and pauwi ka na tapos lowbat ka. ingat baby, i hope you had a great day. that's it for now wabi, i love you! balik ako tomorrow. i miss you, mahal! February 19, 2025 kept me sane through another grind hehe
February 20, 2025 hello mahal, my day was a roller coaster ride. i stayed up late last night so i had little sleep lang and then we studied and read a lot. tapos the scary prof where dapat may quiz kami cancelled and sent the quiz nalang for us to do sa bahay. the dogs went home na pala today, their owners are home na, im gonna miss them so much. i don't post my selfies with them because i want you to see them first :< my friends have seen the dog cuz we msg randomly lang but ofc i dont send them selfies cuz thats weird HAHAHAH i went home after we ate a good meal and then i rested na. tomorrow will be my passport renewal so i hope it goes well. ive been sending you quick notes on life360 and idk if you see them, i sent you one before i left the house and im gonna send you one again tomorrow! i love you baby and i miss you SOOOO much! im thinking of compiling this into an ejournal or into a flip book. i hope you're okay baby ko, i hope you're happy and na you're proud of yourself. fixing bubbles’ ponytail hehe cute ng aso naka salamin
February 21, 2025 good day my love, the day ended again and im here to tell you stuff! my day was a packed, a summary is we renewed my passport which didnt take too tagal naman, the ejeep was charging mas mahal, and na i spent a lot of time with my sisters. my time at home was silly, i love hanging out with them, they're preparing na for hk eh and aalis sila sunday evening. we talked about their outfits and digicams, i'm asking them to buy for me eh kasi may stalls dun selling digicams like in japan kaya ive been researching lately rin. i dont feel inggit naman, im locked in sa acads so i know i cant leave eh. anyways, tate did the itinerary sa bed and i watched her, their day is so packed. i went sa bed ko around 3am na, feeling a bit guilty kasi i didn't do acads but ill bawi some other time. im always missing you mahal, and ive been thinking about our relationship a lot of times throughout the day and im still stuck. i dont want you to go and i always want to give you the love and care you deserve. narerealize ko na you just want to be loved in a way na you'll feel it, na for some reason parang hindi ko naibibigay sayo. im also questioning din if me and the things i can do will ever be enough ba for you, or na youll keep looking for something na wala here na you really need. na if youre going to keep looking and seeking for your needs na all this time, hindi ko pala ma-provide. we can talk about it more once we're back. mahal na mahal pa rin kita, i hope you're okay. and na you miss me :(( because i do :< i love you baby!! i hope you know na im proud of you, ill be back mahal, see you soon. (after passport appointment, dapat bibilhin namin ‘tong oat milk but the pila was crazy so we didn’t buy it nalang) (im imitating the FB avatar sticker because i found out may gc silang mga mag-HK)
hello my sweetheart, kumusta ka today? i think nag gym ikaw kanina and kahapon too, you're very consistent ah, good job baby ko. hectic ako lately because of research and exams kaso nagguilty ako na gabi na ako nagstart mag-aral. i made sure to feel accomplished naman before going to bed. i went out with my ates to buy fries near us, it was yummy and we were busog. i ate a lot din and took a nap, now i feel bigat and my neck is aching. im doing well naman, mentally, i feel great. i just miss you a lot like everyday naman. i dont ever want to forget how it feels like to be loved by you. now that ive been thinking about us, i should've been a better partner, even though i think i was doing well, i wish i knew na i have to do more and more. so that you dont have to overexplain para malaman ko yung naffeel mo. i wish napipick up ko agad when you tell me what you want and what you need. you deserve better and you deserve a lot more. ill live with the guilt na hindi ko nafulfill yung needs mo once you decide to walk away. i miss you everyday mahal. and each day, binibilang ko until you come back na. it feels super slow but at the same time, it means na i have to take my time and think about us and my actions more. that'll be all for now mahal, good job today ha, i'll be here tomorrow. i love you baby, see you. February 22, 2025 FRIES! nomnom it’s maumay tho im rating it a 7/10
hi love, another day without your presence. nakakamiss ka sobra. i wonder if narereceive mo yung quick notes ko from life360 ;-; i send you one pag aalis ako house eh, im gonna send you one rin before i leave tomorrow for school. anyway, i feel weak today, sakit ng body ko eh, parang sore sya. my ates left din earlier for HK, i hope they get me a good digicam hehe. we also called pau kasi our parents aren't home and she was bored. laughed a lot naman today but hindi super productive because they put their stuff sa table ko and i cant function with a messy desk. also, i played valo today after 6 weeks ata, puro talo but i surprisingly have aim kanina. i miss playing it with you ;-; now im alone, this week ill be alone lang. ito yung start nung sabi ko sayo nung valentine's day na we can call na :(( kaso hindi naman tayo okay. i miss you a lot mahal, you're always nasa thoughts ko, and waking up feels so plain because wala ka. now pa na i have no one rin sa room, i have a lot of time to think about stuff din. pahinga na ako mahal, i love and miss you. i hope you're doing well, proud of you! February 23, 2025
hello mahal ko, time check, it's 4:20am here, i just went to bed kasi i finished a portion ng part ko sa research. i had a pretty chill day naman, today's my first day maging alone, i woke up a bit early but my neck and body is still aching. now my throat is so sakit din. i left on time rin and sent you a quick note before leaving and then i had one exam but di ako super confident about it. and then we were dismissed early. the bus on the way home was sikip, rush hour kasi but i wanted to uwi asap. i went sa grocery to grab a few stuff na need sa house, and then i tried starting na pag uwi but paputol-putol ako since nakakatamad but i managed to finish naman. i view your reposts wabi, just to see what you're up to. i wonder tungkol kanino yung mga repost mo. i tried uploading ig stories but it felt weird na you won't see the photos first kaya i deleted them after a few minutes. i have pics of me and pancake nung last vc namin and selfies with the dogs last week na i dont post din. February 24, 2025 i repost din sa tiktok sometimes, stuff na i like or stuff that makes me think of you. i hope may repost din ikaw tomorrow hehe, thats the only update i get from you unfortunately ;-; now na narerealize kong mas nakakamiss pala when you don't repost, im thinking of reposting more na kasi baka you're viewing mine rin hahahaha. lagi ikaw mag-iingat ha, proud ako sa kung anong nagawa mo today mahal, sobrang miss na kita. i miss asking kung kumusta ka na ba, or if you're doing well ba, or if you're having a hard time ba. i wish i did that a hundred times more if need mo. i hope makaabot 'to sa head mo mahal, when you're upset and if you badly need someone, i hope im the person you'll reach out to. that's it for now mahal, babalik ako ulit. i love you a lot wabi, i miss you. (no pics today i just spent my day missing you lang)
February 25, 2025 mahal ko, how are you? i hope you're doing well over there. i saw your ig stories, you went to the gym and posted your progress, im happy for you mahal. today, i spent the whole day doing my part sa paper and went to bed ng 5am. my whole body is aching and pati throat ko. i had decent meals, i had snacks, and i had a coffee drink din. it's 6am now and i sent you a love ya note a few minutes ago, i hope it showed up sa phone mo :') anyways, nothing much naman about my day aside from the fact na i did acads and i dont feel well. tomorrow, same thing ulit but di na pwede magpuyat kasi may pasok ako on thursday. i thought about us a lot today. just the usual stuff. i tweeted about it but you don't have twitter naman na so i'll say it here, things are just overflowing so i talked about how it's on me on why you wanted a month off. and it's because of me kung bakit ayaw mo na magka twitter, the platform where we met. im afraid na pagbalik mo, baka manibago ako satin. baka mag-iba na yung pakikitungo ko sayo at pakikitungo mo sakin. im nervous about how you might tell me na mas gusto mo nang wala ako sayo. and how it's starting to feel more free and happy when im not around. im nervous about how pag balik mo, mamamaalam ka nalang pala na hindi ka na babalik permanently. i hope im just overthinking things. i hope na pag nag decide ka bumalik, maging worthy naman ako of that decision kahit konti. i know it's not enough na i just try to do my best, i should also make sure na my best meet your standards so you don't have to lower them. im worried about how hanggang dito nalang ako. na kahit anong pilit ko to be someone more, to be someone better, to be someone worthy, ito lang pala talaga ako. sorry medyo lumungkot yung entry ko for this day hahahah. yun nalang muna sa ngayon mahal, babalik ako ulit bukas. i love you, araw-araw at tuloy-tuloy. good night, i miss you. what kept me up all night for days GRRR
hi baby, i just went to bed, 5am na, we finally finished our requirement sa research after a shit ton of screen time, two bottles of kopiko AND a fever. sakit ng body ko lately, need na talaga to walk around hahaha. i drank meds right after i got the results sa thermometer. my lola gave me gamot im not being pabaya i swear, wala lang talaga akong choice but to do the stuff we have to do sa school. my favorite part about today was how you messaged me hehe. i like it but i think i got stunned so my answers were tipid and i was trying to not overshare hahahaha since u werent asking about details naman. i was just talking about it here the other day na sana telepathically makarating sayo na you can hit me up, and you did! but hay i think i didn't do well, i hope i didn't sound like i dont care, i just didn't want to be like,, too happy when things aren't fixed pa naman. id love to talk to you more wabi, but i know we have stuff to think about pa. i said ill message you sa 15th but you said let's continue the plan. ill still check up on you sa 15th day tho hehe. that will be all for now mahal, i love and miss you a lot. February 26, 2025 sick p o o p o o :( (kulang sa tulo g at sa la m bing) kilig >< hihihihihih
hello mahal ko, sobrang tired ako now, had a long long day. i had cup noodles for breakfast tapos i had my next meal sa bus at 7:45pm, having baked mac from 7/11. im so tired and disappointed sa performance ko for prelims, ill just bawi next time before the sem ends. i still feel sick today kaya i made sure mag rest ako. my ates are home na and they showed me their pasalubongs. i love the bunny touch lamp heheh ill show it sayo when we're talking na ^-^ anyways, ive been watching modern family lang tapos i fell asleep sa baba and went up at 2:50am. around 3am na when i was typing this so ill go back to sleep na rin. i'll write more when i regain my strength, i hope you're okay my love. i love you mahal ko. i miss you so much. February 27, 2025 bunny lamp!
February 28, 2025 hello baby, today’s the 15th day. tough day for poopoo, im still very sick today. pabalik balik lagnat ko but i make sure to take meds every meal. my head hurts so much but nakakalaro pa rin naman ako so that means im okay hehe. i told you last time na i’ll message you on the 15th day but we later on decided na let’s just continue the whole month. i was hesitant but i still reached out ng midnight. i just really wanna ask how you’re doing. it was good to know na you’re doing fine, i also learned na you resigned na from work. kaya pala you don’t leave the house na gaano and you mostly go somewhere near which is the gym. i know you said na it was because the scheds were clashing and it was toxic there so you left, im proud of you for walking away mahal! i hope you find a better place. i wish that night was longer, i wish nakapag tanong pa ako more because god knows how much i’ve been missing you. but, i had to cut it short because i respect the time na you need. im hoping naman and praying na babalik ka, and when that happens, i’ll do my best to catch up and start improving. i really need to rest na mahal, para sumigla na ako ulit. miss na kita agad! i love you! my bff for a few days:
hello my love, happy march! well, not happy :(( weird to end and start a month without you. it's getting sadder each day. tough start again for poopoo. i woke up 6am today kasi super init ng pakiramdam ko and my head was sobrang sakit. buti my sister was awake pa kasi she sleeps late bc of work. i told her to give me water and wet towel and then i took meds. my fever cooled down and i fell asleep ulit. i woke up mga 2pm na. i spent my day resting lang and playing a lot of valo. ive been feeling anxious about acads na im having nightmares about it so i dont even wanna talk about it pati dito omg. i miss you so much mahal. after the catch up na we had, im so tempted to message you : (( one of these days, i know i probably will, im just finding a great time to message. im scared of getting used to not having you around, and im scared of how distant we're starting to be if we keep spending our days away from each other. that'll be all muna wabi, will rest na. i'll be here again tomorrow ha, i love and miss you baby. March 1, 2025 no pics but these are good representations poso ko: katawan ko:
sixteen days ago with ends here. we’re talking na again woohooo (i missed you so much)