My boyfriend is gay?!

"You started it. But we didn't do
anything. I stopped."

He explained, he probably noticed
my terrified face. He sat up and
covered my exposed chest with the
blankets.

"Really...?"

"I didn't touch you. I swear."

Jiyong reassured me. The hickeys on
his neck and chest caught my
attention, sent my blood rushing to
my cheeks immediately.

"You were drunk and... you kept
calling me 'Tabi' the whole night."

When he mentioned that, my mind
started to recall a few more of the
scenes.

I clung to his neck when he placed
me down on the bed, pulled him
towards me, and kissed him
passionately. I moaned softly in his
mouth when he kissed me back. I
then showered kisses on his neck
and chest while my hand sneaked
into his jeans. I unzipped him and
went down to kiss him there...

"Oh my God... This is so awkward..."

I buried my face in the thick blankets.
I could not believe that it happened. I
felt so ashamed of myself.

"... Maya,"

"Hmm...?"

I responded without lifting my face
from the blankets. I couldn't face
him. I couldn't face myself.

"What if... I call Tabi to come so you
guys can talk about it...? I mean, you
should at least listen to what he's
going to say, right?"

"No... I don't want to see him. I
can't..."

"Why don't you shower and
reconsider? You still have to face him
sooner or later, avoiding him won't
solve anything."

I could never find a better friend
other than Jiyong. He's so calm,
always so rational, and gives good
advice. Any other man would have
taken advantage of me last night, but
he didn't. Seemed like he's the only
person I could trust now.

Jiyong was about to get up to get me
a clean towel when we heard
footsteps outside and suddenly his
bedroom door flung open.

"What the fuck...?!!"

Tabi had barged in unexpectedly
then stood dumbfounded by the
door. It was truly shocking for him to
see me half naked with his friend on
the bed. It was confusing for me too,
how he suddenly appeared in
Jiyong's apartment early in the
morning.

I panicked when Tabi yelled in rage.
His face was red and his eyes were
watery. He looked like he's going to
slam his fists on someone.

"You touched my girlfriend...?!"

********************

CHAPTER THREE:

WHO HE REALLY LOVE

"You touched my girlfriend?!"
Tabi charged forth and slammed his
fist on Jiyong's face. Jiyong was too
confused to react. Blood leaked from
the cut on his lips.
"You think I'd do that...?!"
Jiyong got mad and pushed Tabi
really hard, sending him a few steps
backward, which only made Tabi
angrier. He launched another punch

towards Jiyong but this time, Jiyong
managed to dodge it and caught
Tabi's wrist and twisted his arm to his
back, locking him.

"I was playing my fucking role as the
perfect friend, trying to talk her back
to you, helping her calm down so
that she'll realize how much you
meant to her... And this is what I
get?!"

"Helping...? Is fucking my girlfriend
part of your so-called help? What,
you're doing a free service now?!"

Tabi grunted in pain when Jiyong
twisted his arm harder. I froze there

on the bed, witnessing their fight.
Their conversation doesn't make any
sense to me at all. And it was the first
time I see Jiyong that angry.

"Was that an insult?! Did you forget
how much you fucking enjoyed it? Do
you want me to tell her your dirty
little secret? Honey...?!"

"Don't you dare, motherfucker!!"

Wha... what?!

Whatever they were talking about, I
couldn't seem to digest it. It was
confusing and my head couldn't fully
focus because of the headache the
alcohol gave me.

I probably did understand a little, I
just refused to accept it, or perhaps
doubted it.

Tabi struggled to break free and he
succeeded, he kicked Jiyong on the
stomach and threw punches at him
again. Jiyong fought back, slamming
his fists on Tabi's head and torso. I
have never seen both of them acting
this vicious before. Both men that I
knew for years were always the kind
and sweet type of gentlemen. Never
before did they act like brainless
ruffians.

Am I the cause of this fight...?

I started to put the blame on myself.
"Maya! Take a good look at this guy
whom you've been dating for a year!
He's not exactly what you think he is.
It's true he's been hiding something
from you! All this while he's been
having sex with me, behind your
back!!"
I can't listen to this. No... It's not true...
Both of you are liars!!

********************

It was Christmas Eve, I told Tabi I
couldn't make it in time to be with
him but I'll rush the early morning
flight back. When the truth was I had
already on my way back from my
business trip in Singapore.

It was our first Christmas together, I
wanted to make something special
for him. I wanted to give him my
virginity because he's the one I
wanted to be with for the rest of my
life.

I reached his apartment just before
the sky turns dark. I was planning to
surprise him with his favorite
fruitcake and lovely dishes when he

comes back from work, but as soon
as I opened the door with the spare
keys he gave me, I realized he was at
home and he wasn't alone.

"Ahhh... Yeah... I like that, urgh...
Aaahh..."

I heard moans and weird slurping
sounds coming from his bedroom. So
I tiptoed my way there and peeked
through the slightly opened door.

"Liked that, honey...?"

"Yeah, yeah... Mmmm..."

With his Macbook still on his lap, Tabi
tilted his head backward on his two-
seated bedroom couch. His breathing

was fast, his eyelids shut tight, and
his moans were getting louder.
Sitting next to him was Jiyong, the
best friend who had been so
supportive when he found out Tabi
had feelings for me, and he was also
the one who encouraged me to
accept Tabi.

I couldn't believe my eyes. Jiyong
was sucking Tabi on the neck and
teased Tabi's earlobe with his
tongue. He had one hand on Tabi's
chest, pinching and twisting the
erected nipple underneath his
singlet. Another hand had made its
way inside Tabi's boxer. I could

clearly see Jiyong's hand moving up
and down on Tabi's staff underneath
the cotton boxer.

"Ermmm yeah... Keep doing that...
Aahh aaahh..."

Tabi gasped and groaned, bit his lips
once in a while. I saw him tense up a
little, groaned gruffly with his jaw
clenched.

"Good thing Maya couldn't make it
tonight, huh?"

Jiyong got up from his seat, took the
Macbook then placed it on the floor.
He stood facing Tabi who looked up
to him.

"Don't you ever tell her, Jiyong."

"Of course I won't, honey... She's like
a baby sister to me, I never want to
hurt her either."

Jiyong unbuttoned his own shirt
while bending down to french kiss
Tabi. He slowly pushed Tabi to lean
back on the couch. Their kiss was
getting more and more intense, I
could hear their heavy breathing and
their every moan.

"She'll... She'll be... back, urghh...
tomorrow..."

Jiyong continued trailing kisses
down to Tabi's collarbone, chest, and

to his hardened shaft. Then kneeled
down to pull Tabi's boxer down.

"Make sure... you leave before...
sunrise... Maya, she... she has spare
keys..."

Tabi panted hard, struggling to utter
the words. Back facing me, Jiyong's
head was going up and down. Slow
at the beginning, but then went
faster and faster. It made squishy
sounds, followed by Tabi's intense
groans.

"Awwwhh... Fuck, that feels so...
good... Mmmm yeaahh..."

Tabi grabbed a fistful of Jiyong's hair,
urging him to go even faster.

"Aaahhh... Jiyong, don't stop... Suck,
suck harder..."

I didn't wait for their lovemaking
session to end. I'd seen enough. I
silently left the apartment with tears
blurring my vision. It was already
night, but I didn't care about any
other shits anymore. Because I really
couldn't comprehend at all what I'd
just witnessed, my head was so
messed up.

I ran and ran to wherever my feet
carries me. I dismissed all the

shouting crowds and beeping horns
around me, ignored everything, and
kept running.
All I remember after that was a bright
light, so bright that it's blinding, and
it was heading my way.
Beeeeeeeeep~!!

********************

"STOP IT...!!!"
Tabi and Jiyong let go of each other
and turned to stare at me.

I groped my painful throbbing head,
screaming. Scenes of my friend since
high school that I looked up to as a
big brother giving my boyfriend a
blowjob came flashing back in my
mind. Tabi's pleasurable moans and
the slurping sounds Jiyong made
when sucking keeps repeating.

I'm such a fool...

They didn't know that I had
discovered the truth about them on
the night I was hit by a motorcycle.
Although no serious injury, I suffered
a minor case of amnesia and forgot
everything that happened that night.
They both showed endless care and

concern to me, looked after me until I
fully recovered from the accident,
mentally and physically. Tabi asked
me to move in with him a few
months after that. I felt so lucky,
being cherished and loved. As an
orphan, I'd never felt that special. I
thought I was special to them.

But I was wrong. They cared for me
only because they felt guilty.

"Thank you... for everything."

I wiped my tears dry with the back of
my hands. Inhaled deep, filling my
lungs with air. I gathered all the

strength that's left in me to carve out
a smile to them.

Because I came to realize that the
third person was me all along. They
might have already been together
since they shared the same room
back in their college years. It was me
who got in between them.

"Maya..."

"Baby..."

Tabi and Jiyong both approached
me, but I quickly put on my clothes
and got up.

"It was a mistake from the start. Now
I'm going to make things right...

Jiyong, please take care of Tabi for
me."

Tabi and Jiyong exchanged
questioning glances. I dashed my
way out from there while they were
still confused. Tabi tried to stop me
by grabbing my wrist, but I stayed
firm with my decision. I jerked my
hand back.

"Baby, please... Don't leave me..."

"Let her be, Tabi. You'll hurt her even
more if you refuse to let go. That's
selfish."

Jiyong tapped on Tabi's shoulder. I
pretended I didn't see the hurt in
Tabi's face and just walked away.
Maybe it's for the best... I can't make
you happy enough.

*********************

I scribbled on the newspapers,
searching for a small flat to rent. I'm
temporarily staying in a female
colleague's place until I find a place
with reasonable rental to live in.
"Maya, this came for you."

My colleague handed over a bouquet
of sunflowers to me. I took it with a
questioning look on my face. She
shrugged at me before going back to
her desk to pick up her purse and
leave for lunch. Then I placed the
bouquet next to the computer and
continued on facing the newspapers.

The other colleagues left the office
one by one, and finally, I realized I
was the only one there. The phone
on my desk rang and I instantly
picked it up.

"Miss Sinclair, there's someone here
wanting to see you. Could you come
down to the reception counter?"

The receptionist spoke from the
other line. I went to the ground floor
without giving much of a thought of
who it might be. I stepped out from
the lift and lazily paced to the
reception area, dragging my feet.

"Hey..."

I froze on my step and blinked. It
happened only yesterday and I never
expected to see this person again,
this soon.

"Jiyong...?"

He walked up to me and held me in
his arms firmly, as though he hadn't
seen me for ages.

"I'm sorry... so sorry, for being such a
jerk."

He whispered as he released me from
his embrace. His sandalwood scent
lingered all over me even after we
separated.

"Care to spend a little time with
me...?"

Jiyong asked, winking. I looked
around, then he giggled as he grasps
my face.

"He's not here. He went on a trip."

"Oh,"

I felt my eyes going teary, I bit my lips
trying to hold them back.

"So Tabi..."

"Let's not talk about him. There's
something I want to show you."

Jiyong smiled sweetly as he said
that. His fingers intertwined with
mine and he led me to his car. I
followed him without suspicion. After
a few minutes later only then did I
realize he was bringing me back to
Tabi's apartment.

"Jiyong... Why..."

"I need to make you understand. You
have to know about all this... about
me,"
He said, his eyes were focused on the
road but his hand gripped mine
firmly while one hand was on the
steering wheel. His tone was serious.
"Also about Tabi, why and how...
everything started. And who he really
loves."

*********************

FINAL CHAPTER:

IT’S NOT RIGHT, BUT IT’S
OKAY

When we arrived, Jiyong turned the
knob and led me into the bedroom.
"Wait, wait... Tabi's not here and it's
not right to enter his bedroom when
he's not around, besides I need to go
back to..."
I freaked out all of a sudden when
Jiyong locked the door behind him.
He shushed me and slowly pushed

me to sit on the couch. The same
couch where I'd seen him and Tabi
making out.

"The truth is, Maya... I like men. And
I've been this way for as long as I
remember. The thing between Tabi
and me started in college. Although
he's not really gay, you see... he likes
women as well."

"You mean... bisexual?"

Jiyong brushed a strand of hair that
was covering my left cheek to the
back of my ear, giving me a faint
smile.

"Tabi has a 'big appetite'. Surely
you’ve noticed this too. He had
trouble restraining because you were
sleeping next to him every night. He
didn't want to force you, he didn't
want you to get too tired and
everything... So..."

He paused there for a few seconds
before continuing, glancing over at
the closet not far from where we
were sitting.

"You're the only woman he really
wants to spend his life with. But his
abnormal sexual need is just too hard
for him to control."

I gazed down at my fingers on my lap.
I didn't know what to say or what to
think. I wasn't mad or upset about
the whole thing anymore. Yet my
mind seemed to blur out for a while.

"... Maya."

"Hmm...?"

When I looked up, Jiyong cupped the
back of my head and crashed his lips
against mine. I was too shocked to
react. I blinked hard after he pulled
away from the kiss.

"Wha..."

He didn't give me a chance to ask. He
kissed me again and this time, his
other hand crawled into my skirt.

"Stop... Mmmm..."

My hands were on his chest, trying to
push him away. But he took the
opportunity to sneak his tongue
inside when I opened my mouth.

"Ji... yong... No, this..."

His warm lips were melting me. His
sandalwood scent was
overwhelming, trapping me under
his charm. My body automatically
heated up even though my heart and
brain were screaming 'no'.

I let out a quiet moan with my eyelids
shut tight. As Jiyong's tongue
conquered mine, I could feel myself
soaking. It was so different from
Tabi's kiss. So tender, so gentle... and
so captivating.

"No... Jiyong..."

I gathered all will to break away from
his kiss. I was panting hard, and my
cheeks were hot.

"I... I can't. This is so wrong... I can't
do this to Tabi."

I stammered, trying to hide my
flashing red face from him.

"Don't push me away, just follow my
rhythm."

He smirked. I didn't understand him
but then the closet door creaked
open. Tabi stepped out from the
closet and sat by the bed, eyes on us.
He nodded at Jiyong and winked at
me.

I was still confused. Jiyong leaned
over to kiss my neck while his hand
proceeded to go further inside my
skirt, touching my soaked panty.

Is Tabi... aroused by this...?

It was so weird and so wrong. My
best friend, who was like a brother to

me, was kissing me, while my
boyfriend only sit there and watch.

"Ahhh..."

Jiyong trailed his tongue from my
collarbone to my bustline. Before I
know it, he had already unhooked
my bra and went down to kiss my
breasts.

I shuddered. I couldn't fight or
restrain, even though having Jiyong
do that to me and with Tabi watching
was truly against my will. My
breathing was hard and my lips
trembled. I turned my face to the side

when Jiyong pulled my straps down
to reveal my breasts.

"Errrnnn..."

I bit my lips as Jiyong's fingers
touches my nipples. His mouth
latched on my neck, sucking the
delicate skin. Those warm touches
defeated me and I surrendered
entirely to him.

It was so awkward and embarrassing,
yet at the same time, it felt so good.

"Ahhh Ji... yong..."

My body bounced a bit when his lips
covered my erected nipple, tongue
flickering it and mouth sucking it at

the same time. His fingers had found
their way past my panty and slid
inside my wet hole. I couldn't help
but moan even louder as Jiyong
shoved his fingers in and out of me.

"Aaahh... Ahh, ahh... Mmmm...
Jiyong, ahhh~"

The slurping squishy noise grew
louder followed by my moans. I
arched my back and bucked my hips
as Jiyong's hand moves faster. He
pressed his lips on mine to slow my
volume down.

"Yes, let me see you cum, Maya..."

He groaned in my mouth before
going down to suck my nipple again.

"Urghh...! Ahhh, ohhh...."

My stomach tensed, muscles
convulsed. I felt myself explode cum
on his fingers and my whole body
was shaking.

I was still catching my breath when a
hand clasped my face and stuffed
something into my mouth.

"Glurggh..."

I gagged at the hard staff being
shoved into my throat, I pushed it
away but then Tabi grabbed a

handful of my hair as he slowly rocks
back and forth.

My voice was stuck in my throat
when I felt something warm, wet,
and slimy flickering my swollen clit.
Jiyong sucked my clit and teased it
with his tongue, his hand stroking his
own hard member.

Tabi pulled his staff out from my
mouth and kneeled down to kiss me,
then showered his kisses down to my
breasts and nipples. I saw Tabi's
hand was doing its job on Jiyong's
long rod.

The feeling was strange and
unexplainable. It felt so wrong, yet so
right at the same time. Listening to
their heavy breathing aroused me.
Having both men's tongues
stimulating all my sensitive parts
feels so incredible.

"I never thought you'd taste so good,
Maya..."

I thought I heard Jiyong whisper. I
wasn't really listening, I was busy
moaning with Tabi sucking my nipple
and his fingers pinching the other
one.

Without warning, something drove
inside me that caused me to groan
loud, tilting my chin up. I opened my
eyes to find Tabi already stood up
and crashing his hips against Jiyong's
backside.

Each time Tabi moves forth, a groan
slips my mouth as Jiyong's long cock
hits me so deep all the way in.

"Urghhh this is... so fucking nice...!"

Jiyong leaned over and kissed me
roughly. I screamed when Tabi thrust
faster and Jiyong was pushed deeper
inside me.

"Ohh, ohhhh yes, I'm gonna...
Aaahh~"

"Scream it, baby... Urrghh...! Arghh..."

Tabi growled deep in his throat,
followed by Jiyong's groans. My body
trembled again as tremors of insane
pleasure ran through my veins like
electric shocks.

Jiyong pulled me up and positioned
me on his lap. He inserted his long
staff into my tight virgin ass, I let out
a wail when Tabi too, shoved himself
deep in my wet vagina.

Holding both my legs, Tabi thrust
viciously back and forth while Jiyong

bounced himself in and out my
asshole.

I somehow enjoyed it even though it
was painful at the beginning.

"Aarghhh harder, baby... Fuck me
harder..."

I couldn't believe those words had
just come out of my mouth. Tabi
supported my head up with his hand
and nibbled on my lips, increasing
his speed. Jiyong sunk his teeth on
my shoulder, squeezing my tits. He
was getting near too.

"Ahhh, aahh argghh... Fuck~ erghh
aahhh..."

When they both hit my walls deep I
felt like fainting. I held my breath for
a few seconds, releasing a brutal
orgasm. My body was shaking wildly
on top of Jiyong. Tabi used his arms
as support so that he won't collapse
on me. His sweats showered my
breasts as he leaned down to kiss
me, while Jiyong was kissing my
cheek and jawbone from behind.
Then Tabi's lips left mine and shifted
on Jiyong's.

"I can still go for another round,"

Tabi smirked, carrying me up. Jiyong
got up as well and headed to the bed.

"Show me what you can do, baby..."

Tabi sat on the bed beside Jiyong,
stroking his still hardened cock. He
gestured me to come to him. I
hesitated at first, I didn't really know
what to do. But Jiyong went behind
me and moved my hand towards
Tabi's face. His body leaning against
mine and I bent down when he did.

Jiyong slowly moved my head forth
so that I could kiss Tabi, while he
kissed the nape of my neck softly. His
hand was holding mine, moving it
from Tabi's face down to the chest
while his other hand circled around
my ribcage, caressing my breasts.

Tabi had both hands busy rubbing
my soaked clit and stroking Jiyong's
shaft.

"Ernn~ mmm..."

A lustful moan escaped my mouth
when Jiyong and Tabi both teased
my areolas with their tongues then
sucked noisily on my erected nipples.
My knees turned limp immediately as
Tabi's fingers vibrated in my hole.

"Ohhh... Uhhh..."

They sucked my nipples harder that
my legs could no longer feel the floor.
I could burst anytime soon.

"Ermm nice."

Tabi licked his fingers covered in my
juice. Then pressed my shoulders
down to kneel in front of him. So I
took his staff into my mouth, doing it
like I was enjoying my favorite
strawberry cream lollipop. Jiyong sat
next to him and they started to suck
each other's tongue.

I reached to touch Jiyong's cock,
stroking it up and down. Without
thinking much, I let go of Tabi's and
took Jiyong's into my mouth. I heard
him gasp, and he clasped my face to
stop me.

"No, Maya... Urgh... ahh..."

Jiyong gasped again when I ignored
him and continued slurping on his
cock. I tasted his salty pre-cum on my
tongue. He ran his fingers inside my
messy hair, groaning, enjoying what I
was doing to him.

When I switched back to Tabi's, my
hand remained on Jiyong's hard
member, giving him a slow handjob.

"Oohhh baby, I didn't know you can
blow so well..."

Tabi twitched inside my mouth,
drooling pre-cum for me to swallow.

"Darn it, I can't take it anymore..."